Chapter 28

Amanda Pov.
Ron just left to eat. I had to insist that he go home and rest because the way he looks I'm afraid he'll pass out from fatigue or hunger.
On top of that, I made an appointment at the Gynecology and I didn't want him to know this. And so it's hard for me to know if I've been touched or not. If he found out what I've been through, I'm afraid he'll lose his mind and do something stupid. Again.
-I'm sorry to keep you waiting, but I had an emergency. The doctor says and sits down at the desk reading my file.
-There is nothing. I say and wiggle my fingers trying to shake off the insecurity that has taken over me.
-Ok... Let's see... She says and reads my file. Do you want to know if you were raped or not?
-Yes.
-When was the last time you had sex before all this?
-I never had.
The doctor looks at me as if full of pity, and my stomach turns upside down. Maybe he's thinking that if I've been raped and this is my first sexual contact, I'll kill myself.
I don't need pity. I need the truth.
-Let's see. She says calmly in her voice and leads me to another room where the consultation will take place.
After doing exactly as she tells me, I close my eyes and let her do her thing. All this time I try to forget the fact that she sees my most intimate part.
-Good news, sweetie. Everything is in its place. Nothing was touched.
- Does that mean I'm still…?
- That's right. I'm glad you didn't have to go through that. She says and helps me up from the consulting table.
We go back to the office again after I get dressed and breathe a sigh of relief. I didn't even realize I was holding my breath the whole time.
Thank Heaven...Maybe I wouldn't have had to do this medical check-up if I had remembered everything that happened, but after all..."Good care overcomes bad danger", right?
After writing something in my file, she hands it to me. I say "goodbye" to her and leave the office heading towards the salon where I am hospitalized.
As I approach the lounge, I hear Ron yelling at the nurses like he's lost his mind.
-Where is it? How the hell did you not know she wasn't in the salon?
I decide to hurry before he breaks something.
-Ron. I say from behind him and I can see the nurses breathing a sigh of relief.
He turns to me, looks at me for two seconds, then pulls me into his arms so suddenly I feel like I'm going to be crushed against his body.
-Ok...Slow down...I can't breathe, Ron. I say chuckling and he lets me go.
-Don't disappear like that. He tells me trying to calm his shaking body.
- I didn't disappear anywhere. I had to do some more analysis, that's all.
- Why wasn't I notified about this?
- Because I'm an adult and I can handle it. I say a little annoyed that he expects me to tell him everything.
I understand that my disappearance upset him, but I will not accept that he wants to walk me to the bathroom from now on.
We walk into my living room and I place the file on the bed with my hands over my face.
- Look, Ron. I love you and you know it, but I don't want you to act like a crazy person because you're afraid of something happening to me again. I was the one who was kidnapped, not you. I don't want to be scared about it, and I don't want you to act like that. It only reminds me that I've been to hell.
He doesn't say anything or move throughout my speech and I'm glad he's learned to listen. I usually couldn't get my idea to the end because he kept interrupting me.
-What did they say? can i go home? I ask and he sighs.
-You are being discharged today, but... You cannot go home.
-Why not?
-Because your parents have some things to clear up. That's exactly why none of them came to see you.
-What things? What's more important than their daughter's discharge?
This is really the pinnacle...
-Amanda... At the right time I will tell you. Right now, I can't. I'm going to sign your papers and then we'll go to my house together.
Obviously I lost a lot during the week I was held hostage, but I thought my parents wouldn't change.
I don't know what I expected from them. Mom was always away with her boyfriend, on vacations, and dad decided to cut ties with us for a reason known only to him. The only one who hasn't changed and who is next to me like every time is Ron.
How the hell I ended up with such a family, I have no idea.
- That's right... You wanted to say something to me before the policewoman interrupted us. What was it about?
He looks at me sympathetically and I look at him curiously.
-Nothing.
-Are you sure? You seemed quite serious…
-I'll tell you another time. I'm not able now. You've had enough disappointments for today. I don't want to add one more.
I don't get to ask any more questions because he leaves the salon leaving me to change into my hospital pajamas.
I don't like the way Ron is retiring at all. He was the only one I could count on to be honest. But now I have the impression that he is hiding something from me.
In any case, I will make him tell me everything he is hiding from me, but for now...I will enjoy the fact that I am free.
Maybe I should learn to hit the punching bag like Ron.I have to be able to defend myself because I'm not going to go through what I went through ever again.