Chapter thirty eight

Jemima's POV

I took a huge gulp of whisky and closed my eyes enjoying the burning sensation down my throat.I curled my hands into fists and took a deep breath.Drake broke up with her.I tried to say to myself but the heaviness in my chest wouldn't go away.Drake wouldn't lie to me. I yelled at my subconscious mind that she hid behind her favourite black leather sofa.He loves me.I whispered to my inner goddess who nodded in agreement. He chose me.I continued.He would never hurt me . He chose me.I continued.Then what's wrong?...My inner goddess asked.I am scared he would go back to her. I am scared after seeing how beautiful she looks, he would have second thoughts.I was so lost in my thoughts that I hadn't realised I was sending tears down my face.

"Jemima?" Daniel dragged me from my disturbing thoughts.I slowly opened my eyes and looked at his sympathetic eyes.

"Come here," He pulled me into his embrace and wrapped his arms around me.

"It hurts so bad. Seeing her makes me scared. What if they get back together?What if he regrets choosing me?" I sobbed.Jemima, you have to trust Drake. It was not easy for him to leave her.."

"Then why did she come?" There was a ton of jealousy in my tone.

"Because she is a family friend..."

"I don't think I have the strength in me to act cool through the night..." I confessed.

"I am here for you the whole night, all you have to do is say my name and I will come running..." At least I managed to laugh between my sobs.

"But I think I should leave. I don't feel like I belong here..."Daniel pulled back and held me at shoulders' length,"You belong here. Master Harrison said you look like a Harrison type and trust me he is not the type to go giving out compliments unless it's his wife Have fun, for once think about yourself..."

"Please don't leave my side?" I pleaded and he nodded wiping my tears away with his thumbs.

"What's wrong s*xy body? Why do you look like a mess?" Betty asked, walking hurriedly to where I was.

"Who is the guy? Tell me and I will drown him..." Hope cussed out making me chuckle.

"Are you sure you want to know?" Daniel arched her a perfect eyebrow."Yes then I will break his legs..."

"Trust me sissy, you would die of shock even before you throw a punch..." Daniel stated.

"Jemimaa, let's go to my room. I will retouch your makeup. You look creepy with mascara all over your cheeks." Betty requested and I nodded wordlessly following her.When she opened the door to her room everything shouted pink. The carriage bed, rose lamps, crystal chandeliers, dancing ballerina canvas hanged on the wall, Shag rag rug and many more.She is obsessed with Pink whereas her brother is obsessed with basketball. Family full of obsesees if that is even a name.

"What princess are you?" I asked as I continued to look around.

"I was obsessed with the Disney princesses when I was young and silly so my mom and I decorated like this three days to my tenth birthday."

"But you are an ass grown woman right now..."

"It kinda reminds me of how my mom took three days off just to put this up. I always thought she loved Drake more than me but I was wrong. She just loves us differently..."


"Come, let me take you into my vanity case..." She beamed and dragged me into this gold and pink carriage which had two stools, a dressing table, framed mirror and lights."Girl you took the princess thingy out of proportion. Even fairy dust in a jar?" I asked, shaking the jar.

"Yeah s*xy.This is where magic happens..." She began to retouch my makeup, a comfortable silence between us.

"Jemima, never let a man break you. Never let him strip you off your confidence. I fell in love once with a jerk called Harry only to find out he was with me only because I am a Harrison and he thought it was a ticket to wealth.Men are trash I swear..."

"Tell me about it sister..."

"It's all done.Ps, don't cry again..."

"I promise I won't.So the Harry guy what happened with him?"

"I dumped his sorry ass. My mom taught me never to let a man step on my self confidence.She is sort of my role model. Did you know my dad forced her to marry him?"

"You are joking..." My jaw fell on the floor.

"Yeah, Drake doesn't know thou. At first they weren't in love it was all about business.I just adore that woman. I don't want nothing less than my dad, he just treats her right..."

"And Drake?Do you think Cardi is the ideal girlfriend?" I asked out of curiosity and realised she was wearing a bored look.

"Those two are complicated. Drake loves fame and basketball more than himself. Anything hindering that, he pushes it away. That's why him and dad don't get along..."

"That must be hurtful for both you and the family..."

"That's their business as long as we act perfect Infront of the world we are good. One day, they will patch things up..."

"Let's hope so Betty..." I laughed realising how those words had rhymed,"Did you see what I did there?"

"No sissy.For the record I prefer been called Ruby. It's more sexy, Betty seems like a nun's name..."

"Nun's what?" I couldn't hold my laughter

"Let's get back to the party.I bet it's almost dancing time and I want to shake it off..."

" Okay Ruby..."We walked back downstairs right in the moment when Drake was escorting Cardi in the middle of the dancefloor. They look so perfect like their match had been made on Heaven.He wrapped one of his arm around her waist and began leading her all around the floor as I stood on the sideline watching. He looked so happy and comfortable.

With her, he didn't have to wear a cap or glasses.A tear dripped from my eye and I quickly wipe it away. My legs felt weak, my heart so heavy and I just wanted to fall on my knees and scream.I am the one who is supposed to be dancing with him like that, all happy and giddy not that model.

"Hey,"Daniel snapped his finger on my face,"What are you thinking about? Come, let's dance..." He drags me into the dancefloor.

I looked over Daniel's shoulder as we danced with a slight hope that even for a nanosecond Drake would look my way but he was so lost onto her eyes as they laughed.God knows how much I wanted to know about what they were talking about.I am so sick of this shit, I feel like a fucking third wheel.

"Ouch Jemima!" This was the a millionth time I was stepping on Daniel. I wasn't thinking straight.After the song that was playing ended, we were requested to take our seats. I thought Drake would sit beside me but how would he when he has her.

"Ladies and gentlemen, can I have your attention?" Mrs. Harrison requested, Her husband beside her with his arm wrapped around her waist. They seemed so in love thou their love story had a rough start too, maybe I shouldn't lose hope yet."Thank you all for coming to my daughters' Betty s and Becky's graduation after-party. They really made us proud and it was a responsibility on our part to celebrate their achievement. From the Harrison family we are grateful. Let the party begin." She added.I couldn't get my eyes off Drake and Cardi. I would do anything even sell my soul to the devil to be in her position right now.Drake whispered something into her ear and she covered her mouth shyly before placing a kiss on his cheek.

I can't take this anymore. It's is sickening to see how happy she makes him. He is burdening me with the guilt of ruining such a perfect relationship.How could I think I would make him happy? I am just a simple girl from the ghetto trying to make it.I grabbed my purse and walked out of there...I headed upstairs into Betty's room. Maybe been in a princess like room would make me feel slightly better.I took off my heels and lied on her bed. Tears began streaming down my cheeks and I didn't mind wiping them off. sometimes it's good to cry the pain out.

Why does my crazy heart have stupid taste in men? I don't know for how long I lied there thinking of Drake and Cardi that my head began to hurt.I stood from the bed and noticed a pair of doors. Maybe it was the passage to mars or Heaven. I was done with this place called Earth. All it gives me it's pain and misery.I opened the doors and it led me into a balcony. From there I could see a flower garden with a bench at the center. Damn it looked beautiful under the illumination of the full moon.For a moment, I wanted to sit on that bench and just admire the flowers.