Chapter 40

REIGN
I'm just an idiot in the absence that my brain is trying to absorb and process everything I've heard before.
Until the familiar figure blocked in front of me. I slowly look at her face only to see that kind of mischievous face, I've doubted.
"Shenlo Arden."
"Or you may call me, Shenlo Rizen Mcdemort." His simple answer was that he frowned at me, I noticed the twinkle in his eyes because of the tears that were about to drip.
"I know why you called me, please come with me, I'll tell you everything." Confused, I got up and followed him, he put me in his car and I just let him take me where he wanted.
We stopped infront of a huge house, the area was totally far from the city.
"My house." she simply answered and went down and I followed again as she invited me inside.
The whole house was screaming with elegance but it wasn't that that grabbed my attention but a big picture hanging on the wall.
Its me.
"Yes its you."
"I d-don't understand ... w-who are you?" He just smiled sadly and pulled me up, we stopped in front of a door and he gently opened it without letting me go. Upon entering, he first closed the door and then made me sit on the edge of the bed.
"So where did you want me to start?" I took out the gun I was holding and showed it to him to his surprise, he took it and sat on the couch next to the bed and stared at it then looked at me.
"Did dad really leave a responsibility to you?"
"D-dad? W-what? Did I hear it right? And a-what responsibility?"
"Yes. You heard it right."
I immediately fell silent and was enveloped in intense nervousness.
"You are the one who is destined to kill the person who is also destined to be with you for life, why are we both so unlucky?" he said sadly and walked close to me and sat next to me then stroked my cheek.
"I always wished to do this to you, but I can't because I know ... you won't let me. I wanted to touch you, but ... I restrained myself because I knew you would still be confused, I did everything for stop you, to warn you because I know you will also experience what I experienced but I couldn't stop you from getting hurt, I'm sorry. Reign you're my sister ... II am your sister. "
"K-brother? W-I don't m-remember that I have a brother."
"I was only 6 when dad sent me away with aunt Lana, he took me abroad to protect me and to hide, mommy was making you pregnant when the conflict between hunters and vampires intensified. Dad can't protect me while protecting the both of you so he'd better take me away with them auntie. I didn't have a chance to see you when mommy gave birth to you. I was always waiting then so that I could come back to see you but I never had a chance until I found out that mom died. "
"I was too you when mom died, that I didn't even understand."
"Cause dad don't want you to understand." He looked again at the gun I had handed him earlier.
"According to aunt lana, it was when I heard her talking with her husband. Dad assumed that it was the vampires who killed mom without knowing that it was cristina, because dad was wrapped in anger and desire to give justice to mom, dad hunt the most powerful family of vampires and end up terminating the queen. " I seemed to pour cold water on what I heard from him.
"Our father killed sage's mom, using this gun." Little by little I looked down there as tears kept falling because of that fact.
"And the last bullet in it was the locust that dad wanted one of his sons to use to kill the next king. At first I thought I would do it, but you left it and that only meant one thing, you are destined to kill the sage. "
"n-no ... I-I c-can't do that!"
"Shhh let me tell you everything please? Don't cry first, I'm crying too." He hugged me and I let him know.
"Soon we were tracked down by another vampire opponent, they killed aunt lana and her husband and so did I. I died. But a vampire brought me to life and said I was her mate."
"At first we got along well, and I fell in love with him without knowing the truth that he's the first born frost. Before we got married he tried to kill me but I beg him not, he let go of me, he threw me out. I love him so much but he didn't accept me and chose to give up his throne and tradition. That is why I always want you to leave him as early as you could, because I don't want you to experience Hage is heartless and hard as rock, he can never fight himself and break his own law for me because he hates our family. When it happened, I came home trying to find you, the only family I have, the only sister that I want to protect. Especially when I found out that you were the mate of Hage, the youngest son of frost. I found you, so I enter ed that university carrying tita lana's surname as an Arden to watch over you, to try to get close to you. Even if I pretend, I even hide my true emotion so that you don't suspect because I don't want to surprise you with this fact. I want you to find me for the truth. I annoyed you and at the same time tried to stop you all because I want to protect you. "
"I started to investigate, know every details, even about that muffins."
"Cristina is one of a member of the council, aunt lana introduced me to all the members of the hunters, Vampire hunters, our family is in charge of everything, starting with our ancestors. And the end of its term is on our father. Wanted neither cristinang would have the leadership, but after dad died he too quickly disappeared the hunters. " I cried a lot because of what I found out. Damn it, all this time? I was a daughter of a hunter? I don"t know if I can accept everything I know, if I can still accept who I am.
"I know you love him, I can see it through your eyes, but I don't know if I should. I don't want you to experience what I've been through reign. You're the only one I have, the only one left in akin and I can't afford to lose you. " He caressed my back. I seemed to be comforted by my crying. So many questions went through my mind.
sage knows that i am the son of the one who killed his mom.
I remember him telling me that before he made me a vampire he already knew my whole being. He probably also knew that ... I was the son of the leader of the hunters.
Is it true you just used me?
Did you really love me? Or is my brother right? Are you just using me? Will you do to me what your brother did to my brother?
Is it selene? is everything he showed true? All this time they know me ?! While I was ignorant of the truth, I looked like a fool, and I even faced the king. Is that how he finds out how he thinks of me? and is that how Hage treats me like that? Damn it.
"I don't know how to accept everything, this life is so fvcking ridiculous! II can't accept this, please tell me it wasn't true, It was just a fvcking dream! Please tell me!" I screamed in anger and pain and she just calm me down. I cried even harder, this is more painful than seeing him with someone else. I'm so mad kala cristina, not knowing sage feels the same way. I know how he feels, and I understand if he uses me but it hurts. I was hurt but I could do nothing. I can't do anything because I don't know if it's right? if needed more?
I should have died.
I should have fvcking died!
She didn't speak she just stay beside me and comforting me. As I cried until I passed out in too much emotion and pain.
I woke up feeling very heavy, it wasn't such a good time for me to like to get up.
There was no sunlight that often reminded me of things I should do, the surroundings were shady and it was disgusting.
"By the way, you're awake, here I am cooking. You didn't eat last night, I brought you here because I know you're still weak."
I didn"t turn around to face him, I just stared out the window and watched how the weather matched how I was feeling.
"Reign ...?"
I slowly faced him and I could see the sadness in his eyes.
He sat down next to me laid down the tray with only food in front of me. I just stared at the foods she prepared for me but there was something there that made me lose my appetite to eat, I just stared at it and I felt as if my stomach was going to turn so I quickly avoided looking at it. There's nothing wrong with that, I just can't understand why my stomach demanded when I saw it. Like it wasn't what my stomach wanted to have.
"Don't you like my cooking?"
"No, I just don't really feel like it."
"I see, if you're hungry, just tell me, then what you want to eat, I'll cook for you."
"Thank you." She just nodded and stormed out her room with the tray of foods. I went back to lying down and tried to sleep.
From time to time my phone rang that I was not able to look at. I don't want to, I don't want to hurt ourselves anymore. I don't want to go back, I'm just here.
The phone rang several more times until it stopped on purpose. Most likely its battery has been drained from not stopping ringing.
It was afternoon when I thought of getting up, Shenlo came here inside to offer me food a few times but I also refused him a few times.
I was still a little dizzy and sat on the edge of the bed before trying to stand up again, but that's how I was shocked when I heard a voice outside the room.
"This is trespassing! You entered my house without even getting my permission!"
"Shut up! I know she's here! Open the door I want to talk to her!"
"No! I will never let you hurt my brother again!"
"I'll just talk to him."
"Get out."
"No! I'll just leave when I talk to him so move away! Reign? Reign please I know you're here, please lets talk, we're worried about you!" She started to knock. What ... how did he find this place? And what is selene doing here ?!
"Reign pleaaase! Talk to me?"
"Leave selene, Just leave."
"Did you hear that ?! Just leave first! Give her a break!"
"Reign I know you already know everything but please, don't leave Van. He loves you and he will wait tomorrow night, its your wedding night, I will leave knowing here what you will wear, I hope .... I hope you go." After saying that I never heard his voice again.
The door slowly opened and shenlo entered with a box, she looked at me with worried filled her eyes.
"I'll leave it here, the decision reigns and whatever it is, no matter how difficult it is for me, I will always get your back, I will support you." After saying that, he immediately left the room.
I looked at the oversized silver box with the black ribbon. I slowly approached it and opened it. A black and very elegant gown startled me. I couldn't help but rub it with my fingers and when the mixture of rough and soft texture I immediately recovered my fingers and closed my eyes tightly. When I woke up, I looked at the gown again and gently removed it from the box, then looked in the mirror and applied it to my body.
My eyes watered looking at my reflection.

I hope I'm not the son of the man who killed his mom, I will never be able to be with him while the guilt is in my chest.
As long as I think of the sin my parents committed against their family.
It was night when I thought about leaving the room, the whole house is so quite that I could even hear only the sounds of my steps.
Where is shenlo?
And right after I said her name in my mind, the main door immediately opened and she entered there. I was about to speak when it stopped and stunned the person who followed him.
He"s in his formal suit, with every step he takes shouting power and authority.
I was still slightly bent as it kept coming closer to my front and when I looked at my sister, concern appeared on her face, concern for me.
"I want to talk to you alone, If you don't mind Ms. Mcdemort?"
Shenlo bowed first before signaling to me that it was okay and he quickly disappeared from our sight. I was left in front of him, groping for what to say and do. I also don"t know if I can even look him in the eyes like I did when we first met after all I knew between my family and his family.
"Please have a sit, sir."
"Just call me Hades thats where I am comfortable." After he said that he sat down on the long couch and I was in front of him. Even in the way he sits you will know that he is not just casually. His looks are biting into your personality as if just looking at you with his eyes nitl he knows you immediately. I no longer wonder to whom those two frosts inherited the look and manner of speech and look they even of habit. He first stared at me so hard that I thought I could hardly look at him anymore.
"You really are a resemblance of your mom."
"Raigen is my first love how can I let my diciples to kill her?" that's when I looked at him.
"M-my mom?"
"Yes, your mom. We had a relationship with your mom, even though she was just a human and I was a vampire, but I lost her because of the tradition we have, and it was too late when I found out that your Dad had married them. from my family's mortal enemy family. "
"Who would have thought that my son would be the son of the woman I once loved and the one who killed my husband?"
"I-I'm s-sorry Hades ..." I said with a sigh because I was embarrassed when he mentioned those last words.
"I want to be honest with you reign. I don't want you for my son, but that doesn't mean that I hate you, nor because I don't want you. Somehow you are still the son of someone who has played a big part in my life and I am not telling you this because I want you gone or leave or even die. "
"I can't do that to my son. I came here, to tell you everything that my son had sacrificed for you. And to tell how much he loves you that its breaking him even more." I could not speak again and waited for him to tell me everything.
"You know, my son before is as hard as rock, cunning and ruthless every time he fights, of all my children Sage is the most dangerous, but all that changed when he found out who his mate was. And first he was so frustrated and becomes rebellious especially when hage relinquishes his responsibility as the next king.I know sage had a girlfriend then but since he couldn't do what his brother did he gradually accepted it.I have no idea who the woman is set for him to be its last name sage hid from me as he started to find you. "He paused for a moment and his eyes became more serious just staring at me.
"Even though I don"t know I have a suspicion as to who the woman came to him, Sage was so confused that time that he barely spoke and chose to distance himself from his family, I already knew that move of his and I knew it was related to his mommy. I know he hates you but loves you at the same time, I know that when he watches over you and finds out who you really are, he already loves you that's why it's hard for him, it becomes hard for him ... .until ... "He paused again.
"The day came when you two were supposed to get married but he faced me and told me that you're still not accepting the contract I could have missed that, but when he said he wanted to give up the tradition and let you go I was there. began to get angry and wonder. "
"We left and went to the place where the punishment was taking place and there he admitted to me that you were the son of the man who killed his mommy. I wanted to kill you that time but my son begged me not to harm you. He begged me to let you know to live and he will just let you stay away from him so that you will be safer and he also told me that you don't need to know everything about the past. You see, he's protecting you, he doesn't want to hurt you even if it's just the beginning the one who is so hurt and suffering. And you know what he offered in exchange for your freedom to live? " Suddenly I stopped breathing, while trying to hold back my tears that were about to drip. I know what he was going to say but I still want you to hear even though I know it hurts.
"He offered his own life to me in exchange for the freedom of the woman he loved." and with that, tears streamed down on my face.
"Rules are rules and laws are laws I couldn't do anything then but do the right thing even if it's my own son. I thought that day I would lose a child too, do you know how painful that was for me? I lost it ng asawa, and I don't know how to accept that my son will leave me too. "
"My son loves you so much reign, I don't even know how he can do that when he's so ruined. It's hard to choose between the woman who was the first part of your life and the woman you currently love. He loves his mom so much. much, and because he loves you, he is neglecting himself, he can no longer love himself because he is already giving it to you, he is making you up even if he continues to break down with you two. I want to see my son's smile again, smile I only saw when he was alive or his mommy. I want him to be whole again, I want you both to find yourselves. And not to see you two losing yourselves in the process of holding on to each other, when you both knew it wasn't easy. You two need to heal. And you can't do that as long as you're still in the past. I want you both to learn how to let go. Because you won't be happy as long as you see each other 't is a past that you have nothing to do but you the difficulty. You both need a rest, a break. And learn to forgive yourselves for sins you did not commit. I am not saying this because I want you to leave him, it is still your choice. As for me, let time fix everything first, I won't force you to do the thing that I know you're not sure about, especially in today's situation. I want to give you time to think, if its yours, it will be yours and if not then its not yours to begin with. "
"Think about it reign, and no matter what happens I will still understand your decision and when the time comes that it's okay, I will gladly accept you in my family."
That's all he said and signaled that he was leaving. He tapped my shoulder before he leave this house.
I can't find the right word to describe how I feel, I try to crawl to myself to be strong and fight but contrary to what my mind says I should have stopped first. .
Hades is right, I knew to myself that I felt no resistance to everything he said even if it hurts for me to know how painful it is that sage endured only for me even though he knew my Father was the reason why he lost his mom.
If I think we are both victims, but I can't get it out of my mind that every time I think of his face and see it I will remember everything that happened and I will continue to feel guilt for the sin I did nothing. He has sacrificed a lot for me.
Maybe it's time for me to do the samething, even if I hurt him and at least I know the result will be good. I know that will help him rebuild. And no matter what happens I know I will not regret the decision I made.
To be continued...