Am I pregnant ?

****Chloe****



I have a date with Alex today. I need to get ready but I have no energy at all. My stomach hurts and I have no idea why. We went out yesterday with Janet to eat in a restaurant. The Mexican food was delicious and spicy just the way I like it. The wine was also good quality and tasted good. Everybody said that it is a very good restaurant and we decided to try it out. I had no problem at all yesterday but today is a different day. But my stomach has another idea of what good food tastes like. I bend over the toilet bowl and empty the content of my belly. Not much left from yesterday but it won't stop until it is completely empty. I feel so dirty and disgusting I hate to throw up and clean up after it. When there is nothing left inside me I rinse my mouth and wash my face. I take a few sips of water and brush my teeth. I clean the toilet and make sure that I don't miss a dirty spot.

"Chloe, are you feeling better?"Janet knocks on the bathroom door and asks me.

"Yes, thank you for looking after me."I tell her when I open the bathroom door after I rinse my mouth again. I can see the worry on her face but after her wrinkles are gone when she sees that I am fine.

"That is what friends are for. Do you need anything to feel better?

"True. You're my best friend. No, I think I just need some more sleep and I will feel better."I take deep breaths so it helps me to calm down my stomach.

"How about your date with Alex?"She asks suddenly. I forget about that for just a minute and think about Alex. I want to spend some time with him because I started to feel more for him than just like him. I haven't seen him for three days and it was a lot for me. Nowadays I am very clingy to him and love to snuggle with him on the couch and watch movies.

"I think I should cancel it. I don't want him to see me in this condition."I tell her with a little worry. She smiles nicely at me and I know that everything's gonna be alright.

"Good idea. I just made a can of hot fruit tea. It will be good for your stomach."She accompanies me out of the bathroom. She pushes me to sit on the couch and comes back with the tea in her hands. I take some sips and it tastes fruity and sweet. I love it. She goes back to the kitchen and starts to cook. I scroll through my phone to search for some news and to call Alex. I was about to call Alex when something disgusting smell hit my nose. I quickly get on my feet and run back to the bathroom just in time to reach the toilet. I bend over the toilet to empty my stomach again. I just drank a little tea. I don't think that is a problem for my belly but the smell is following me. When Janet reached me the nausea feeling came back again. Fried fish. I never liked seafood but never happened to me something like that before.

"Are you okay, Chloe?"She runs after me and that fishy scent follows her. It is so nasty that it makes my stomach cringes, ready to throw up again.

"No, I am not. Please step back. Your fish scent makes me want to throw up again."I confess and look at her in disgust. I never want to smell fish again in my life. I try to take deep breaths to calm down my body.

"Maybe you should go get a checkup by a doctor or…"She suggests but suddenly she becomes silent. What is the matter with her? I know her well and something is in her head.

"What do you have in your mind?"I ask her curiously. She knows something that I didn't think about.

"I just thought about the symptoms and something clicked in my head."She answers honestly but I feel that there is something more behind her voice.

"Is it possible that you're pregnant?"She asks and it takes my breath away for a little while. Could it be true? I don't think it is possible. Alex and I were always careful and the condom never broke. We are not together even this long. I forget when was my last period. I usually sign in to my calendar on my phone app, but I was so busy after I left my old life behind me that I forgot to check it.

"I am not even that long together with Alex and we always used protection. I don't think it is possible."

"Hmmm. What about your one-night stand that night when you found Derek and Sophie?"She asks suddenly. That night is still stuck in my head. Sometimes I dream about it and want to see his face. The one who took away the pain that my cousin and Derek did to me. But it might be a possibility if the morning-after pill didn't do the job. How will I explain this to Alex that I might be pregnant with somebody else's child?

"I need to find out. I will go to the pharmacy to get a pregnancy test."I speak up after deciding in my head. She understands me and just nods to agree with me. I clean up my face and the bathroom. I brush my teeth, comb my hair and dress up. Janet opened the windows so the fish smell was gone. I texted Alex to cancel our date because I don't feel okay and I have indigestion. He texted back to take care and get well soon. He also sends some kiss emojis as well. He is so cute and I really like him.

I say goodbye to Janet and hop in my car. I head to the pharmacy to buy a pregnancy test to find out the truth. I go for a further one where no one knows me so no gossip about me. The pharmacist was a nice middle-aged woman. I tell her what I want and it makes her smile with a warm smile. Like a mother looking at her daughter when she tells her that she will be a grandma. I hope my mom would look at me this way but she is not anymore in my life after they send me away. She gave me some pregnancy tests and suggested some pregnancy vitamins that will be good for me and the baby as well. I thanked her and headed home. Janet is already waiting for me on the couch. She looks as nervous as me. She stands up and walks in my direction.

"It is okay. I am with you. Hopefully, I will be the Godmother of your baby."She hugs me and tells me comforting words. Her friendship means a lot to me and I can't be enough grateful to her for what she did to me after my family kicked me out.

"If it's really a baby in my belly then it deserves the best Godmother on this Earth."I hug her and she hugs me back. I head to the bathroom to do the test. I read the instructions and follow every step by step. I pee on the stick and put the cap back on. I just need to wait for three minutes until the test shows the result. I set up the alarm on my phone to count back three minutes. It is the longest three minutes of my life. What if it's really a baby in my belly? How will Alex receive the news? Is he going to accept and stay with me? Should I abort the innocent baby? I have no idea who the baby's father is. I don't think I can find him because I didn't see his face. I only saw his back and the wolf tattoo on it. The huge black wolf head. The wolf howls at the full moon which is over it. In the background are pine wood and a lake in front of it. That image sticks in my head but I can't ask any man to take off their shirt and see if the tattoo is there on their back. My alarm rings and reminds me that the time is over. I take a deep breath before looking at the test.