Chapter thirty eight 2

Suddenly Drake hijacked my thoughts and there I was imagining him and I on that bench making out under the illumination of the full moon. Not caring about the world or even that Cardi but only the two of us confessing how truly and deep we are in love with each other. For a moment, I wanted to sit on that bench and just admire the flowers.If wishes were horses beggars would ride on.

I could feel tears balancing on my eyelids and instead of wiping them away I blinked them down my cheeks.I thought after he left her things would be different but nothing has changed.He still doesn't acknowledge me on public and has to wear those stupid glasses and cap. He hasn't even looked for me not even for a second since Ivy walked in.I need to shake it off a little before my mind explodes because of thinking too much about him. I took my phone out of my purse and scrolled through my music playlist.Perfect.The heart wants what it wants by Selena Gomez.

You got me sippin' on something
I can't compare to nothing
I've ever known, I'm hoping
That after this fever I'll survive
I know I'm acting a bit crazy
Strung out, a little bit hazy
Hand over heart, I'm praying
That I'm gonna make it out alive
You got me sippin' on something
I can't compare to nothing
I've ever known, I'm hoping
That after this fever I'll survive
I know I'm acting a bit crazy
Strung out, a little bit hazy
Hand over heart, I'm praying
That I'm gonna make it out alive
The bed's getting cold and you're not here
The future that we hold is so unclear
But I'm not alive until you call
And I'll bet the odds against it all
Save your advice 'cause I won't hear
You might be right but I don't care
There's a million reasons why I should give you up
But the heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants

I sang along with Selena Gomez, the image of Drake and Cardi burning in my head and I am fuming.Just give me few seconds and steam will start getting out of my ears.It's crap that the heart wants what it wants and what it wants seem unreachable. Indeed men are trash, Arrrrggh!!!!.

"S*xy girl?" Betty called behind me.I quickly tried to wipe the tears before turning to her but the swollen eyes, messy mascara around my eyes sold me off.
"Don't tell me you are still crying because of that jerk...

"It's hurts so much. That I want him and he wants her at the same time making me believe he left her for me..." I cried out, tears pooling my eyes.

"Lucky you, I brought some whisky from the bar. Everything was going on well until dad started belittling Drake indirectly. The party got boring, all he does is smooch with Ivy like their lives depends on it..."Hearing that, I started sobbing my hands on my face.

"Why are men trash?"

"You need a shot sissy...."Betty walked me to bed and handed me a glass of whisky,"Drown your sorrows in that whisky sissy..."

"Cheers to independence. Men are trash..." I sobbed lifting my glass up.

"If you go on like this, you will suffer from dehydration..."She handed me a box of tissues. I began getting light headed as weird thoughts flooded my mind.You should go and tell that rat Cadi that you are dating her man. That you are sharing...My inner goddess suggested.That's a bad idea.My subconscious mind warned but I didn't care. If he doesn't want to introduce me to the world, maybe I should introduce myself.With every glass of whisky, the idea to bring our relationship to the light got better and better.

"Ruby, Drake is an asshole. He f*cks me and tells me he loves me only to flirt with Ivy..." I began crying again.

"What?" Betty shook her head as if she hadn't heard right.

"Yes I have been f*cking him. He dumped her for me that's what he said but he lied..." I think one ingredient used in making this whisky is the truth pill. I couldn't stop talking.

"I am gonna collapse. No, go into comma. No, I am getting a cardiac arrest.This is what Daniel was talking about. That asshole, should we tell the others?Everyone deserves to know."

"Let's tell everyone. I am gonna pull Cardi by the ear and tell her the details with emphasis..." I described how I was gonna pull her ear and Hope wouldn't stop laughing.

"Is the world spinning more than normal?" Hope asked,resting her head on the pillow.

"Damn, it's moving so fast..."

"I guess Jesus has returned. He is flying in with a rocket that's why we are rotating..." I explained, resting my head beside her.

"I love Drake alot Ruby that it hurts but he doesn't want me..." I stuttered.

"Then let's go tell my mom, she will help..."

"If I could only kill Cardi then I would..."

"Then what's stopping you?"

"I don't know where to hide her body..."

"We will watch how to get away with murder until we get it right Jemima.Come, let me take you to the kitchen so we can grab a knife..." We tried to stand up only to fall back on the bed laughing.

"Is there a way we can get there?I mean downstairs..."

"I will call a cab..." I suggested and Betty nodded in agreement. At least I am slightly sober.We tried again to stand up but all in vain.I began narrating about my relationship with Drake when the door was slammed open.

"What the hell is going on here???" I know that voice. Where have I heard that voice?I lifted my head and saw Drake, Daniel and Becky standing Infront of us.

"We are having our own party, cheers sissy..." Betty raised her hand up and we high-fived.

"Drake you don't tell a girl you love her and flirt with other especially if you two are fucking. Do you get that?" Betty thundered.

"Tell him sissy.He is an asshole..." I struggled to sit upright which I finally did.

"Becky go distract mom and dad. I need to get Jemima from here before she creates a scene..." Drakesaid trying to take my hand but I drew it back.

"You are asshole," Tears of anger began streaming down my cheeks,"You lied to me. Did you just want to sleep with me?Then why give me false hopes?"

"Jemima, you are drunk..." DRAKEsaid in almost a loud voice.

"Why do you care?" I yelled.

"I care about you..."

"Do you?The whole night, you haven't even looked at me. Not even once. You were busy entertaining that sewer rat.."

"JEMIMa , calm down..." He tried to touch me only for me to slap his hands away.

"You keep hurting me. You looked happy with her. Then just leave me and go back to her. Because there is no difference. You are a jerk. You only think about fame and football. You are so selfish, you only think about yourself..." I couldn't stop talking.

"Go fuck with her. Go back to her and never look for me. Because I won't keep waiting for you to make up your mind. I am human and it hurts. But was does a selfish self centred man know?"

"Jemima?" He walked close to me. I tried to throw a kick but I couldn't even lift my leg."It was for appearances. I am doing this for you..."

"For me?" I laughed hard that my ribs ached,"It's for you Drake, no one else. Don't even fool me on anything . You are jerk, you are no man like Daniel. Daniel loves Chacha and he is faithful to that silly love." I hiccuped and rested my head on the pillow beside Hope who seemed to have passed out.

"Let us get you home Jemima..." Those were the last words I heard him say.

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