Chapter 36

Amanda Pov.
We drove the rest of the way in silence after Ron's big reveal. Is he in love with me? For real? This is the second time he's said it out loud. The first time he said it, I didn't take him seriously. I thought he was joking. But now, as casually as he said it, I can only believe him. The words came out of his lips so easily, a sign that he believed everything he told me with all his heart and soul. But what does this mean for our friendship? How will this change our relationship?
When we get to the apartment I am exhausted from so many questions and sigh.
- Is everything okay? Ron asks me, leaving the luggage on the floor.
I'm ready to tell him I'm fine, but I change my mind. I don't want to tell him a lie.
- I'm not well. I am far from well. I say bluntly and he frowns.
-Why?
-I always knew in which relationship we two are. I was always sure about our relationship. But now...I don't know anything anymore. I have the feeling that everything is changing around me and only I remain the same.
- I don't understand...
- Damn you because you make me have doubts about the relationship between us.
-Amanda, you don't need to think about what I said. He says and takes a step towards me, but I step back keeping the distance between us.
-I can't stop thinking about it because I feel like I'm falling in love with you and I need to know if I'll follow through on my feelings or if I'll just remain your simple friend.
Ron's smile grows with each step he takes towards me, while I tear up my eyes. This time I decide to stay put, and Ron takes my face in his hands.
-My dear Amanda... He says and his lips come close to mine but I stop him before he can do anything.
-Wait a minute...Before that I want you to promise me that even if we break up, we will continue to be friends.
- I promise. can i kiss you now? He says, keeping his smile on his face, and my heart skips a beat.
I am unable to answer him with words and I blush when I nod my head in the affirmative.
I expected him to just kiss me, but he caresses my face with his thumb looking into my eyes with such intensity that I feel like they're on fire, then his lips press against mine in the most tender kiss I've ever had ever.
Everything seems to stand still. The time...the noise outside that can be heard through the open kitchen window...It's just the two of us. I run my hands around his neck for stability, because if I don't I feel like I'm going to pass out, and he places his hands on either side of my waist. The place where his palms are tingles and his warmth envelops my body.
We only pull out of the kiss when we feel like we're choking, and he kisses my forehead and I lean my head against his chest, my breathing ragged.
-My love Amanda...One day you will kill me. He says patting my back.
-I don't intend to do that. I say giggling.
-But it's true. He says pulling out of the hug just enough to look me in the eyes. You made me the happiest man on the planet by telling me you had feelings for me.
Ron kisses my lips briefly a few more times and I feel myself melting into his arms. I don't know if I did the right thing by giving up my friendship for a romantic relationship with him, but what I know for sure is that he will never hurt me. He is the only man in my life that I trust blindly.
-I don't want to go to work again, but I have to. I have a few contracts to review and… He starts to say as if he is worried about leaving me alone.
-Ron, I'm not going anywhere. I say and kiss his cheek, but he doesn't settle for that and pulls me into a passionate kiss that leaves me breathless.
-See you tonight. Don't cook because we're going to have dinner in town. He said walking towards the exit.
- Is there a special occasion?
He gives me a big smile looking me up and down then takes his bottom lip between his teeth making me blush.
-It really is a special occasion. He says then walks out the door leaving me alone and maybe a little... on fire.
I take a deep breath and bring my fingers to my lips, feeling them. It's not the first time we've kissed, but today it seemed more real than the other times.
I grab my bags from downstairs and carry them into his bedroom, then open the closet to see if I have somewhere to put my clothes.
Not really...but that's only because the clothes are chaotically arranged in the closet.
Well...at least the time will pass.
I don't even know how it was six o'clock in the afternoon so quickly. Now it was like I was with my parents finding out about mom's lies, and now I have to start getting ready for dinner with Ron. It will take me some time to get ready because I also want to take a bath to forget all the drama in my life.
What special occasion was Ron talking about?
With this thought, I turn on the water in the bathtub and then I go back to the room to get my bathrobe and the rest of the products are sanitized.
After I have everything ready, I have to pause the bathroom because there are several knocks on the door.
Did Ron forget his keys? Did he decide to come back from work so soon?
I pull my bathrobe on, tying it in the middle, and head for the door as the knocking becomes more insistent.
-Coming. I shout approaching the door.
No need to break down the door, I wanted to add but that would have sounded mean.
I open the door ready to laugh at Ron for not taking his keys with him, but when I see who's actually at the door, my blood freezes.