Chapter 39

Chapter 39
Probably if I was with Selena now, they would call me a weirdo. How about it, it's midnight but what am I doing? I'm here on the seashore and I'm floating under the rays of the sun and the cloudy sky.
I don't feel cold at all. Thought, my skin is cold it's even near freezing. Imagine in the middle of midnight, I am wearing nothing while floating at the sea. But I don't care at all. I can't feel any emotion but it feels like it was just a while ago I'm in so much pain.
Maybe I had enough of that pain last night that's why now, I feel so hollow. No. Void. Empty. Nothing. No worries. No bait. No joy. No anger. I can't even remember what does 'feeling' feel like.
I held my chest and remembered the pain I felt the other night but I couldn't really feel anything. My heart is still beating. Beating in a normal way but that's it. Gone.
"Kylie." Even though I didn't look at him, I knew who it was. It's Jiro. Since last night, he hasn't looked at me. He followed me even though I pushed him away several times. And he keeps telling me that he won't leave me no matter what happens and it's really irritating him.
"Go away, I don't need you here." I answered him. Coldness. Coldness is all over me. Right through my eyes. Through my voice.
"Please, Baby. It's cold here you might catch some cold." He answered me and saw when he came to the clothes that were just scattered on the beach. I saw the change in his expression as he could see that all my clothes were there. Even my under garments.
He took a breath and looked at me again. Pleading is all over his face but I don't mind. I can't feel anything, so why should I bother paying attention to the pain he feels from what I have done now?
"If you're cold you can go back now. I'll stay here." I answered him.
"I can't leave you." And then he sat next to my clothes. I also saw how he arranged your clothes if they were scattered.
"I don't need you."
"I know but still I'm not going to leave you."
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"Kylie, Daughter." I turned to Mommy.
"I told you, don't go inside my room. I wanna be alone." I answered him coldly. Week ago, we went back to Baguio. Everyone is so happy, well except for Jiro and I
Jiro's parents decided to give Aria and Kent a honeymoon in Paris so they are not in the country now.
I even heard Mom and Dad talking about Kent and Aria living in the same room with us. In my part I don't care, since my feelings are gone. I don't mind having them in the same roof, breathing the same air and so on. They're married after all and there's nothing I can do about it.
"Hey." Mommy came to me and then she sat next to me. I'm just sitting here in my bed and doing nothing. I stared at the wallpaper in my room, before it was baby pink with girly stuff on it but now, it's just plain black.
There was no sunlight entering my room anymore, I asked our maids to change my curtains into a black thick curtains. I want my room to be dark. I have also removed the stuffed toys from my room, I don't want to feel like someone is still there for me, even if they are just teddy bears.
"You've been like this for a week. What's happening? Your Dad and I are so worried." Sadness is all over her voice. Yeah, like she's not used to me to be like this. I was a sweet girl before I told them everything with Daddy but now, I don't even wanna see them, talk to them and talk to them.
I don't even pay attention to Selena's texts and calls and invitations when they go out. I just want to be alone most of the time.
"You can tell me everything and anything. I am your mother. I am really hurt seeing you like this, please Kylie son.. I am still here for you. I love you unconditionally. I'll never leave you no matter what."
And he ended up crying. I didn't do anything to stop him, I couldn't even react. How can I relate to him if I myself can't feel anything? All right.
"Just leave me alone." I gave him a simple answer. There was shock in his voice when he spoke but I ignored him and just lay down.
"I'll bring your lunch later son." Then I felt her kiss the side of my head. Until the last thing I heard was the closing of my bedroom door.
I closed my eyes and held my head where my short hair was. Before, when I saw men with my Mohawk hairstyle, it caught my attention, it was like a chicken and then others dyed their hair red, right? Funny where did my hairstyle end up.
"Miss are you sure you want that hairstyle?" Question to the woman combing my hair.
"Do I look like I'm joking?" I asked him coldly. She shook her head and trying to knock some sense on my head again but my decision is already final no one can change my mind.
"Your hair is naturally shinny and wavy and suits you well. It's even naturally light brown and too long. Don't you even regret it?"
"You're wasting my time. Are you going to cut it or what?! Do I still need to call your manager for making your customer wait?!" He didn't answer anymore, he combed it and bonded it on the top of my head and cut it.
He was still grimacing when he cut it, it's obvious that he regrets my hair but I don't care. This is my hair anyway not hers. He cut the rest of my long hair that wasn't tied up until it completely became mohok.
"It took him a while to wake up."
"I never imagined her with this hairstyle, but it suits her perfectly." "That's right. It looks like Miley Cyrus is the only peg."
"Why is he also broken-hearted?"
"What do you think? Could it be that he is just tripping that's why he's acting like this? What is he just addicted to?"
I gradually woke up to the noise. What the fck?! Why the noise here? As far as I'm concerned, I slept in my room so how could I make noise?! My eyes slowly opened, and at first it was blurry until my vision finally cleared.
"There he is awake." "Fuck!" That's what I said immediately when I noticed how bright my room was. Lights were on and my curtains are moved to one side, if only they could be removed, removed so as not to block the light of the sun.
"Who fvcking open the lights and move the hell out of my curtains?!" I screamed and cursed one after another. I took the light and curtains remote from my bedside table and clicked it so my whole room went dark and my curtains closed again.
"Waaah! It's dark!"
"My ghost!" "Is it night?"
Noisy! Noisy! Why are they here? And who gets into them here?! Don't they like to be alone?! Before I could yell at them to shut up my pulled the remote from my hand and she opened the light again so as my curtains.
"What?!" I immediately shouted. I was about to take the remote back from Samantha when I saw the serious faces of the three of them. Samantha, Ariana and Selena all looking at me.
"You have a lot to explain to us." Seriously said Selena to me.
"And you have all night to tell us everything." Ariana
"Were going to sleep over here, anyway." Samantha