63 - Couldn't See It

A week passed quickly. Nothing has changed in the way his family treats him especially now that he has no money in their eyes. He also had a small stall on the corner and sold anything. Somehow, he has an income but not as much as his income from being a fruit picker in Japan.

"Buy it, Aling Marie!"

He laughed when he turned to see Fidel. "What are you doing here?"

“Help you sell, what else? Then I will look for a wife here in your ward. ”

He just shrugged at what it said. It's better to be here now, he'll go home for a while and prepare lunch. He begged the young man to watch his goods first and he agreed as long as he brought him a dish.

But he was still far away, and he could hear his parents arguing. Her father was probably the reason for their quarrel and even though she wanted to get involved, she chose not to.

At the back door he passed. Her four siblings are already at the table and are anxiously waiting for her to cook. saturday so they are off.

"We're hungry!"

"I'll just cook fast."

"Have breakfast Ate, ah!" chasing them. They have been using cell phones one by one and letting their parents fight without a day without hurling hurtful words.

“You are just a woman, Odong! You have no plans to scrape ?! Marie Cris is no longer in Japan, hey! We don't have any more money, we still have a lot of bills. You still have chickens! What Odong? Huh? Your wife is so worthless! ” cried their Mother.

"What do you want? Your son is fine, ask for money! ”

“You are an animal Odong! Marie Cris! Marie Cris! Get out of here and talk to your worthless Father! ”

Reluctantly he came out. The whole living room was dirty again because their Mother threw stones at it. He held the spoon in one hand and was forced not to speak even a single letter.

“Marie Cris! What are you staring at there? You two are both worthless Father! Money has become a rock. you go home and you don't even have fifty thousand? What a waste of our education with your girl! Your tuition is so expensive and then you go home empty-handed? ”

“You said‘ you ate, ’didn’t you?” Marites spoke, leaning against the altar door. The look on the cellphone was contradictory.

“What? You don’t even have to say that, you’re a woman! ”

The hard object hit him. He bit his lip so hard. He did not want to speak lest he could not control himself.

"Speak up, sister!" malditang saad ng mga kapatid niya.

“If you are Marie Cris, you have not returned to Japan tomorrow I will evict you from this house! Do you understand me? Huh ?! ”

“Ma… H-I can't go back to Japan. W-I'm not going back there. ” He bit his lip so hard. It was as if her throat hurt as she refrained from crying in front of it.

"Punyeta!"

He threw a vase at her and hit her on the forehead. He closes his eyes slightly and he feels, he is dizzy from the force of its throw. Blood rushed to his forehead along with his tears.

“Don't you understand, huh, Marie Cris? Money is what we need! Not your presence. Money! Where will your brothers pick us up? Do you see those? You don't even feel sorry for your brothers. You only think of yourself! Since you have already graduated can you have the courage to answer now that you can't go back to Japan? Oh damn! Make a way! You think so highly of yourself that you have to go home. What are you fighting for? You’re probably a girl! ”

"Ma… T-the hurtful words are right…"

“What’s right? You’ll really hit ‘em, Marie Cris! You thought I didn’t know you cry every night and you mention the name Gheron is that ?! Even in sleep, Gheron-gheron you. That’s probably why you got home, ah. You are really funny— ”

"Stop! That’s enough ‘Ma!” He shouted loudly and his face was covered with tears and blood. Her heart seemed to tear many times. He had no intention of shouting but he was human. He is human.

“Why are you shouting now! You are rude! ” It was about to tweak him when he got close but he grabbed Mother's hand.

“That’s right‘ Ma! I am your child… ”His lips trembled as he said the word he is their child because the truth is, he has not felt it since he grew up and became conscious. He has never been a favorite in this family. “I’m not a walking Bank,‘ Mom! I’m not something that puts out money when you want to. ‘I’m tired too, it hurts… I love too. I'm sorry if I don't make a good contribution to this family, I'm sorry you think I'm a bad child who is annoying myself. ip because that’s true ‘Mom, you’re what I’m thinking. This family. All of you even if there is nothing left for ‘me. I’m so exhausted ‘Mom, I’m so exhausted! ‘Look at me at least once as a child. At least once in a while I will feel in this family that I am also important, that I am also a child, that I also have the right to be with you. ”

“I have not been stingy. Everything I did, all the hardship I did it for you Dad. Dad that sometimes I don’t feel loved. Dad who wanted to be with my four siblings but I didn't complain because I was the eldest. I am the eldest and I must be the one to understand. I must be the advocate. I must be the tolerant for this family. ‘Mom, I’m not an animal! I don't matter. I’m human ‘Ma. Tao! Treat me human if you can't treat me as a child… even if that's all. Even if it's just that… ”He sobbed in front of it.

"No kidding!" He got a strong slap on the Father. “Did we raise you like that so you could answer your Mother? You are ungrateful! ”

While her tears were non -stop dripping them. It was as if all his resentments were like rain that had opened up in the sky. He did not budge from his position. He is also tired of ‘Yes and Yes’ always with them.

“P-you raised me a good son,‘ Pa. It's just a coincidence that you are the worthless parent. ” He bravely faced its stern look. “Once, did you love me? Do you ever consider me a child? Or something that gives you money? I know what you do with my salary in Japan, ‘Mom,‘ Dad! I know you are wasting the money I sent. My siblings are wasting it but have you ever heard a hurtful word to ‘me’ or reproach, nothing. Because I think, that's your right. Because you have the right to live happily. Because at first I thought, money is the bridge for you to accept me as your two children. But the truth is, money can never cover a person's worth. Because even if I give you a few thousand, you don't see my value. Money is still good, there is value. Am I, of value to you? Even a small amount, is there anything left? Do I have space with you? Are you really my parent? Why is money only important to you? Why can't you see me working hard to meet all the needs of this family! Am I really part of this family because the truth is, I never felt like I was part of this family! ”

“Ate”

"A-son…"

But he shook his head. He ate his when the blood kept coming out there. He would catch his breath and his chest would almost break with the force of his heartbeat. His wound was painful but it was even more painful to think that he was never important.

"A-ate… We didn't mean ..."

"Stop. From now on, I will no longer be a burden to this family. From now on, you will learn to stand on your own two feet. I’m going to cut myself off from this family. That's all right. ‘Mom,‘ Pa… I’m leaving this family. I'm sorry if you think I'm useless but I'm happy that you're my parent. I'm happy even if sometimes I can't feel your love. I'm leaving for everyone's peace. Hopefully, you’ll be happy that I’m gone. I apologize to everyone and thank you very much, to this family. ”

After he said that, he went straight to his room upstairs. The force of her cries as she retrieves the suitcase containing her belongings. He had no plans to leave but maybe, sometimes, it was also right for him to choose himself. He will not wait for the day to drive him away… He himself left voluntarily.

He was carrying his suitcase down the stairs when he heard someone speak.

"Marie"

Gheron?

The man she had fled to Japan approached her faster than lightning. He doesn’t want to see its face so what is it doing in front of him? She quickly avoided the man.

“Tangina! What did you do to Marie? ” it was Fidel's voice but his eyes were dimming because maybe he was in tears so he couldn't see it.