Shut Up Stomach!

I took his hand and we shook firmly.

“ Thank you. "
I simply said, then sat back down on the chair.

I really don't feel like talking even though I had some questions I wanted to ask him.

He smiled, then turned around walking back to meet Mia.

“ I know you all know him as Smith the actor but I want to introduce him to you all as Smith my boyfriend. Yes we are dating. "
Mia announced and they both kissed briefly..

“ Wow!..really? You guys are dating! " Kia exclaimed, rigging of excitement.

“ Yes, your beautiful sister Mia is my girlfriend. She is a very special lady and I love her so much. "
He said and Mia blushed all over.

It was weird seeing my sister Mia that way, I have always known her as the hard, serious and tough elder sister.

Well I am glad she has found someone she loves and I hope he treats her right.

Well he does look like he loves her.

I wanted to be happy for her but seeing them together just reminded me of my situation with Ji-a and I know unlike them mine isn't going to have a happy ending.

I just felt really sad...

Some minutes after my elder sister Mia had finished introducing her actor boyfriend to the family and the excitement had finally died down, I stood up from the dinner chair.

“ Hey! " I called one of the maids, the same maid that informed me Ji-a said she wasn't having dinner.
“ I want you to take Ji-a's food up to her. " I said as she came close.

“ B..But Madam Ji-a said she isn't having dinner tonight. "
She said, having a confused look.

“ I am aware of what she said, but I am telling you to take her food to her. " I said calmly.

“ But, she made it clear she wasn't hungry, I don't think it would be wise to serve her dinner, it would just be a waste and my mother always told me it's not good to waste food. "
She said and she was starting to piss me off.

“ Are you stupid or what? "
I spat and instantly she became scared, also having a silly, sad face.
“ Did I ask for your opinion, huh? Do you think I care about what your mother says? " I said in a frown and she shook her head pathetically.

“ I.. I am sorry Master Lee. "
She apologized, head buried to the ground and it seemed like she was about to cry.

“ Keep your sorry to yourself and go do what I asked you to do now! " I yelled an order and she confused her steps a few times before she finally got her composure back, walking to the direction of the stairs with a tray of food in her hands.

I felt kinda bad the way I treated her, I was too hard on her, just I was angry_ rather I am angry.

The thought of Ji-a not eating food is troubling me much, to me it seems almost the same thing like she was lying on a sick bed.

I don't want anything bad to happen to her, anything bad at all, even the slightest thing like not having an appetite.

So when the maid kept insisting it was best to leave Ji-a alone it blew up my anger...

“ Hey, stop! " I ordered and she stopped walking.

I then walked up to her.

“ I am sorry for shouting at you and what I said about your mother. Your mom is right, it's not good to waste food. Can you forgive me? "
I said sincerely and she lifted her head up to my face, eyes staring into mine.

“ Yes Master Lee. " she said.

” Thank you. "
I said and a smile returned back on her face.

“ Give me the tray, I will serve her myself. "
I said and she looked stunned, but still handed it over to me.
“ We don't want the food to waste right? That would upset your mom, so I will make sure she eats even if I will have to feed her myself. " I said and she looked even more stunned.

Not only her, everyone present in the room, including Mia and her actor boyfriend Smith, they all looked stunned.

I just smiled and climbed up the stairs with the tray of food in my hands....

Ji-a's POV

” Hey shut up stupid stomach! " I said, talking to my own stomach.

I am lying on the bed and my stomach keeps making funny, hungry sounds. I was hungry but I didn't feel like eating. I really don't have the will to eat. I don't know what's wrong with me but I feel so sad and confused. Lee Chun told me his friend Byung-ho is in love with me and wants me to be his girlfriend.

I still can't believe Byung-ho is in love with me, but that's not really the reason why I am sad. Lee Chun is the course of my sadness, he and he alone. I don't think he loves me, he might like me, he might care about me but I don't think he loves me, not as much as I love him. How could he say The Kiss was a mistake? My first kiss. A mistake?

He is saying the memory I can't ever get out of my head is a mistake? The moment I cherish the most is a mistake? How can he say that? And how can he advise me to agree to his friend's proposal? How can he tell me to be Byung-ho's girlfriend? He didn't even care to ask me how I feel. He didn't even care to know if I love Byung-ho or not.

He wasn't thinking about me but himself, he was ready to hand me over to Byung-ho like a piece of exchangeables. That hurt me, that hurt me a lot.

How can I be Byung-ho's girlfriend when everything about me loves Lee Chun? Well I guess he doesn't feel about me the way I feel for him, that's why it is so easy for him to give me away. I just want to sleep but don't want to wake up, cause I don't want to face Byung-ho tomorrow..

It will be so weird when he asks me to be his girlfriend, I mean what will I say to him? I don't love him but I do like him. He is a very nice person and is my good friend but I don't get butterflies in my stomach nor do my heart race when he is around me. I don't feel that spark and I definitely don't think or dream about him. How then can I be his girlfriend?

I don't know, but I really don't want to hurt Byung-ho's feelings by rejecting him. I think the best thing for me to do is just leave this house and everything about Lee Chun, Byung-ho. Everything. It would be best if I go back to the orphanage home and live my life the way I have been living before I met Lee Chun....

My stomach started speaking again, this time more loudly and it hurts a lot!.

“ Argggg! " I groaned holding on to my stomach.
“ What's your problem huh? Why are you making noise and causing me pain huh? Alright then continue, even if you talk all night and hurt me, I still won't be eating anything tonight so I advise you let me be. "
I said, talking to my stomach like it was a human being.. and just then I heard a knock on the door and my heart leapt when I heard the voice.

“ Ji-a, can I come in? Are you still awake? "

It was Lee Chun's voice, what's he doing here?

Instantly I felt this excitement inside of me and I just wanted to see his face. I almost forgot I was angry at him, but then I did remember I was angry at him.

“ What do you want? " I said in a harsh tone.

“ Please can I come in first? I will tell you what I want then. " He said.

“ No, tell me what you want or you can go back to where you came from. "
I said, still using my harsh tone on him.

He went quiet for some seconds...

“ I just want to see you Ji-a, please don't send me away. "
He said in the most heart melting way that I couldn't refuse him even if I wanted to.

“ Come in. "
I said, giving my permission and the door opened up.

He walked his handsome self into the room and I was already becoming nervous...wait a minute. He has a tray of food with him. He brought his dinner to my room? He must be really hungry then.

“ You know you could have finished with your food before coming here, that would have been much better. " I said and he smiled slightly.

“ This isn't mine. " He said.

“ Huh... Then who's? " I asked.

“ Yours of course. This food belongs to you. " He said, walking towards the bed.

Huh? What is he talking about?