Chapter 90 I am Enough
Avery P.O.V.
The Next Day
I wake up with a pounding headache. Oh, God, I can feel my head spilt in two with the so much thumping and pounding in there. Also, why do I feel like a dump truck hit me over and over. My legs are sore and something else sore and aching. I shy away from thinking about how Jake pounded into me with hard thrust and hearing him breathing on me. I licked my lips thinking about him inside again. But they are right I need a breather and couple of days to heal up and then they told me they would fuck me hard or with soft smooth emotions with our body.
I was in my thoughts that I didn t know I felt a body behind me and the other side. I didn t wake up yet or open my eyes either. Because my head is hurting. I feel like my eyes are closed shut right now they won t open. I keep blinking and pull my eyes open nothing.
Hey! what gives. I asked my mind waiting for Angelstar speak to me. Maybe she will figure out why I can t open my eyes.
I waited for her to speak but nothing.
Okay, I thought maybe she and Angelica are with the wolfs right now.
When I thought of that. I heard her say to leave her and Angelica alone because they were too busy making love to Ax, Axel, Dark, and Fire. I find that out with Angelstar and Angelica moaning their names the other night in my head. I wanted to join them, but I was also sore and tired. I know the girls can take care of them be their selves.
I was not thinking about the girls, I forgot I was still in the bed. That when I heard groans and I didn t want to move around to much and wake them up. So, I slowly, very slowly started sliding off the bed. Just a each by each. I am almost off the bed.
Once I set my feet on the floor and started standing up. I started walking towards the bathroom. Before I got out of the door, I heard a voice behind me. I didn t know they were up and standing right beside me.
I gasp and stop in my tracks. I didn t have to turn around because I knew they were all there staring at me naked because what s the point of dressing anymore and why bother. They just stripped me naked and threw me on the bed again I thought with an eye roll.
'Where you think you are going sweetheart?" I heard one of them say in a curious voice.
I didn t want them to know I am trying to leave and run back to my house. I need to think and see what I want. I am confused with my feelings. So, then I heard footsteps approach behind me. Now I can feel someone breath on the back of my neck. I felt the someone let out of their mouth. I felt he breath and the air when he blew out. Then I felt it on my sensitive neck, and someone wrapped their arms around my waist.
Why now, why are they trying to stop me for leaving?
Well, dummy, what do you expect duh! I heard my inter voice say not the girls that is my wolf/witch/veela. I wanted to scream and kick whoever had me in their arms.
I whined, come on! I want to go home. No, I need to go home.
Damn it! You asshole.!
I am getting frustrated and pissed off at them.
"I want to go home!" I replied in a small voice.
"Oh, come on." You don t want to go home, not yet." I heard Elijah whispered in my ear. I guess he was the one wrapped his arms around my waist.
"I know, but I been here for to three days, and I think my parents are going to freak out if I am not home soon." I told them with a grumble and irritated. Because I am trying not to be rude, but I need them to take the hint. I am tired and I want to leave. I miss my parents and my friends. I can t stay here forever. Well, I know I am their mate but I still living with my parents and going to school. Besides, I am not ready for our relationship is not there. Not yet. I never been in a relationship I am not even been with a boy. I just had my first kiss this year when I lost my virginity.
Oh, God, just thinking about them pranking me and telling them telling me they never had feelings for a loser like me. I don t want to go in the school and one day they start changing back when they were bullying and tormented and made me feel I am not enough. I can t handle that again.
What if, they already won the bet. What if they record me? I had a thought. I can feel my stomach moving around in there. It feels like butterflies in there flopping around.
No, Avery, don t think that! Your enough. You are not nothing. You are enough. I kept telling myself in my mind.
I didn t want to go back there a year ago, when they were so mean and cruel to me. I thought I was going to die that day. I remember it.
No, No! I wanted to hit my head to get whatever that day out of my head.
I licked my lips and I felt Elijah and Andrew, Matthew, Jake, are quiet and then I felt someone hand turn me around slowly around to face them.
What I saw shocked me. I look up with tears streaming down my cheeks. I guess I was crying when I was in my own thoughts. I didn t realize I was crying.
"Shh, sweetheart, I felt Jake grabbed a hold of my chin and lifted it up.
I didn t know what happen but I started crying in his arms and I felt the others surrounded me in a big circle and I cried and cried in my mates arms. I don t want to think about what I did last year after the threw me down on the floor. I remember I wanted to die when I saw in their eyes.
Hatred.
Anger.
Mad.
Empty.
Avery, your nothing to us." I heard Andrew say and I saw the other three smirking and walking away last year.
I went home and started cutting a line on my arm.
Ugly.
Whore.
Slut.
Loser.
Nothing.
I cute for every name.
I wanted to not go back there.
"Avery! Come back to us." I heard them say.
I just let my body fall and let go and I cried and cried, cried in their arms right in the middle of the bedroom door. Where anyone could see it. I didn t care. I didn t want them to see me like this.
A wreck.
Weak.
Nothing.
Shell of an empty person.
"I am enough". I kept repeating in a whisper.
"I am enough."
