Chapter twenty seven

Jemima's POV

I dropped on my knees as my dam broke.My tears were uncontrollable.When I met him all I thought was, "Damn it's gonna break me when you leave..." And I was right.Crying is a way to your eyes speak when you mouth can't explain how you feeling inside.

Matt knelt infront of me and wrapped me in his arms.I wish they made me feel home like Drake's did but all I could feel was been encaged for comfort.He soothed me and promised everything would be okay, over and over and over again but I doubted it .

When he lifted my face to look at him,my sobs increased and no words were courageous enough to leave my lips.

"He is not worth your tears.If you mean something to him then he will fight for you..." He wiped my tears with his thumbs but they were so stubborn.

"He is Drake, he will never change Jemima..." He cussed out with so much rage in his voice.

"Do you think he will choose me?" I asked in a dry hoarse voice.

"If he really likes you then he will..."

"I want him too Matt.Is it selfish to ask him to leave her for me?"

"But you did a good job Jemima.At first you almost fell for his games but I am glad I arrived in time..."

"What if your advice never works? What if he never comes back? What if I never see him again?" am unable to unsee those hurt beautiful eyes when he left from my mind.Damn! I guess I went a little to far.

"Calm down.All we have to do is wait and see what Drake does..."

"What if..." He placed his finger on my lips and cut me off, "Enough with the 'What ifs'..."

He stood up from the floor, assisted me to get up and walked me to the sofa.

"Promise you won't do anything stupid?" He asked in a pleading tone the second we sat down.

"I rather not promise because I am sure the moment I see him, I will run into his arms..." I chuckled the moment those words left my lips.I am really a fool.

"So then I won't leave you alone.You need to make him miss you so as he can realise his mistake."

"I wish that was as easy as it sounds."

"You just have to believe you can do it..." He took my hand and placed it between his.All I felt was warmth and comfort nothing else.No weird emotions, no spark surging through my body.The only man who had an effect on me was gone.He left and partially it was my fault.I could feel tears pricking my eyes and Ian wiped them before they could reach my cheek.

"No more..." He beamed and I gave him a half hearted smile that was strained.

"I am glad you called last night..." He continued.

"Thank you you were there for me..."

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Last night
I tossed and tossed in bed, a-lot of conflicting ideas going through my head.I should text Drake and tell him is a jerk.No, I should DM Cardi and tell her, I f*cked her man.But that would be hurtful and a lie.The nigga f*cked me in the damn bathroom.Or I should text the bloggers and leak our conversation and lie he r*ped me.

No Jemima, you can't scope that low.Plus you care about him so much to let any harm come his way.

"Jemima do you want to talk about it?" Vee turned around and intertwined our hands.

"I am okay, I am just not sleepy.Go back to sleep, I will do some meditation..."

"And at least try and eat something.I baked you, your favorite cookies..."

"I am not hungry..."

"Jemima do you want to talk about it?" Vee turned around and intertwined our hands.

"I am okay, I am just not sleepy.Go back to sleep, I will do some meditation..."

"And at least try and eat something.I baked you, your favourite cookies."

"I am not hungry..."I got out of bed and went to the living room.I leaned my head back on the sofa in a dilemma to which man to call so as to give me advice from a man's perspective.I can't call Josh, he will be so inquisitive and I will end up blabbing everything.Well Jayjay will end up breaking Drake's nose so it's a No!.

I stared at Drake's photo which was my home and lock wallpaper in my phone for what seemed like forever before dialling Matt's number.He gave me his number the day I delivered cupcakes to them on the football pitch.

"Hey Matt.It's Jemima.Can I talk to you about something?"

"Yes sure..." He sounded drowsy and sleepy.

"I am sorry for waking you up.I know it's midnight and so unthoughtful but..."

"What's wrong Jemima? Talk to me..." He interrupted my long apology speech.

"From a man's perspective, what does it mean when a guy lies to you about his identity and everything and when you find out he says he didn't have a choice..."

There was an awkward weird silence from the other side before he replied," We only do that when we don't want anything serious with a girl.When we love a girl, we tell her almost everything about ourselves even our blood group..."

Ouch!!! So Drake didn't want anything serious with me.I felt that.

"What if he lied about not having a girlfriend and you come to find out they have been dating for f*cking three years and he stood you up for your dinner date because that witch was robbed and he went to that stupid LA to be with her and there I was looking perfect for him just to make a fool of myself.I didn't listen to my bestfriend when she tried talking me out of that madness and to make matters worse she was right.He didn't care about me." I sighed.

Ouch!!! So Drake didn't want anything serious with me.I felt that.

"What if he lied about not having a girlfriend and you come to find out they have been dating for f*cking three years and he stood you up for your dinner date because that witch was robbed and he went to that stupid LA to be with her and there I was looking perfect for him just to make a fool of myself.I didn't listen to my bestfriend when she tried talking me out of that madness and to make matters worse she was right.He didn't care about me..." I sighed.

It really felt good to blab out what I was feeling to a stranger.Maybe partial a friend.Whatever!

"Drake and Cardi..."

"How did you know?" I gasped, feeling like I was out of breath.

"Too much information gorgeous.So as I was saying Drake and Cardi are a power couple.It's all about the influence, popularity and fame.Its in his nature to use and dump girls but what matters is to not let him get into your head.Us as men we are intimidated with girls who make us chase them not those who are willing to open their legs the moment we call them.Did you already sleep with him?"

Damn!!His words were like fire to my soul.They were burning me so deep and I hated the brutal honesty I was getting right now.

"No...Yes...No..Yes.." I stammered.

"It seems you already fell for his charms.The biggest weakness in a guy is bruising his ego.Yes you had s*x with him but don't show him it had an effect on you.If he stood you up then show him it didn't matter to you and that life moves on.Being the Drake I know if he likes you then he will chase you..."

"Do you think he can leave that witch.I mean Carsi for me?" I bit my thumbnail nervously, hoping he would say yes.

"People in the limelight are so complicated as unpredictable, let's just hope for the best..."

"Thank you so much Ian and goodnight..."

"I hope I will get some yummy cupcakes soon and don't forget men love to chase.We hate easy tasks.Goodnight too gorgeous and don't cry too much..."

"How did he know I have been crying?"

"What did he say?" Vee asked the second I hanged up.

"I thought you were asleep..."

"How can I sleep when you were cursing that Drake so loud?"

"He said I should let him chase me and don't make it easy for him..." I pointed out dryly.

"And he is right.But for now let's play some poker to shift your attention from that fool plus I am no longer sleepy..."

"Okay..."

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