Chapter thirty three 2

Jemima was seated at the edge of the bed, busy on her phone.

"Jemima?"

"Yes?" She looked up at me and placed her phone beside her.

"Thank you.Dinner was delicious..."

"I am glad you loved it.I will rinse my face and join you in a while..."

She stood from the bed and when she was about to walk past me, I held her hand.

"Is everything okay?" She stammered.I paused and silently stared into my favourite pair of eyes.

"You are so beautiful..." I whispered.

"And you are handsome too.Is everything okay?"

"One day I will love you so right that you will forget what it feels like to get hurt by me.I will do better, I will try and be better for you..."

"It's okay...." She pressed her lips on my cheeks and left for the bathroom.Daniel was right, I am so lucky to have Jemima in my life. I need to be a better man for her. I need to be deserving of her.Dear God, show me a way to solve this?When she walked out of the bathroom, I noticed her eyes were a bit swollen and red like ripe tomatoes.What happened now?

"Jemima what's wrong" I walked up to her, slowly pulled her closer to me and wrapped my arms around her.

"Talk to me pretty doll..."

"I just want to know what place I occupy in your life.I feel like your whore and it's killing me..."Hearing her calling herself a whore slashed my heart with savage intensity.

"You are not my whore..." I squeezed her a little bit tighter.

"Then who am I to you?"

"You are special.You are the peace I require in my chaotic life..."She pulled away from my embrace and took a step back,"Then why can't we be together?"

"It's so complicated .I am complicated, my life is complicate..." I raked my fingers through my messy hair.

"I want to be part of your complication.I do want to be in the sidelines anymore because I love you.I love you and it's killing me that you are with Cardi..." Once that first year broke free, the rest followed in a broken stream.The agony inside her was visible on her face.

No!!!No!!!! I didn't want her to say those stupid three words.I am not ready for all of this right now.It's hitting me so hard.I am not sure I can be there for her like she wants me too.The agony inside her was visible on her face.

"What do you want from me Drake Harrison?"

"I want to be with you..." I cried out in desperation.

"Then leave her!" She said like more of a command.

"It's not that easy Jemima.She is very cunning and knows to be on the media's good side. I don't know even how to start breaking up with her..."

"Then leave me!!I looked myself in the mirror and I can't recognise the girl I am becoming.So needy and desperate..."She sobbed.

"I also need you...You can't leave me Jemima, you mean the world to you..."

"No I don't..." She yelled at me.

"I feel like an option and I hate it.I don't want to waste my life away waiting for you Drake ..." She added.

"But you aren't..."

"I am DrakeI am because you want to be with the both of us and there is where you are getting it all wrong.You need only one of us and I am afraid it's not me..." She briskly wiped the tears from her eyes.

"I will sleep in the other room tonight..."

Before she could touch the door knob,I caught her arm and pulled her against my chest wrapping my arms around her.She can't leave me again.I would die.

"Please don't leave me.I will do better.I will find a solution to this..."

"And when will that be?"I pulled her back and held her by the shoulders,"I am scared of what will happen to my career.I want to start a life with you but I am not sure you can handle the pressure that comes from been on the limelight..."

"For you Drake, I would go against the world.You mean that much to me..."

"It's so hard.I don't want you to be tangled in drama and bullshit..."

"Just guide me on how to act and behave.Teach me how to be immune to this madness and I will be perfect like you want me to be..."

"I am sorry that I am messed up.Please don't leave me not tonight.I need you so close wrapped inside my arms..."

"I will never leave if you don't want me too..." She lifted her hand and caressed my cheek.

"All you need to do is choose me..."I closed my eyes and exhaled, leaning my face into her touch.

"You are only mine Jemima..." I snarled, emphasizing each word.

"And I am yours forever Drake..."

"Just give me time to fix everything..." My lips trembled, my shoulders heaved with emotions.

"Okay..."Her beautiful eyes had been encased inside of small glass marble begging me to chose her making me feel way worse than I do.I pulled her back to me, hard and fast kissing her like my life depends on it.

"I want you forever Jemima..." I pulled from the kiss panting.

"I am all your Drake" She breathed out.I pulled her back to me, hard and fast kissing her like my life depends on it.

"Don't ever leave me okay?"

"If you want me to stay then I will..."

"Thank you Jemima..."

"I need you tonight.I need every ounce of you..."Her eyes were luminous with desire.

"Your wish is my command pretty doll."I lifted her off the floor and she wrapped her legs around my waist.

"Where were we?" She snaked her arms around my neck.

"I will fuck you so hard."