A Beta's Death along with A Second Chance

~Alexiana's POV~



Have you ever felt that life was playing a sick, cruel joke on you? Making you crumble into pieces and turning your whole world upside down, knowing that you will never see that person ever again? Never seeing his smile or hearing his laughter again?

Watching him, as he takes his final breath and seeing life leave through his eyes will be one of the things I will never forget.

That is what happened three months ago when my dad passed away from this mysterious poison.

It was during that time when the mate bond between Kyle and I was still new, even after the rejection.
Every night, I would lay in bed in pain, clutching on my lower abdomen, feeling him having sex with another, screaming and crying, feeling my heart break into pieces. My eyes would be blood-shot red and puffy with tears flooding down my cheeks - wishing to the Goddess above to stop this excruciating pain that I did not deserve.

There would be nights where I would be lucky enough to get some proper sleep or else I would not be able to sleep.
Getting out of bed with bags underneath my eyes and dark circles rimming around them while my face was sunken in, was becoming like a chore that I did not want to do; I wanted to stay in bed all day, mourn for my father and mourn for the mate I should have had. However, I have to get up from bed, look a bit presentable and try to stay strong for my mom. I made a vow that I will always be strong for her and always be there for her; I need to be there for whenever she calls me.


My mother fell to her knees, clutching her chest - over her heart, screaming in pain. She was there with me when he died. My mom became very depressed; she did not want to eat nor drink anything for three weeks until one day she fainted; luckily, I was at home when I heard a loud thump from my parent's room. I have managed to get my mom off the floor, onto the bed and I mind-linked the pack doctor to get to my house due to my mom's condition.
The doctor had put an I.V needle in her arm along with a feeding tube because she refused to eat; it took me half a month to convince my mom to eat and drink and additional two and a half months to get her physcially healthy, but mentally - was a whole different issue.

So far, everything is slowly starting to get back to normal - whatever that is, even though the loss of my father, the pack's former Beta, is still in the air. My mom is still coping with her mate's death, but she is getting better and trying to get back to her old self again.
I am proud of my mom, she came a long way in a short time or else my brother and I would have lost our mother.

You see, when one mate dies, the other mate either goes insane or dies from the sadness. From what I have heard and seen, losing a mate is very painful and getting a second chance mate is very rare.
There were cases where only a few had a second chance mates due to the death of a mate and some from rejection.

The last reported to have a second mate was several decades ago.



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It has been three years since my dad passed away and helping my mom get physically and mentally healthy with Carson's help, of course.

Oh, I almost forgot to mention that I caught Jessica putting something into my dad's drink a month before he died.

She was thrown in the underground prison for the rest of her life, after Carson pulled me off her; I really wanted to rip her freaking head off her shoulders.

The second traitor has yet to be caught.

Apart from that, everything was back to normal and there have not been any rogue sightings, for now.

The only thing that was not back to normal was my 'relationship' with Kyle; he is still being a man-whore. I still feel the pain when he is fucking other sluts, but it is not as bad as it was in the beginning because I try keeping my distance from him and I try to ignore it the best I can.

I could not ignore nor keep my distance; I would make Kyle jealous – wearing clothes a bit revealing or going out with guys around my age, but never sleeping with them.

It had worked for a while, but I was starting to give up on him and the mate bond; I just let the bond slowly get weak.

I think Kyle is starting to notice too.

To be honest, what Kyle and I were doing was not right nor was it healthy; I was not just hurting myself, I was hurting my wolf and she did not deserve any of that.

However, Midnight desperately wants her mate, but knows she cannot have him; I could hear her whimpers every night when Kyle is with somebody else.

If Kyle were a decent guy, then we would not have to be in this predicament; him hurting me and me hurting myself and my wolf.



***



Right now, there is a buzz in the air and I am on my way to see Carson in the pack house to ask him what is going on.

When I arrived to the pack house, I walked inside through the dark mahogany brown front door and followed Carson's scent to the kitchen.

I walked into the kitchen to see my brother is alone eating a chocolate chip muffin with coffee at the white marble granite island in the middle of the kitchen.

I walked over to the other counter, grabbed a cup of coffee, a muffin and sat next to my brother at the island.

"Hey, good morning sis, what brings you here?" Greeted Carson.

"Hey, morning bro, I want to know what's going on. Why is everyone rushing and running around like a headless chicken?" I curiously asked while taking a bite out of the muffin.

"The Alpha from the Blood Moon Pack is coming over; he will be arriving sometime in the afternoon." Explained Carson while taking a sip of his coffee.

"Why is the Alpha from the Blood Moon Pack coming here for?" Now I am curious because the Blood Moon Pack is the number one strongest pack in North America while we are the second strongest.

"The Alpha is traveling to different packs all around the world looking for his mate; he has been searching for her for about two years." Said Carson.

"Oh, well I wish him luck on finding his mate." Carson nodded his head, agreeing with me.

Carson and I sat at the island in comfortable silence, finishing our breakfast, until I smelt my ex-mate's scent.

His scent got stronger, until I saw him entering the kitchen.

He stops in his tracks and looks at me; I do not pay any attention to him, but I did not want to be in the same room as him.

I got up from my chair, told my brother that I will see him later and started to walk out of the kitchen; however, I stopped walking when I felt a hand on my wrist.

I knew it was Kyle by the tiny sparks flowing through my wrist up to my arm.

I turned around to look at Kyle, but instead, I stare at his ocean blue eyes. I could stare into his eyes all day and not get bored of them. Wait, what the fuck am I thinking? Of course, my wolf was filtering my head with those thoughts.

'What? Our mate's eyes are beautiful!' Exclaims Midnight.

'No, he's not our mate! Or did you forget what he has done to us?' She whimpered and did not say anything. She knows that I am right, but I am going to apologize to her later because I should have not scolded her like that.

I regained my composure, clearing my face from any emotions while yanking my wrist from Kyle's hold; I told him in a dangerously calm tone, "don't you dare touch me again!" I did not let him get a chance to say anything because I sped walked out of the kitchen towards the front door.

Before I even reached the doorknob, I yelped when Kyle pushed me against a wall.

"DON'T YOU FUCKING DARE DISRESPECT ME AND WALK AWAY!" He yelled at me using his Alpha tone while glaring at me.

One thing though, the Alpha tone did not affect me for some reason and I do not know why.

"OH, DON'T DISRESPECT YOU? DON'T FUCKING DISRESPECT YOU? HOW ABOUT YOU DON'T FUCKING DISRESPECT ME BY FUCKING OTHER SLUTS AND HURTING NOT JUST ME, BUT HURTING MY WOLF, YOU FUCKING ARROGANT BASTARD!

YOU KNOW WHAT? I DON'T GIVE A FUCK ANYMORE! I AM DONE! I AM DONE WAITING FOR YOU FOR TWO AND A HALF FUCKING YEARS, THINKING THAT YOU WILL CHANGE YOUR MIND, REALIZING YOUR MISTAKE OF REJECTING ME AND ACCEPT ME AS YOUR MATE!

I WAS WRONG AND A DAMN FOOL!

Alternatively, it will be okay, I am not going to make the same mistake again because I am leaving this pack." Kyle is shocked from my outburst; he finally realizes the last thing that I said and growls very loud while his eyes turned pitch black.

"YOU ARE NOT GOING ANYWHERE NOR ARE YOU LEAVING THIS PACK! THAT IS A FUCKING ORDER!" He growled again.

Before I could say anything else, I could hear running from the kitchen towards the living room; I looked to my right and my brother is looking at us, asking, "What is going on here?" I know he heard everything and I am sure the whole pack heard the whole argument.

"Don't worry Carson, everything will be fine soon." I replied while pushing Kyle away and running out of the pack house.

I ran back home and stayed in my bedroom for three whole hours.

During those three hours, I was slowly packing my clothes and planning what time I will be leaving.

I decided to take a break from my plans and go out for a well-needed run.

I walked down the stairs to the kitchen and left through the back door, jogging towards the first line of trees; I went behind a tree, taking off my clothes and shifting into my beautiful black wolf, deciding to give Midnight half of the control.

Midnight shook her fur, picked up my clothes with her mouth and ran through the forest.

I know the wind blowing through Midnight's fur and her paws pounding against the moist dirt felt exhilarating.

Midnight continued running through the forest until she spotted a lake; she set my clothes down on the ground next to a tree, walked to the lake, and lapped her tongue in the water to drink the cool liquid, quenching her thirst.

When Midnight was done, she gave me back full control, but I stayed in my wolf form and lay down on the ground relaxing.

While I was relaxing, I smelled an intoxicating scent of peppermint and cherries.

I could not completely process why I could smell a delicious new scent because a gorgeous medium brown colored wolf with red streaks going along his back and on the tip of his tail, came into my view.

His eyes have a beautiful shade of yellow with specs of brown; the wolf mesmerizes me that I did not know when he shifted to his human form, wearing just basketball shorts.

I was brought back to reality when the first thing that he said has me in shock, "Mate."