Chapter forty six

Drake's POV

After draining all the energy from her, we spent the whole afternoon in bed planning the wedding. I know we sound insanely crazy but who caresSo practically Jemima thinks the gown I want her to wear on that special day is Hella expensive. I seriously never understand women. You don't treat then they complain, you shower your money on them it's still a problem We are going to have our wedding ceremony in the Lavista Beach house and then leave for one month honeymoon after the season. She is gonna bake a ten-layer cake which is to me is unnecessary since it's a simple private wedding but let me let her do her thing.Everything is in order apart from her wedding gown.She doesn't want me going with her to shop for her wedding gown something about bad luck when I see the gown. But that's bullshit and a crazy superstition.l.About the proposal, I am still narrowing down the million ideas running marathon in my head.

"I can't believe you don't want to wear that wedding dress..." I had tucked her against me with her head resting on my chest.

"It's hella expensive Drake ..."

"When did I ever say money is a problem?"

"I don't want to wear it and you should stop trying to convince me because I won't change my mind..."She tried to pull away from me but I held her tighter.

"You are not going anywhere baby.I don't care what you wear that day even if you chose to go naked as long as I marry you."

"I am glad we are clear on that..."

"So tell me all about you growing up?" I wanted to know everything about her. The first name she said when she started speaking, her first kiss, her first day in school. No detail was small when it came to her.

"There is nothing interesting about my upbringing Love. My dad was a police officer and my mom a house wife. We a happy simple family until my dad lost his job when I was fifteen. I couldn't recognise him anymore. He was always mad at all of us and insulting my mom every chance he got but mom always told us to understand him. That he was going through a lot and the only way to he could feel better was yelling at us." Suddenly I felt something wet trickling my chest.When I lifted her chin up, her cheeks were wet with tears...

"Baby, I didn't mean to make you cry. I am sorry, if you don't want to talk about it then I understand..." I pressed a kiss on her forehead.

"Some wounds never heal no matter how much time passes.." She curled into my side and pulled me closer to her.

"Did things get better?"

"They did one year later and we got our dad back.The happy, jovial and funny dad but he was never around apart from weekends. When we thought everything would go back to normal, mom and dad separated since mom hated dad's new job and made it clear she would only take him back when he quits his job.It was a hard for us especially mom when Jayjau and Josh opted to move in with my father. I was there for her but it wasn't the same without her sons..."

Poor baby, I can't believe she had to go through all that in her tender age...If only I had a way to go back in time and make everything okay then I would. But for now, I can only offer her the comfort she needs.

"Did your brother's and father come back?
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"For three years,"She said between choked sobs trying to pull away again but I wouldn't allow her.

"For three years, it was only my mom and I..It was time she stopped throwing herself pity parties and focus on her little girl.She began working her ass out so as I could finally finish school.I remember there was this Saturday she fainted in the bathroom because of fatigue..." More splash on my chest making me tighten my grip.

"Did your brother's and father come back?"

"For three years,"She said between choked sobs trying to pull away again but I wouldn't allow he.r.

"I knew she wasn't okay but she always tried to show me everything was okay. I hated my dad and brothers for abandoning us. I hated seeing mom so weak and sickly but there was nothing much I would do. I don't know if it happened for the best or for the worst, dad began visiting over the weekend and even spending the night. For the first time in what felt like forever I saw a genuine smile on my mom's face..He was her universe, her source of strength. jajay and Josh began visiting too which made mom happy..She had a feeling she would get her family back soon. But that's not what date had in store, I remember that day like it was yesterday April 27th..." She paused for a while, taking a deep breath before finally speaking," that call...That call that changed our lives. That call that I will never forget. I wish he never took her on that date. I wish he never came back. I wish they would have gone their separate ways and then I wouldn't have lost her...." Her breathing suddenly picked a speed. More rapid, more shallow. Her limbs trembling..She tried to say something but no words left her lips

"Just breath baby.Slow down baby, take soft breaths..."I slowly lied her on the bed and squeezed her hand as she worked on evening her breaths.

"That's more like it baby..." I encouraged as she began to breath normally."You are doing a good job. I want you to calm down and not think about it anymore.It's all a nightmare..." I pulled her up to my chest so I can reach her lips with mine.For a while, I just held her in comfortable silence as guilt clawed through my chest. If I didn't bring up the subject then she wouldn't have experienced a panic attack.One thing is for sure, the old wounds haven't healed yet.I didn't mind the silent tears that rolled down my chest as long as she was okay.

"Thank you..." She whispered.

"How are you now? I pressed a kiss on her temples.

"Sorry about earlier.I haven't learnt to handle my attacks yet..."

"It's okay baby...I am glad you okay. I am sorry I brought it up..."

"I love you..."

"I love you too baby.Why don't we go out tonight and have some fun?"

"Wow!!!" She pulled away from my chest,"That's a good plan." She said in a slight smile with puffy eyes.

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