Chapter 38

Amanda Pov.
I feel like the Universe is making fun of me. I got the chance to put Russell Denver in jail, but the price I have to pay is Ron. After Ghost said he needed Ron, I just didn't want to hear any more. I asked Ghost to leave and he surprised me when he complied. I didn't answer because I didn't care about Denver. If I have to give up Ron to get Denver, then I don't care.
I decided to continue what I was doing before I was interrupted by Ghost. Of course, the water I prepared in the bathtub got cold, and since I'm in a time crunch, I gave up the bath to take a shower. I ran the razor over the places where a few hairs started to come out and then I started to get dressed. I have no idea where we're going for dinner and I don't know how to dress. I don't want to be too elegant if we're going to have dinner on the hood of the car...I decide on a jacket-type dress and after I put it on, I continue with the rest of the things. Hair and makeup. I've never been one to stress about looking good or not. I mean, with Josh I didn't care what I looked like because I didn't care about his opinion. But with Ron it's different. Just thinking about our kisses makes a herd of animals fly through my stomach. I have emotions. What if I don't look good enough for him?
He is handsome and…sexy, I might say. What if I don't live up to his expectations?
The front door opens and I step out of the bedroom to greet him. He places his keys in their specific container, then shifts his gaze to me. He wants to say something, but he stops and looks at me from head to toe.
He always did that, but now it seems more intimate. I feel overwhelmed by the attention he gives me, but I like it. I love that I can get his attention.
- You are perfect, Amanda. He says coming towards me and I blush.
I am far from perfect. I have seen women much more beautiful than me, with generous shapes in the right places. They are perfect, not me. But I can no longer articulate a word when his lips press against mine and I hear myself make a dubious sound I didn't think I was capable of. Maybe I could stop myself from moaning, but I didn't realize until now how much I missed it today. Having him in front of me now, knowing how we feel about each other, it's nice. Until now I knew that if he is not by my side, I don't know what I would do without him. But now... I don't see my future without him. That's exactly why I'm not going to make the deal with Ghost. As tempting as his offer was. I need Ron like I need air.
We break the kiss as we both feel a sharp need for air and he kisses my forehead. Ever since he walked in the door, the butterflies in my stomach started dancing, but now they've turned into dinosaurs stomping on my stomach.
-I'm going to change too, then we're leaving, ok?
I just nod because I'm not sure of my voice and he smiles at me before walking into the bedroom.
Why the hell are you so emotional, Amanda?
I turn on my heels to the bedroom, ready to ask him how his day was, but my breath hitches when I see him shirtless trying on a few shirts.
god…
I've seen him bare-chested twice before, but I still haven't gotten used to how good he looks
I can already see myself running my fingers over all those muscles while his fingers…
The course of my fantasies stops when I notice him looking at me with a perverted grin and I blush.
Oh God...I need it if I'm daydreaming.
He puts on a black shirt, then comes towards me, fixing me in place with his gaze.
-If you keep looking at me like that...I might change my plans for tonight and do other activities. He says so slowly in a low voice as his fingers roam my neck making my heart rate rise instantly.
-Ron… I say with a dry throat and wet my lips with my tongue.
Ron's eyes darken as he shifts his attention to my lips, I swallow them in no time. I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm burning all over and I feel a pressure in the most private part of my body that makes me squeeze my legs.
Ron's lips are on mine again, only this time he's kissing me greedily, hungrily, not giving me time to process what's happening. After we're out of breath, his lips move to my neck and I involuntarily tilt my head back to give him more space to litter my sore skin with kisses. I dig my fingers into his hair with a strong need for more, and he makes a guttural sound that reaches all the way down to me.
oh god…
I didn't know it felt so good to have your body covered in kisses. I've only read about it in my books, but I never thought it was all so euphoric. He kisses a spot behind my ear that makes me sigh in pleasure and I arch my body towards him as his palm touches one of my breasts over the material of the dress.
He pulls back from whatever he was doing and I let out a moan of protest. Our breaths are heavy and so is the air we breathe.
- We have to go now, baby, because if I spend one more minute alone with you in the apartment... I won't be able to stop and I don't want to rush. He said, his voice choked with excitement.
I nod quickly because whatever happened a few seconds ago has me in a daze and I can barely think straight as I'm tempted to ask him not to go anywhere.