Chapter 19

Ailee

Merigold looks at me then back at Finn and Callen. She has something on her mind. I can see it but I think she is afraid to ask. “ Spit it out lass. I’ll tell you if I can’t or don’t want to answer.” I told her. “ Have you always wanted to be in the family business? I mean if you wanted to do something else, could you?” she asks. I see what she is getting at. She wants to know if I’m force into working with my grandda. I shake my head “ I knew since I was sixteen I wanted to be where I’m at. I had to convince granda to let me train to take over. And I had to prove myself. Not because I’m a woman. Grandda doesn’t think like that. He wanted me to explore my options. Try different things to see if taking over is really what I wanted. He would support me in anything I wanted to do. As long as I earned it.” They seemed happy with my answer. It was sweet that they were worried about me. I get the feeling they would help me go against grandda if I wanted to get out.
We finish lunch not talking about heavy subjects. I learn how Lug Nut earned his patch trying to save Merigold from abduction. Earning him several cracked ribs and being knocked out. I learned he is from Louisiana which explains the southern accent and Merigold is from Alabama. I tell them a little of what it has been like growing up in a mafia family. I tell them about living in Ireland for most of my childhood. I even told them about the car accident that took my ma from me.
When we finish lunch I make sure to tip Macy heavily. Merigold has to leave and get back to her girls. Rowdy is on duty and according to Merigold he will give them all the junk food they want resulting in the girls not eating dinner. But Lug Nut asks if I feel up to taking a walk around so he can show me the town. I find myself wanting to spend more time with Lug Nut. After checking with Finn and Callen to make sure we have nothing else going on. Or that they don't need to be back for something I agree to go for a walk. Callen and Finn walk a few feet behind but to give the illusion of privacy but not far enough that they can get to me quickly. I know they are on edge. I have another round of chemo in a few days and don’t want to wear myself out. But they trust me enough to know what my body can handle.
As we walk down the street Lug Nut tells me about growing up being raised by a single father. Then joining the military the day he graduated high school. He told me of the brotherhood bond he discovered while he was enlisted. He wanted the same type of thing when he got out of the military. He had heard about the Reckless Renegades when he was stationed close by. After checking it out and talking with Raider, the president at the time he decided this is what he wanted. Lug Nut couldn’t do anything while he was still enlisted so Raider told Lug Nut when he was discharged to come find and Raider would make him a prospect.
So that is what Lug Nut did. His father had already passed so he had no one to go home to which made the choice easy for Lug Nut. And he has been here ever since. We have made it to a small family park when Lug Nut finishes telling me about his life. We are walking down a path that goes past a playground when I ask “ Lug Nut, not that I mind hearing about your life but why are ya telling me all this? “
Lug Nut turns to me wrapping his arms around my waist. He pulls me so close my boobs are pressed against his very hard chest. My nipples harden instantly and I know he has to be able to feel them. His milk chocolate colored eyes draw me in. “ I’m telling you because I want you to know everything about me. Not just the man with the patch. But the whole man.” It is sweet and I like the Lug Nut I’m learning more about. I get the feeling this is a side not many see. But it still doesn’t explain why.
“ Honey, from the moment Ace showed us your picture. I knew you were going to be mine. You may not know it yet, but it is going to happen. I’m going to do whatever it takes to prove to you I’m your man.” Lug Nut says. Wow. Just wow. I don’t think I can respond to that. I think my brain is short circuited. But while my brain doesn’t work the rest of my body does or at least everything below the waist does. I swear my panties are soaked.
I just stare at him for a minute, completely dumbfounded. When my brain finally kicks in I say “ You seem awfully sure of yourself. How do you know I’m even attracted to you?” Lug Nut does that smirk that I’m sure must melt all the girl panties. It is definitely working on me. “ After the way you were looking at me yesterday I was pretty sure. But by the way I can feel your nipples digging into my chest I can say for sure you're into me. And yes I’m sure of myself. I have never wanted anything more than I want you. And I’m not going to stop until I get you. Not just for a night either. I’m talking, always. I'm going to win your heart, Ailee. And when I do I’m making you my old lady.”
Lug Nut
I know I laid a lot on Ailee right now. But every word I spoke was the truth. The sooner she accepts what’s going to happen the better it will be for both of us. “ Lug Nut, what you said is very sweet. The sweetest thing anyone has ever said to me. But Lug Nut there are so many things that we would have to get through to be together. The biggest is my cancer. I hope I can fight it. And believe me I am trying. But there are no guarantees. Shouldn’t you find a girl that doesn’t have poison pumping through her body twice a month. That has a full life ahead of her.” Ailee asks.
Yea, I knew she was going to come up with excuses and a laundry list of reasons why I shouldn’t pursue her. Like she thinks I’m going to give up that easily. Not a chance in hell. “ Ailee, yes you are sick, for now. I knew you were sick from the beginning. And I still decided to make you mine. You won’t always be sick. And until then I’m going to be right beside you fighting with you. I know we are going to get through it together. You being sick isn’t going to stop me from claiming you. It just accelerated the time table a bit. So tell me what is your next reason, I bet I shoot that down as well.”
“ There is your club. With a few exceptions I’m not a fan of the place or several of its members. I said I would never go back. But the MC is your world, your family.” she says. “ And I respect that you don’t want to go back again. I don’t blame you. But for now let's not worry about the club. Things are changing there for the better. Maybe in time we can revisit the idea of you coming back. For now I will keep you and it separate. For you I can do that. So what else do you have?” I ask. She is not going to come up with anything I can’t counter.
“ I can’t have children. I can’t get pregnant. The chemo ruined any chance of that ever happening. So If you want children you need to look somewhere else.” Ailee says. I figured she might bring that up. When I knew I was going to claim Ailee I did extensive research on her cancer and the side effects of chemo. I even talked to Ryans to get his input. I knew this was a possibility. I pull her so close we could be one person. “ Ailee, you may not be able to have children. I understand. But there are other ways for us to have kids if we want them.We could adopt. Use a surrogate if we want the kid to have my blood. We could foster. Or we could skip the kids and spoil the club kids rotten. There are options for us. That isn’t going to stop me from making you mine.” I told her meaning it with all my heart.
“ My granda. He will kill you if you hurt me. And he may not approve. I’m pretty sure he won’t.” “ Ah, yes. Mr. O’Sullivan. You are right. He isn’t going to approve. At least not until I prove to him and I’m pretty sure Callen and Finn as well, that I’m the right man for you. The only man for you. And trust me Ailee. I’m going to prove it. If I break your heart or hurt you in any way he has every right to kill me. I’ll turn myself over to him to do it. And it is a risk I’m willing to make. You , Ailee are worth the risk.” I say.
“ You have listed several reasons why this may not work. But you haven’t said a word about how you feel about it.” I place my hand on her heart. “ I don’t want to hear the reason from your head. I want to know what your heart says. I have told everything I’m willing to do for you.
All you have to do is give me a chance to prove myself. That is all I ask. So now tell me, what does your heart say.” I wait for what feels like forever before Ailee looks up at me, her eyes shining with unshed tears. I’m really hoping they are happy tears. “ Aye, Lug Nut. I would really like to give you a chance.”
That is all I needed to hear. I slam my lips on hers. At first she is shocked and doesn’t kiss me back. When she does I hold the back of her head and run the tip of my tongue over her bottom lip. She gasps and I use that as the opportunity to slip my tongue in her mouth. I twist my tongue with hers in a seductive dance. When I feel her arms wrap around my neck I deepen our kiss. Having Ailee in my arms, her lips pressed against mine is one of the greatest feelings in the world. I can’t wait to have it everyday. I’ve never been big on kissing but with Ailee it feels like everything.