Chapter 31

Shit, this dress won't fit me, it is a disaster
Don't panic Damaris, just Think wisely, what you can do in such a situation
Yes, I can lose my weight but I quickly dropped this idea, where these kinds of stupid ideas come to my mind
He sends me a dress of zero sizes, I am not that small, Ughh
I never thought about my body, because I don't t care, I am one of those women who didn't give a damm to what others think but today is my first and last date, with the first and last love of my life
Just think Damaris, what can happen now to fix this
Yes, I know what to do
I quickly wore a simple plain yellow T-shirt with blue jeans and put a white denim jacket over after wearing my converse shoes, I looked at the clock, only some hours are left for my date
I decided to check shops
After roaming for two hours in the market, finally, my eyes stops at the beautiful blue dress, I know this will work, it is slightly overpriced but I bought it anyway
The dress I chose is blue, with its skirt length hit towards my toes, and it has slight cut from thigh showing it, the bodice was plain but shoulder straps crisscrossed each other along back and front it make every beautiful design, I wore my black heels
I put some blusher with eye mascara
And put paramour, deep plum red lipstick with it, I leave my long black hair opened and curled them from down, even they are naturally curly but I did more from curl machine
Finally, I looked at myself
I am looking fine, I guess
I looked at the clock, it's 7 p.m already, he must be here at any time
My heart is beating so faster like, it will come out, I put my hand over my chest to calm myself, relax Damaris, just relax, I again put lipstick over my lips
I heard a soft knock on the door
"I am coming, just a second" I yelled, and the last look at myself in the mirror and with trembling hands opened the door
I saw him, His eyes traveled to my face, then towards my body from head to toe, I felt warm blush feeling his intense gaze over me, he looks mesmerized, I looked at him, he is wearing an expensive black tuxedo looking so handsome
He little frowned, when he realized that I am not wearing that dress which he sends for me, he said nothing and looked away, I saw the glint of disappointment in his eyes
He said nothing just little smiled at me, well this dress is not that bad on me, yaa the expensive dress he send for me is very beautiful from this one, this one is even cheaper as compared to that dress he send for me, but my dress is not that much worse, and I am looking good in this dress too
I started going towards the living room with him, we climbed on car, he helped me to sit in the car as I took hold of his hand to help myself, we are in silence, he didn't even speak a word to me well, me too
I looked at him, my heart is yearning for him now, today is the last day we will spend time together
I closed my eyes, my eyes stops at his hand, I took hold of his hand and looked out from the window, feeling the warmth of his hand because I know, tomorrow everything will change, I have to leave him forever
He eyed my hand, rested over his and he bring it towards his lips and kissed the back of my palm while driving
Finally, we reached the restaurant, as soon as the car parked, I comes out from the car opening door by myself, he frowned again but remain quiet
I linked my arm with his and we comes inside the restaurant
This place is so beautiful and amazing, elegant mad cozy
A young guy leads us towards our table
Lucifer like gentleman pulled out the chair for me to sit and I sat with him in front of me
"May I take your order?" the waitress asked
I looked at the waitress, she extra smiled towards Lucifer while battling her fake eyelashes towards him
I mentally rolled my eyes, typical her
Lucifer is obvious of her tactics, concentrate on the menu
When Lucifer asked something to her, she replied over-enthusiastic tone and more than the needed smile
Lucifer waited for me to order
I don't know what to order here, I notice a combo of Spicy cheesy made food menu, I ordered it
After she is gone,
Now it's Lucifer and me
I looked at him waiting to speak but he said nothing
So, I decided to start the conversation.
"So, don't you ask why I am not wearing that dress which you sent to me," I said to him
He looked at me, then spoke " why are you not wearing it, I thought you will like it" he said to me awkwardly
I shook my head " I don't wear it because I don't want to, my wish what I wear, and I want to wear this dress " I said stubbornly to him
Am I behaving like a child
He smiled at me lightly "Of, of course, you can wear whatever you love to" he acknowledged
I nodded to him "I will return that dress which you send for me, please return it it's not good to waste money on something which is not used " I said clearly to him
Our order arrived and we started eating
While eating, a question that is eating me alive comes in my mind
"Lucifer, can I ask something," I asked him
He nodded while eating
"Why you married that Adelina " I finally managed to ask, I know I must not talk about her, in our date but I can't stop myself to ask
He stiffens at my question
Did he love her, my throat felt dry and I swallowed at this thought
God, no he can't love her, he is mine only no one else
But soon, he will hate me
"I am sorry it's too personal" I mumbled while looking down at my spicy cheese balls which I am eating
"You don't need to answer that " I mumbled looking at the plate
Why I am embarrassing myself this much
"No, it's not like that, but I meet her when I was in college, she is my classmate, I didn't feel any attraction with her but I kind of like her, she always used to say that she loves me and one day she asked me to marry her as she wants us to be together, And I thought I can give chance to our relationship so we got married but she is not what she seems
She cheated on me sleeping around with random mens " he said coldly and bitterly, his face shows hurt in his eyes and it aches my heart why she still affects him
I put my hand over his hand
"It's okay, let's talk about something else," I said excited changing the topic
He looked at me and nods
"Um, what is the best thing that ever happened to you," I asked
He smiled and likes at me
"I think you know the answer already," he said while eating
I smiled blushingly
After we finished our food, its time to come back to the mansion
I looked at him, I want to spend this whole night with him because tomorrow will change everything in our life
Tomorrow, his feelings for me will be changed forever, the love, warmth I saw I saw in his eyes for me today, will be turned into hatred tomorrow
But, I won't destroy our present with fear of the future, I will live these selected moments as much I can, for us, for my love, for him
As we went towards the car, I interrupted him
"Can I drive, I want to take you somewhere" I asked him
He looked at me "are you sure, you can drive on heels" he said while pointing at my sharp pointed heel shoes, I smiled and took them out
"Now, I can, " I said as I climbed on car driving seat with him on passenger one
"Anyways, where are we going," he asked and I looked at him grinning
While glancing at him
"Be patient baby, you will know soon " I said grinning, I will take him there
That place gives me new hopes and peace. Whenever I am sad and troubled, I always go there, it shows me a new way to come out from my problems.