Chapter 79: A Vampire For You

< Dylan >
Everything is annoying!
"What does she think of herself? Shouting at me like that. I may not care if someone yells at me, but her words really hurt. No one dares to speak to me like that. Plus, how could I be responsible for her mistake? I was just trying to be nice which is a miracle on its own. She didn't have to react that way," I sulked.
I was sitting on the terrace railings of Shirley's apartment building, talking to myself.
I looked down at the city from above. It sure was a nice view, different from what I was used to; since my mansion was surrounded by forests.
The breeze felt nice and chilly. It certainly calmed me down; calmed me enough to let my brain function. My temper was really nasty.
Though I wonder how much will it hurt if I fall down? I would definitely die, that's for sure. Well, it's not like anyone would care if I die. Perhaps, people would be happy. People like—my employees, enemies, rivals, and definitely Shirley.
But I never really thought of committing suicide. I may have been tortured to death, but it made me feel alive all the more as I wanted the ones who made me suffer to suffer ten times.
Although I probably wouldn't mind dying for Shirley.
That wasn't the main issue here. I get so off-tracked sometimes. Geez!
Setting the useless thoughts aside, I started thinking about Shirley's reaction thoroughly.
Maybe it was understandable for her to react that way. I was being insensitive. Well, it was not like I was too sensible, to begin with.
Also, I wouldn't know how it feels to lose in a race, considering I never lost before.
Even if she was mad at me, I should've been more calm and understanding. I should've just hugged her, instead of running away from her. After all, I am her boyfriend now. Gotta take that job seriously.
Even so, it was not my fault that she lost. I didn't even care about that. I was just glad to know she was safe. I never thought I would be that worried for an idiotic girl like Shirley, neither have I felt that scared when I was participating in a race myself.
All I could do was make her feel better and try to mold her into a better person. It was not like I was a benevolent person myself. I was even crappier of a person. I could just pretend well.
All of a sudden, the image of her crying flashed in my mind. My eyes widened. Regret started eating me alive.
"I am such an idiot! She was crying and I said those horrible things. How fucking cruel of me! How could I be— " I wanted to jump off the building right then, but doing so wouldn't fix my mistake.
I got off the railings carefully. "I should apologize to her. But won't it be weird? It would feel so weird to go back now." I buried my face in my hands and paced back and forth.
"Now that's just my ego talking. C'mon, Dylan." I formed my fist into a ball. Shirley was more important to me than my revenge, that's why I shouldn't let my petty ego be more important than her. "All you have to do is swallow your pride and apologize to her for being such a dense idiot. Nothing much. I can do it."
Taking many deep breaths, I took the stairs to her apartment as the terrace was just above her floor. I took out my spare keys to open the door and entered her apartment. I made sure not to make any noise to alert her.
But why was I being sneaky in the first place?
I went to her bedroom quietly like a ninja. However, Shirley wasn't there. I heard some shuffling sound from the kitchen, so I went to check there, only to see one of the most terrifying sights.
My breath hitched. It was as if my whole world stopped revolving. Without wasting a single second, I rushed to her and threw away the knife from her hand.
I grabbed her shoulder and made her face me. "Are you out of your damn mind?" I hollered, unable to believe that she was going to cut her wrist with that cursed thing.
Shirley just looked at me weirdly with a blank look. "Dylan? You are back?"
"That's not the main issue here! What were you going to do with that knife?" My heart was thumping so loud, I felt it could jump out of my ribcage anytime.
"Knife? Oh, this knife, you mean?" She chuckled. I furrowed my brows in confusion. "I was going to cut this stupid ice cream tub as it wasn't opening. Therefore, I decided on cutting the lid."
"Do you take me for a fool?" I asked with disbelief.
She chortled and stated, "Never in a million years. I am telling the truth, I swear."
I was speechless. She just gave me the scare of my life. That too, for a stupid ice cream tub.
"You really weren't trying to hurt yourself, were you?"
"Of course not. I would never. Because I know that Dylan is scared to lose me. Hence, I didn't want to make him cry for me again."
Relief washed over me. Yet, my heart wouldn't calm down. It was too much for me. Even if it was for a moment, I felt so lost and desperate when I saw her with that knife.
For a brief moment, I imagined her death. It was scarier than any horror movie I ever watched. Damn, I was scared out of my mind for a second there.
"Besides, I never thought you wouldn't come back to me with an ego as big—" Her words were cut off as I pulled her into a tight hug.
She is fine, I assured myself repeatedly.
"Dylan?" I buried my face onto her neck. I swear I could have a nervous breakdown right now, my knees felt that weak.
"Never scare me like that. You will kill me with a heart attack—" I couldn't speak due to my emotions running wild. I didn't even know what to feel anymore, so I plopped down on the kitchen floor, breathing heavily.
Shirley sat down beside me and wrapped her arms around me, rubbing my back in a circle. "It's fine. I swear I wasn't going to hurt myself, although the thought did cross my mind. Then I thought that you would scold me for hours if I did that. I wouldn't want that, now would I?"
I stayed silent for a while, letting my heart settle down for a bit longer. "Don't ever let that thought cross your mind. Remember if you ever hurt yourself willingly, I will never talk to you again."
"That is worse than your scolding," she joked.
"You know, if something ever happens to you, I will become a vampire for you," I murmured.
"You are supposed to turn me into a vampire to save me, not yourself, dummy." I could feel her smiling.
I pulled away from her and pressed my lips on hers. It caught her by surprise. I tried to pour my emotions into the kiss. My anger, regret, relief, guilt, and most importantly, love.
We pulled apart to grab some oxygen.
"Oh, I forgot to apologize. I am sorry for yelling back at you. I shouldn't have done that. Nonetheless, I shouldn't have walked out like that, either. That was wrong of m—" I stopped talking when I looked at her face.
"You are too nice to me," Shirley mumbled with tears running down her cheeks.
I cupped her cheek, rubbing my thumb in a circle on her skin. Was it just her loss in the race today that had gotten her so down? Or there was something more to it?
However, I wanted my bubbly, talkative, annoying Shirley back, and I would give my everything to bring that woman back to me.