Hard Choices

My mind struggled to grasp the reality of her words, resisting their entry into my consciousness. I refused to accept the notion that she could leave, that our shared world could be uprooted so suddenly and mercilessly. But denial could only shield me for so long; the truth loomed ominously before me, demanding acknowledgment.

She couldn't leave. She couldn't abandon our dreams, our plans for the future that we had woven together with such care and hope. Images of us attending the same college, sharing a home near the river, flooded my mind, each scene painted with the vibrant hues of our love and devotion.

The thought of her absence, of our separation, felt like a dagger through my heart, threatening to tear apart the very fabric of our existence. How could I bear to live in a world devoid of her presence, where every corner echoed with the haunting memories of our shared laughter and love?

"What would I do without you?" The words spilled from my lips, a desperate plea born from the depths of my soul. I couldn't contain them any longer, couldn't suppress the overwhelming fear and uncertainty that gripped my heart. The mere thought of facing life without her by my side filled me with a profound sense of emptiness and despair.

As the weight of her impending departure settled upon us, I realized that our love would be tested in ways we had never imagined. But even amidst the turmoil and uncertainty, one thing remained unwavering: my unwavering devotion to her, and my determination to weather whatever storms lay ahead, together.

She looked into my eyes and then lowered them as if trying to tell me that she's helpless, she can't do anything, her hands were tied with a rope no nobody can cut and she herself didn't possess the power to do so.

And of course, she wouldn't let me do it for her.

"Have you gave a thought to it?"

"Arthur, I know, it'll not be easy for you.

But try to understand. It's neither easy for me." Tears began felling down from her eyes just like the rain on a dark moonless night.

No ray of hope. As she just announced the separation of two hearts. I didn't know about her anything. But one thing was sure. The one thumping in my heart, shattered by now after hearing to her, would stoo beating if it become true.

The birds sitting on the branches become silent all of a sudden as if they also become partner with me in my mourning and decided to quit singing the melodies of love anymore. The dark curtains of the evening began to prevail on the sky as the sun pull on the duvet and hide it's face behind it.

There's a horrific silence surrounding us, which was pierced time to time only by her sobbing.

"Don't go." I pleaded.

Her eyes were still facing the earth.

"Don't let this happen."

There's a groping silence.

"I'll die without you."

And she immediately looked into my eyes, her forehead frowned, eyes showing anger as she put her finger on my mouth and hushed me.

"Shh..."

My mouth was agape but no words dare coming out of it as her finger was on it. Tears rained down my cheeks as she wipe them off right away.

"I'll come back. Probably, sooner than expected." She whispered.

"We will meet again. I'll make visit on weekends too."

I nodded my head, as I knew nothing like this was going to be happen.

"Hey, listen Arthur." She calls for my attention as I was resisting her like a child.

"I promise. We will meet." She looked into my eyes straight. Her voice assuring me against all my premonition that she'll forget me. She'll make new friends after moving from here. She assured me that no one can replace my position in her life.

A feeling emerging from within me shouting at me, telling me, sending me signal that it's a trap don't fell for it. Tie her to the trunk of a tree, hide her, abduct her. Do whatever you could do but don't let her go.

Against it I choose to trust her. Knowingly that trust was always meant to be broken by someone closer to you.

Because these are the only people you trust and only they possess the abilities to break it.

I hummed and chided my head.

My face was still cupped in her hands, her thumbs wiping my cheeks and caressing them, probably, for the last time. Maybe, she knew it. And I had the intuition.

Nevertheless, neither of us wanted to stop the wind and change its direction. It's a thing I still ponder on. But it's all in vain.

We can't stop the storm hitting on our houses and doing the damage it was destinated to do, however, all we can do is to take primary precautions to avoid any big damage.

Somehow, deep down I had the sensation that it's about to end, the world. It's ending. The storm is arriving. Bringing great destruction with it. The force to get everything with it and left the world with fragments of a world gone.

The sky become red in the lamentation with the lover. As the red clouds gathered on it.

"It's about to rain. We should go home now." She said looking skyward.

Silently, I stared at her as she removed her hands from my face and stood up from the bench. I remained seated.

She looked down at me.

"Arthur, come on."

I espied on her face illuminated by the light striking on the sky.

The thunder bolted on the heavens as I stood up from my seat, and moved in front of her.

"We should go home now." She stammered.

I walked closer to her. As she took some steps back.

"What's wrong with you? Look at the sky. It seems like it's gonna rain cats and dogs. Let's go home." Her voice began panicking.

I kept on moving forward. Until her back hit the tree.

Her bosom began heaving heavily. Her breath grew irregular. As I tied her hands behind her with my hand and clutched her neck in my other hand.

She winced. Whined.

As I brushed her tears falling down. She opened her mouth to say something. As I sealed it with my mouth on top of it.

I kissed her as the sky poured heavily. The earth beneath us damped. I grew more closer to her as her bosom hit my chest.

"I will not let you go." I blew in her mouth. Her hands tightened in my grip as she tried hard to set them free from my grip.

"Arthur.... you're h-urting me." I heard her saying this. l before I put my mouth on her again.

"Let me do this. For one last time." I said.

Her lips quiver as I removed my lips from them.

Her hands were still tied. Our uniforms become plastered to our bodies as the rain drops streaming down through the leaves wet them all.

Her figure was probed out of it. Some creases of white shirt formed around her boobs as I struggled unbuttoned her shirt with one hand.

With my mouth I slid off the shirt from her shoulders and sniffed her wet body, pearls of water still dripping from her locks, pooling in her cervix as I traced it with my tongue. She winced loudly as I bite gently on her bone and leave red prints of my teeth on it.

Moving down I ducked my face in her shirt. Her fruity fragrance caught me half way as I moved my mouth to the right. With my other hand I lift off her bra and squeezed her breast.

She moaned as she tilted her head up against the harsh surface of the tree trunk.

I recalled all the moments of secrecy with her and how much she loved teasing me and teased by me. It broke my heart more to realize that this would the last time I'm having her in my arms. I was sniffing her for the last time.

I wasn't sure life would ever give us a chance to be this much closer to each other. To kiss each other. I wasn't sure if she would take her promise and visit me or not.

All i knew was this could be the last. Our last. I just wanted to make the most of it. So much that I could spend the later half of my life reminiscing this one moment.

I pulled out my tongue and circled it all around her teats. Her body stiffened and goosebumps popped up on her skin. As I flattened them with my tongue and bite on her nipples.

Her groans resonated with the thunderstorm.

The heavens were roaring above us and below she was moaning pinned to the trunk, tied by my hands, and under the weight of my body.

I bite it not gently this time. I bite it so much that white milky drops began sluicing out of her nipples and fell into my mouth.

I felt like heavens blooms within myself. Nourishing my soul, her product infuse new hope within me. Now atleast a part of her was inside me. Alone this fact was enough for me to spend whatever life would be awaiting me after her.

It didn't feel arose that night with her. I was deeply broken, every bone within me was crushed to its core yet the fact the she with me, by my side kept me alive.

I sucked her to my fullest. Gradually I released her hands and instantly they pulled me off her.

Her eyes were showing the pain she was enduring.

"I hate you." She groaned as she hit his fists on my chest.

"I love you." I grabbed her head in my hands and pinned it to the trunk again.

"Don't stop me today. I'll die without you. Please stay."

"Have you gone mad." She angered.

"Yes." I blew out on her lips and then bite on her lower lip quivering. She shut her eyes. As the hot water of tears released form her eyes streamed down and hit my upper lips as I sucked it in.

I kissed her hard, so hard that she was suffocated to death. Her nail rug in my shirt, piercing it, getting in my flesh and trying to hurt me so that I'd leave her. I breathed in her later to bring her back to life. A life she has to live without me.

I can't leave her.

I can't live without her.