Lost Her For Good

“ Thank you, you have just made me really happy. "
He said then planted a kiss on her forehead.

“ I should go change then. "
Ji-a said.

“ Okay, okay... Do you need my help with anything? Perhaps helping you walk to your room? "
He asked.

“ No, I will manage by myself. "
She said softly.

“ Alright, be careful. " He said and she nodded, then glanced at me again, this time I knew she wanted me to say something.

In the absence of no words from me she turned around, walking to the direction of her room....

Meanwhile as all this was happening Kia had entered into the sitting room with one of her friends and they sat down on one of the couches discussing.. but I could notice Kia had her attention on what was going on between I, Byung-ho and Ji-a.

And some seconds after Ji-a had gone to her room Kia came to meet me, Byung-ho was with me when she came.

“ How are you doing, my cute little brother. "
She said ruffling my hair even though she had to extend her hand very high cause I'm way taller than her.

“ Fine. "
I managed to say in a slight sigh, I really couldn't hide my sadness.

She stared at me for a while before she turned her attention to Byung-ho.

“ Byung-ho, you look extremely handsome today. Do you have a date or something? "
She said in a playful tone and Byung-ho was full of smiles.

“ Yes actually. " He said.

“ Oh really!... Who is the lucky girl? " She asked.

“ I am the lucky one, and the girl is Ji-a. "
He said and a surprise look rocked Kia's face.

“ Ji-a? Our very own Ji-a? Like Cripple Monkey? " She emphasized.

“ Yes, same Ji-a. I will be asking her to be my girlfriend and hopefully she will come live with me from today onwards. "
He said and the surprised look grew wider on Kia's face.

Turning to me “ You know about this? " She asked.

“ Yeah I do. "
I said weakly.

“ I see. " She said, giving me a strange look that I didn't understand, then she turned her attention to Byung-ho.

“ I wish you the best darling, you two make a very cute couple I must say. " She said to him and both of them smiled and discussed some other things I didn't care to listen to....

Some minutes later Ji-a came out from her room to the open.

My God!
Today I believe you exist cause I believe I have just seen an angel. She looked more than extremely beautiful in that red dress and everyone in the room couldn't help but stare.

“ Wow! "

Ji-a's POV

Standing in front of the huge standing mirror I stared at my reflection...

The red dress that Byung-ho bought was really beautiful, it looked good on me but how come I feel horrible inside it.

Like inside of me, I have this horrible feeling wearing it, I feel like taking it off my body and burning it completely in fire.

Well I guess it's because I know I am looking beautiful for someone else, I don't want to look beautiful for anyone other than Lee Chun.

I want him to be the only man that stares at me with that spark in his eyes, but I know Byung-ho is the one I am dressing up for and I hated it.

Not that I hate Byung-ho as a person, I like him but I just don't love him.

I really don't know what to do, I am shortly going on a date with him where he would ask me out to be his girlfriend.

What will I do?...

Coming out of the passageway leading to the staircase, I had everyone's eyes on me.

Kia and her friend were staring, Byung-ho and Lee Chun were also staring awkwardly making me wonder if I had applied my lipstick wrongly.

I don't think so, they were just staring at me. I guess I am really looking beautiful even though I was still walking with my clutches.

I could see that sparkle in Lee Chun's eyes when he stared at me. I know he feels something for me, I can feel he does but why isn't he saying anything? I wish he can say something_ I want him to say something....

But as always he kept quiet and Byung-ho was the one that climbed up the stairs to meet me. I know Lee Chun isn't shy, he isn't the shy type around girls, I mean the guy has screwed more than a thousand girls in his short life time. So maybe I am wrong, thinking he likes me, cause if he likes me he would have surely told me right?

What's stopping him from expressing his feelings? What's preventing him from saying he loves me if he does love me? There is nothing stopping him, meaning he doesn't....

“ Wow!..you look really beautiful. I just knew this red gown would look perfect on you when I saw it and I knew I just had to buy it. It is pretty expensive, but the money is worthwhile now seeing it on you. You look so, so, so beautiful. "
Byung-ho said as he came to meet me, full of excitement.

I just smiled half-heartedly.

“ Come let's get going, our dinner awaits. "
He said then locked his arm in mine.
“ Today is going to be a lot of fun. I can promise you this. " He said afterwards, full of smiles.

Oh Byung-ho, if only you knew today is turning out to be the sadness day of my life and that he is part of the course of my sadness he won't be this happy...

We walked down the stairs and we got to where Lee Chun was standing. He had his eyes on me the whole time and I could feel lots of feelings being expressed in his stares.

His facial expressions were passing a message he likes me but his actions were proving the opposite. I felt like I was drowning inside an ocean and I needed saving, I just wanted him to reach out and save me from this.

Please, say something to me Lee Chun, please!

He finally did speak...but it wasn't what I was expecting to hear.

“ Hey.. I want you to take good care of her okay, you have to promise me this. " He said to Byung-ho.

“ You have my word man, be relaxed, she is in safe hands. I will take very good care of her, I promise. "
Byung-ho replied.

“ Good... good. "
He said then stared at me for some seconds.. before walking away, climbing up the stairs.

What! He is walking away? He is really leaving me? He is really giving me away to Byung-ho???
He doesn't love me, he doesn't.

I felt like crying, the tears almost came out from my eyes...

“ Okay let's go, the weather seems to be changing, I think it's about to rain " Byung-ho words forcefully drew the tears back inside my sockets

And like a slave sold out I followed him away out of the glass house...

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Lee Chun's POV

“ Ahhhhhhhhhhh! "
I cried out in anguish as I smashed my hands through the toilet rush compartment.

I was destroying everything in my path and my destruction is being done in my bathroom. I have completely ruined everything in the bathroom, from the toilet seat to the shower..

The towel hanger, also the bathtub down to the taps. Everything has been destroyed by me. I have lost it completely, I have been completely consumed by anger and a hurricane of unexplainable emotions.

It drove me crazy, I sustained a large cut in my hand as a result of my destructive exercise but I really didn't care about the pains. I don't even think I was feeling it, all that was in my head and heart was Ji-a.

Ji-a, I have finally lost her for good..

I couldn't cry, the pain was so much that it was preventing me from crying, all I was feeling was extreme anger. But I don't know who I was angry at, there is only one person I can be angry at and that's myself...

Knock! Knock!

“ Lee Chun. "
I heard my sister's voice Kia called.
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Ji-a's POV

We finally got to the venue - A beautiful, well designed restaurant, after like 15 minutes on the road. While on the road Byung-ho kept talking but I really wasn't listening to what he was saying.

I really can't remember anything he said, my mind was in the glass house, my mind was on Lee Chun. I am missing him so much already, although it hurts to think about him, there is nothing else I rather think about.

I really don't know what he has done to me, even after proving he doesn't love me my love for him was still growing even bigger...

We were shown our seats by one of the waiters, he seemed like a private waiter as he followed us to the table and stood waiting for us to settle down before taking our orders.