Be Happy

Location: Lee's Mansion

Lee Chun's POV

I never thought it would be easy, I never imagined it would be easy giving up the feelings I have for Ji-a, but I didn't think it would be this hard either.

Seeing her here in my room, seated on the bed, it's unimaginable for me not to crave for her, it's unthinkable for me not to long to be with her.

I want to carry her up in my arms, give her a passionate kiss. I want to feel all her sweet body. Squeeze her roughly, yet tenderly - cause I never want her hurt.

I want to lay her down and make sweet love to her, I want to hear her sweet voice.

I am dying to hear her sweet voice moan into my ears, I am dying to hear her moan my name when we make love.

I want to hold her tightly afterwards, wrap my arms around her and assure her with my kisses on her neck, that I love her so much and she belongs to me as I belong to her.

All these things, I want. I desire them greatly.

Every part of my body and very organs wants this. My whole body wants her, from my head to my toes and inside my body - my heart.

I greatly desire her to be mine, every part of me wants her to be mine and mine alone... except for a tiny part in me.

A tiny part that I want to ignore but can't seem to. It keeps on reminding me about my best friend Byung-ho. It keeps reminding me on how I have wronged him so much and how I need to make it up to him by leaving Ji-a for him.

Should I call it my conscience? If Yes, then I hate my conscience so much. I just want to rip it away from inside me and throw it out, so I can do what's on my mind.

Can't it see how much I love this girl? Why is it troubling me so when all my organs are longing and at the same time hurting to be with her....

“ Was the kiss nothing too? "
Ji-a said in a low, hurting tone that I felt my heart ache.

I really just want to hold her, kiss her again and tell her that I love her so and that the kiss was the most beautiful and amazing feeling I have felt in all my life.

But that stupid guy or thing inside of me, that little thing called conscience reminded me about Byung-ho once again.

“ No, it wasn't.. but I am thinking it's a mistake, I shouldn't have done that, the kiss should have never happened. " I said, obviously I wasn't just lying to her.

I was lying to myself when I said the kiss was a mistake, it can never be a mistake.

“ Why? Why will you say that?"
She said, looking more hurt.

I guess it's time for her to know then, maybe this would make it easier for me.

“ Cause someone better than me is in love with you. " I said and watched the confusion appear on her face.

“ Huh? Someone better than you, is in love with me? " She muttered.

“ Yes, Byung-ho loves you Ji-a, yes my friend Byung-ho is in love with you. "
I said bursting the bubble.

Her reaction was that of shock and confusion. She couldn't speak, she was just staring in my direction, but she wasn't looking at me, it seemed as if her mind had wandered off to somewhere else.

“ Hope this doesn't ruin the surprise for you but he is planning on asking you out tomorrow. "
I said and that brought her mind back to the real world.

“ B..Byung-ho loves me? " She stuttered.

“ Yes, he does and if you ask me you should agree to his proposal tomorrow. You should agree to be his girlfriend. " I said but it wasn't really me speaking.

It hurts like hell saying that, advising the girl I love with so much passion to agree to be the girlfriend of another.

It hurts so much but yet I find myself saying it.

She was still quiet, I guess she was still in shock at finding out Byung-ho loves her or she is probably thinking about the good times she will have being Byung-ho's girlfriend.

“ Yes, you should agree to be his girlfriend. Byung-ho will make the perfect boyfriend, he will take good care of you and I am sure you will be happy and have tons of fun with him. "
I said and she finally spoke after I said this.

” What about you, will you be happy? " She asked.

That question was simple but it was really deep.

Will I be happy?

Happiness is not some brief feeling one feels for a time and it dies down. Like joy, shock, surprise or pain.

Happiness is much deeper than that, it's a feeling that can stay with someone for a long time even for a lifetime, likewise sadness.

One can be happy or sad for the rest of their lives. I have never thought much about that. Will I be happy seeing Ji-a and Byung-ho together for the rest of my life?

Will I be happy if they eventually get married and raise a family together? Will I ever be happy??

I really don't have the answers to that, but that future seemed like torture to me...

“ Yes, yes I will be happy if you two are together. "
I said, forcing myself to smile, so it looks believable.

“ Okay. "
She said in a low tone.

I couldn't read her facial expressions properly, I couldn't say she was at this point sad nor could I say she was happy.

“ How long have you known Byung-ho loves me? " She asked and I sighed.

“ Well, I have always had a feeling he likes you some weeks back but it was today I found out he loves you for sure cause he told me himself. Please don't let him know, you already know he loves you until he asks you out. I don't want to ruin the surprise and moment for him. "
I said and I became shocked when she stood up from the bed and started walking to the door- with weak steps.

“ Hey! " I exclaimed, and quickly ran to her.
“ What do you think you are doing huh? Where are you going? " I questioned.

“ To my room! " She half yelled
“ Coming here was a mistake. " She muttered, and she seemed kinda angry, not much but I could sense she was angry.

Her tone of speech and eyes, they tell she was.

“ O..Kay but you know you can't walk to your room, you ain't strong enough. You have to use your wheelchair. " I said but she didn't reply, she just glanced back at the wheelchair and then faced the door.

“ Stay here, let me bring the wheelchair okay. "
I said and yet I got no reply from her but she did remain at that spot.

Taking a few steps I got to the wheelchair and wheel it to her.

“ Okay, sit down now. "
I said and she slowly sat down.

I then opened the door and wheeled her away to her room. Walking slowly.

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Location: Chan's Mansion

Byung-ho's POV

I was very furious when I arrived at my place

Damn him!
Damn Lee Chun!.

I exclaimed, kicking the couch hard.

Hasn't he done enough harm to me? Hasn't he taken away from me much already?

He once took my happiness when he slept with my then girlfriend Da-eun, but that wasn't enough for him like always, he wants to take my happiness again.

Of course he is Lee Chun, he always gets what he wants, he always gets everything he sets his eyes on.

I couldn't believe my eyes when I ran into him kissing Ji-a in her room. It felt like I had just ran into an ugly terrible sight.

The door to Ji-a's room was open so I saw them when I went there to convey the message Min-seo had for Ji-a.

But I couldn't believe it, Lee Chun was kissing Ji-a, my Ji-a!

I quickly hid behind the door spying on them and my heart boiled in rage when I watched as Lee Chun kissed her passionately....

Ji-a was different from the other girls but Lee Chun had managed to get her trapped into his web.

He wanted to turn her to his new sëx doll. Why? Why her?

There are a million girls out there, why go for Ji-a, I thought he hated her before.

What am I saying, Lee Chun doesn't really care if he hates you or likes you as long as you are a girl and pretty he would surely want to get under your skirt.

After the kiss he wanted to tell Ji-a something, he wanted to deceive the poor girl so he can finally have what he wants from her. Her puṣṣy.

That's when I came in and interrupted him, before he completely deceived her then later on I thought of a plan to protect Ji-a from Lee Chun, I needed to take her away from that Evil mansion.