Chapter 25

On my journey home I kept thinking about what happened to us. What made us leave things as they are? Were we not in love? or atleast that is what I thought. I thought our relationship was stable enough to withstand anything but I have never been more wrong. The fact that Marcus decided to be the judge and jury and convicted me of cheating is just astonishing. I cant even wrap my head around it.

I thought of going to his place to force him to listen to me but am too proud for that. Me , beg a man, never. My parents raised me better than that. I got home to the silence and comfort of my house.

I called work and asked them if it was okay for me to go back before my off days are over and they agreed. Actually they agreed too quickly making me think they must be short staffed. I don't want to stay in this house alone, my thoughts will drive me insane.

I didn't realize how much I actually loved this man until now. I thought maybe I just cared for him but as it turns out I have fallen head over heels in love with that idiot. I scrubbed the house clean just to keep my head from going back to him.

I feel silly for thinking there would ever be more between us than just sex. I would go as far as saying I was delusional to think he would love me but here we are. I got my answer in the most hurtful of ways. An answer that I can't refute or even try to defend. An answer that I have to accept otherwise I would get hurt ,if I haven't already.

I turned on my radio, connected it to my phone and turned on YouTube. Me singing Rita ora's wish I could let you love me felt too emotional. I remembered why I had closed myself off from love. How I felt at the time, the mistrust, the joy, the insults. I couldn't take it anymore .Giving someone everything that you have only for them to give you a fraction or even nothing at all can be frustrating. This is exactly why I didn't want to try again.

Dating has three stages, according to my opinion . First comes the magic ,the stage where you can't stay away from each other. You're always together, trying new things together and going everywhere together .All lovey dovey and all that crap. The stage where you feel like you can take over the world. This stage doesn't stay long maybe a month or two.

Then comes the disappointment , you both do things that annoy the other person. Making promises that you can't keep. Cheating and betrayal are all in this stage.

Lastly comes the embarrassment. Every time your partner does something terrible, you hear about it from your mutual friends and the public. People judging you for choices that you had to make. One of the partner's is labelled as a villain and mostly its the woman. The insults from your partner are directed at you because you left or you chose to stay. Sometimes your confused about whether you should leave or stay.

We came from the first stage to the last stage really quickly. Like shit, we deserve some glucose and a place to rest because that was too quick. From being so in love to getting insulted about things you never did. I wish I had kissed his brother, atleast I would be guilty of something and not some made up accusations. I am disappointed in Marcus I won't lie but most of all am disappointed with myself.

It was just plain madness to think that he cared for me . In any case you always get what you want. This was not meant to be ,he was not meant to be mine and I have to accept that sooner rather than later.

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Jake's POV

I felt ecstatic that I broke them up, like seriously I deserve an award for pulling of this shit off. Don't get me wrong, I love my brother but I love my girlfriend more. My brother won't get down on me or allow me to do all the freaky stuff I want to do . Besides I can't marry my brother. As they always say a happy wife ,a happy life and I intend to keep her happy.

I know what you are thinking, that am an awful brother. Yes I am ,I could care less what happens to him. He has always been a selfish thwart, making his needs superior to mine. He always has to have the most beautiful women on his hand. He didn't care who's woman he had, whether she was single, married or dating didn't matter to him.

And now after destroying other peoples relationships and lives , he thinks that he deserves a happy ending? Never! Not if I have anything to do with it. He doesn't deserve anything, not his money and certainly not a good woman. I don't think he knows what to do with a good woman.

He took the love of my life and dated her for years. He even proposed to her. Did he ever want to know if she was dating before they met? No, he never does. He broke my heart. I had to watch them fall in love and fuck ,while there was nothing I could do. I am his karma.

She didn't love him ,I knew she didn't because she told me. She was after his money. If she married him and they got divorced ,she would get half of his money. But that motherfucker was too smart. He broke up the engagement and we had to get creative.

Then he comes here and falls for an African girl. That is unacceptable. We will not let our plans be derailed by some girl we know nothing about. So I got rid of her . It wasn't that hard. My brother doesn't trust anyone with anything and since he has trust issues I just preyed on his insecurities.

I knew if he caught her cheating in any form ,he would leave her and I was right. He left that girl stranded in the middle of nowhere. So cold. I must admit I didn't think he would believe me but he did. He threw away everything over a lie. Dumb idiot.

I don't know much about Zawadi but one thing I noticed was she is in love with this stupid guy I call brother. And my brother is too dumb to see it ,always has been. Too wrapped up in making his walls higher and thicker to realize that someone actually loves him. Or he won't admit it to himself. I don't know if he notices how she looks at him, like he is the king of her world.

She should get someone else to love because my brother is the worst person to fall in love with. He doesn't deserve to be loved. He deserves to stay alone and rot in the palace that he created.

Zee has a lot of pride ,we both could see that. So I am convinced that she won't come barging in here to apologize for something she didn't do. Knowing my brother, he is waiting for her to come groveling back but I don't see that happening anytime soon.

They were a beautiful couple but they have to stay apart for my plans to work.