Chapter 30

One day later......

" All her vitals are good. She is healing properly. We will keep her here for a day or two for observation before discharging her" said a young doctor.

Doctor Almasi has been my doctor since I was admitted. He has black hair, slim bodied but tall and a beautiful chocolate skin color that glows in the sun. He is the youngest doctor I have seen so far ,if you don't count those on internship. In his white coat he was confident and in charge, ordering the nurses around.

He has been kind to me, listening to all my complains and easing my worries without complaining. I like him. As my doctor and not as whatever it was you're thinking. He on the other hand was doing his job perfectly. He made sure to check on me around the clock. He was handsome and am sure he was breaking hearts all over the hospital.

24 hours have passed since I awoke from my slumber. I have assured everyone that am okay in spite of the occasional aches in my body. I don't want them to worry more than they had to.

Looking around me, my parents and Zuri are listening to the doctor talk while my mind was elsewhere. My mind drifted, again. This has been happening very frequently in the last 24 hours . It seemed I had more to ponder.

" So she can come home in two days?" Asked my dad.

" Yes ,that is if everything goes according to plan"

" Am sure Zee is tired of staying in the hospital" joked Zuri.

" Who said I am tired. Perhaps am having a blast after all, this is a paid vacation"

" Zee don't joke about this. You almost.. d-died"

My mom's voice broke at the end. Mentioning what we were all afraid of saying or even worse thinking. I was lucky to be alive. It was a miracle.

" Mum, am joking because I feel okay. Don't worry am almost completely healed, you heard what the doctor said." I assured her.

Not that it made any difference. I scared them. Every time they look at me it was as if they were confirming that I was still there. Since I woke up I have not been alone. I always had one of them here, helping me.

I feel suffocated by them. Someone was always watching my every move. I couldn't even cough without them fricking out. I was not used to this .I was not used to being surrounded by people day and night. I needed some space to breath and think clearly without them breathing down my neck.

The doctor left with my dad leaving my mum and Zuri behind.

" Are you comfortable?" Asked Zuri.

" Yes I am "

These type of questions were becoming annoying. If something was wrong I would tell them. They would be the first to know.

" Zuri don't you have somewhere to be?" I asked needing her to leave.

She got the message that I wanted to be left alone.

" Oooh yea, I have lunch with John today. I have to go before am late "

" Say hi for me"

She left my mom and me. Now it was time to get rid of mum. I needed some peace and quiet.

" So....." I trailed off.

" So when were you going to tell me about your boyfriend?"

What? My eyes widened and my mouth formed an O. I never saw that coming. From her question she clearly knew something that I didn't know.

" What boyfriend?" I asked obviously confused by her question.

Am I dating someone I don't know about? Did I hit my head that bad? I thought I was only out for a week.

" The white guy"

" Which white guy?"

" Najua unajua naongelea nani" (I know you know whom am referring to)

" Mama sina mpenzi"(mum I don't have a boyfriend)

" And why did that white guy who came to see you say that he is in fact your boyfriend?" She asked accusingly.

" What did he say his name was"

" Marcus"

Aargh! Damn it. Who else could it be? That fucking idiot. He told my mum we were dating. Was he delusional? The nerve of that guy. Am going to kick his round perfect ass. Shit! Why is his ass that perfect? No! No! What the hell was he thinking putting me in this situation?

" Mum it's complicated"

" So tell me about it. I have time and you are clearly not going anywhere"

She took a seat ,placing her hands on her chest ,waiting. Nothing gets passed her.

" We were dating then we broke up like three weeks ago"

" Huh maybe he wants you to get back together"

" Why would you say that?"

" Because he came every single day to check up on you. No one does that with someone they don't care about"

So he has been here everyday huh. How comes I have not seen him here even ones. Was he hiding from me? Perhaps it was not Marcus at all and it was really someone else entirely.

But If it really was him. It was a sweet gesture from him to come and visit me but I will believe it when I see it. You didn't see the hatred in his eyes. I did. He was hurt by me, by my actions. Actions that I did not take intentionally.

He betrayed me. He broke my trust and my heart. He single handedly broke this relationship. He doesn't deserve to say that we are dating.

" Like I said ,it is complicated mum."

" Your in love with him"

The fuck.. how does she know? Is it written on my forehead or something ?

" No am not" I retorted harshly and too quickly.

" Yes you are my dear. I can see it in your eyes"

With my right hand I rubbed the bridge of my nose, I sighing loudly.

" So what if I love him? Mum ,it doesn't change the fact that he doesn't feel the same way about me" I spurt

" Oh honey, he loves you too"

No that can't be true. He doesn't love me and probably never will. He has shown me time and again that he doesn't feel the same way. I won't be the dumb one to fall for the illusion again.

" How do you know?"

I was curious about what it was that she saw.

" Because I could see it in his eyes. He loves you but he doesn't know what he feels yet. "

" Yea well it doesn't matter mum. "

" But baby it does"

" No it does not. And can you please drop this topic already. My life is not a soap opera. We broke up and we are never getting back together"

" Okay" she raised both her hands up in surrender.

" But you should know, I think you guys would make the perfect couple and I believe their will be a happily ever after somewhere"

Of course she would think that. All those soap operas she has been watching are finally getting to her head. This was the real world . Full of lies , betrayal and heartbreak. Not some fairytale.

" Mum I love you but please stop. I beg you" my voice was breaking.

Tears were rushing to my eyes. I wanted to cry so bad for everything that I lost, for the love that was not meant to be.

" I will stop. Am going to look for your father . Please rest"

I was left alone . This was all I wanted all along ,to be left alone. Now that I have ,I don't know what to do. I felt alone . She opened up a can of worms that I thought I closed tightly and threw away the keys.

My head was filled by thoughts ,fears, feelings and doubts. Every dark thought that I was not ready to face was staring back at me. I was too engrossed in my thoughts to hear someone come in.

" Hello love"