CHAPTER 19

I just stared at his gentle face. I also don't understand myself because when I meet new friends I don't interact with them like this. But Ken was strange, there was something about him that seemed to hypnotize me.
I do not understand. I'm confused. I'm also confused by my feelings.
"Maybe I'm just going crazy." I whispered into the air.
When I saw the empty seat near him, I sat there. I looked again at the man sleeping in front of me.
If someone see me differently right no, they will think I am stupid looking at the person sleeping in front of me or maybe they will think badly of me.
But I'm not here to do that to the innocent creature in front of me. I'm here to rest.
When I feel that in Ken's presence, I can rest better. I'm the type who can't rest when I know I'm getting bad news.
But lately, sensing Ken's presence, I felt like I am resting.
I want to feel Ken's presence by my side.
*"Are you still surprised?"*
I was surprised to hear Nebula speak. I still remember the first time he asked me if my knee hurt because I tripped while running in the woods. He asked me if he wanted to help me heal my injured knee. At first, I couldn't understand him, I didn't know who was talking, I kept looking around.
But when he spoke again, he said that he was living inside me. And what my father said to me, that there's someone living inside of us, and it was connected to our body and soul.
That's when I found out that he was my wolf, Nebula.
"What do you think?"
*"Why are you asking me?"*
"Compared to the two of us, you know more about things that I don't, Nebula."
*"But I don't know what you really feel. Your mind and heart are arguing with the possibilities. So I can't say until you know the answer yourself."*
And after that he left. He left me with so many questions. I'm just more confused.
I sighed and looked up at the ceiling, I breathed deeply until I smelled something that seemed to calm my troubled mind.
My shoulders and back relaxed until I completely closed my eyes. There's something about this smell, it's calming me. I don't know why.
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KEN'S POV
When I opened my eyes I felt a familiar presence. I closed my eyes again because of the sleepiness I felt. I was tired when Shiena and I visiting the places I wanted to see based on her stories she told to me.
When Alec left I couldn't help but feel sad. I feel like I can't be reassured when I don't see him or feel his presence.
Especially what happened to him and his friend just because of me. I don't want him to fight with someone again because of me. But when I feel like he's not around, I feel like I'm in danger even though I know Shiena or Felix can defend me.
I'm just sad, I don't understand myself. When I first set foot in this territory because of his help, I didn't feel that at first with Alec, but the longer I stay here, the longer our relationship lasts, I feel that the relationship we have deepens.
This is mess. I'm so confused.
I was about to get up to go to the bathroom when I was stopped and almost held my breath because an arm tightened around my waist.
Wait a minute? Whose arm is this?
I watched it until I felt a sudden squeeze on my neck that made me stop. I could hardly move lying in bed because of what he did!
What's happening? Who is the stranger who entered my room? Why is he lying on the bed and especially next to me? Hasn't Alec come yet?! What if it's rouges?!
I have to get out of here! I have to tell Alec that someone entered his territory without his knowledge and he actually slept here in my room! This man is so shameless!
With my spirit awake, it was time to get up and find Alec. He needs to know this!
I was about to get up again and remove the arm that was holding my waist, but I was surprised because he quickly grabbed my hand and hugged me even more from behind.
I couldn't do anything but be dumbfounded with shock! I can feel its hot skin on my back! It was only then that I realized he was not wearing a top!
Who is this guy?!
"Stay."
When I heard that word and that voice I felt like my world just stopped spinning. I couldn't feel anything but the strong beating of my heart. I know my spirit is awake, but my brain can't seem to process the voice I heard.
Does that mean Alec is the one hugging me right and not a stranger? Not a rogue?
"Just stay for one minute. I'm still... tired." Hearing his bedroom voice makes my body shiver.
I didn't know why my body reacted as he said that. My body seemed to have a mind, it suddenly followed what he said so I just stayed in my position. Lying next to him and he... hugging me.
But why is he hugging me? Does that mean he forgot where his room was and he rested here in my room and next to me?
"Alec," I called his name.
After that he let go of my hand and he... distanced himself from me. I felt guilty afterwards. He probably thinks I'm mad because of what he did, but no.
"I'm sorry... I shouldn't have done this..."
"W-wh---"
"I haven't slept peacefully these days and I'm still tired even though... I sleep here beside you for four hours. So I'm so---"
"No!" Oh, shoot! "I-i mean is you don't have to say sorry just because of that. If you... feel like you can rest here, just do so. But don't... don't do something that you didn't mean it."
I know that my last words are more like a hint or something. But because of that, he quickly grabbed my hand again and hugged me like we were in the same position earlier.
"I'm not going to do something like that. I just want to rest while hugging you..."
I felt my heart overflow with joy when Alec said those words. I couldn't help but smile, even though I looked like a fool staring at the table near the bed. If they saw me differently, they would say I was crazy or maybe someone would slap me to wake me up and bring me to the reality.
But to be honest, it's a different feeling when someone hugs you from behind. In my whole life, I was treated as if I had an infectious disease even though I didn't.
And knowing someone like Alec, that he wants to hug me while he was resting is a different kind of feeling.
He was an Alpha too... hugging an Omega like me on top of the bed.
I feel like I am so beautiful because of him.
"You're not mad?"
"Why would I get mad?"
"I am hugging you right now."
"And then?"
"You're not going to push me away because I am hugging you, laying beside you right now?"
I frowned at what he was saying. I held his hand that was holding mine.
"You said that you're not going to do something like that. So if you want to rest beside me, then rest, hug me like I am your strength." I said between my smiles.
He hugged me even tighter under the sheets. His face is on my neck, nuzzling from there and I am here, preventing myself not to laugh because his hair and lips are touching my neck. One of my sensitive spots.
He didn't say anything after that, I just waited for him to rest again but I was the one who suddenly fell asleep in the middle of his arms.
And when I open my eyes, Alec's face is in front of me. In shock, I suddenly got up and grabbed my chest. Oh my god, that scared me.
Why is he even staring at me like that?
"I-I'm sorry for scaring you..." he apologized and sat up.
I sighed. I looked at him and around us. It's already dark outside, I just realized that I've been sleeping in my room for almost a day.
And it was Alec's fault.
"H-how are you feeling?" he asked.
"It's good. You? Did you rest well?" I asked back that he didn't answer immediately.
He just stared at me, and then his eyes softened. I didn't... even realize it back then. When he looks at me, he always looks like that.
"You knew..."
"Because I'm awake."
"So you're not mad at me?"
"Why would I be?"
"So you're trusting me?"
I stopped. Do I trust him now?
Well... yeah.
He saved my life. He let me live here inside of his territory. So why... wouldn't you trust someone like him? Right?
I smiled. Apparently the answer to his question was correct.
"Yes. I am trusting you, Alec."
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"Why do you seem to be in such a good mood today, Ken?" Shiena asked in surprise.
We are currently in the kitchen to eat dinner. There are five of us here with the three cooks in the kitchen, they all look at me but I just shake my head in response.
How do I answer that? Shall I say that Alec suddenly kissed me on the forehead before saying goodbye to leave with the other pack warriors and Felix?
How?!
"I think something good happened in Ken's day today,"
"Good? It's good that he just slept all day with Alec."
My eyes immediately widened Shiena's words. It was too late to cover her mouth because I immediately saw a strange smile on the lips of those three!
"No! That's not what she meant!"
Oh no, I don't like this! They're going to tease me! This is your fault, Alec!