Chapter forty seven 3

When will you learn? After almost killing that teenage boy with your car, I thought that was your awakening call but no. It has been mischief after mischief. I always have to clean your mess whereas you are a grownass man. Now you are sleeping with engaged women, c'mon you should do better. How do you suppose I make this go away as usual?"

"I didn't know she was engaged..." My voice was rough that I didn't recognise it.

" I regret ever making that case go away. Maybe if I had let you be behind bars, you would have turned out to be different..." Father shifted his shoulders back.

"Then go and tell the authorities that I almost kill that teenage boy Father," I snapped at him,"I am sorry that I am not a golden boy like your Daniel. If you supported me maybe just once then I would have turned out different. You have always made men feel like a failure father..."

"Don't turn this on me Drake. Your mom spoils you too much that you have almost turned into a little girl..."Rage boiled through me and the only reason I didn't plant a fist on his face was because he is my father.

"Maybe I wouldn't have to turn into a little girl if you were there for me. Every damn day I used to pray that you would come to at least one of my games. That you would support my dreams and be my father and not toy.How do you think I feel that Mom and Jaxon used to come to my games and all school functions and not my dad while he has never missed anything that involves Danile? Do you remember that day you cancelled your trip to China to go to Daniel's prize giving day ? But when it came to me, you always had endless excuses.If you didn't want me to be born then you would have told mom to abort me? I am like this because of you. You turned me into an angry bitter man whose aim was always to prove you wrong but not anymore." My voice was so rough that I couldn't recognise it.

"You two stop fighting!!!" Hope pleaded, taking hold of my hand but I drew back.For once in my life father was lspeechless.

"If you ask me, my father is dead.There is no difference in having you for a father and been fatherless.Or I needed was for you to hold my hand and guide me like you did Troy. But no if you aren't scolding me, you are looking down on me. I just wish you dr..."Before I could say drop dead, I felt a hot slap on my cheek.

"How dare you say your fatherless?" Mom cussed out.

"Because I feel like that. You can hit me as much as you want but that's how I feel..."

I hadn't realised that my cheeks were wet with tears. I vowed never to cry Infront of Father but I guess I couldn't hold the pain in.

"Drake that's enough..." Danile places his hand on my shoulder but I pushed it away
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"So you know on that fateful day, we had argued in your office. It was the day you threatened to disown me if I don't stop playing basketball and focus on my studies. I went to drink away my sorrows and forget those harsh words.I knew I had drunk too much and couldn't drive but I didn't care... I will make your dream come true today father." I found myself stepping towards him until mom came between us. I felt the emotions I had being hiding been dug up with a sharp knife cutting through my body weighing me down once more.

"I have always being obsessed with proving him wrong that I lost myself..That obsession was the reason I loved the wrong things. I couldn't stay away from the limelight something which I have realised wasn't what I always wanted. All I wanted was someone to love me for who I was.

"And so you know I am getting married soon to a woman who taught me that life is more than proving you wrong. That life is more than fame and basketball. With her by my side, I don't need anyone...." I said in undeniable emphasis and satisfaction.

"Okay..." Jordan said in a whisper, closing his eyes as if absorbing my words and when he opened them they were filled with tears.

"You two can't do this. You are father and son." My mom tried to talk sense to us.

"It's already too late..." I pressed a kiss on her forehead and looked at Granny's direction.She seemed devastated as tears uncontrollable flowed down her cheeks.

"I love you..." I mouthed her and she just nodded.

"Bye small sisters, take care..." I hugged both of my sisters before turning my attention back to father,"And so you know we have this in common, we settle with the best women.The girl I am marrying is a smaller version of mom."

I began walking away towards the hallway when I felt Becky:s arms wrapped around my waist from behind,"I am coming with you. I choose you..."

"Little sister, mom needs you. You can come and visit me once in a while.."

"No!!!!"

"It non negotiable." I dropped her hands from my waist and began to walk hurriedly towards the door ignoring her cries. It broke my heart seeing her like that but maybe it was time I came in terms with the fact that father and I can never have a good father and son relationship. It was time to let this part of me go.When I walked out of that door, I felt weak and drained. It's like I had left my life in there.. I had the urge to drop on my knees and scream my lungs out. I should be happy I spoke out but I felt far much worse than before.

After I got into the car.Wayne didn't need words to know that things didn't end well inside there.

"So which bar do we go to?" He asked, starting the car..

"Tribeka is fine by me."I won't throw myself a pity party. I won't let myself drown in sorrow and regret. Right now all I need is a way to make Jemima understand why I should talk to Cardi for one last time. Drake get ready to get wasted.