9. Ella, the stalker

It was almost noon when I finish sketching yet another Brice's perfect face. And remembering what Ann said yesterday, I decided to be the stalker that I am and snapped the sketch and post it on my Insta page.

And being a true stalker and fangirl I tagged Brice's account and his fan page. Ann was the first to comment with lots of emojis and praising my impeccable sketching skill.

My creative juice seems to flow easily when my Insta notification buzzed, I put down my brush and peek at my phone. I almost knocked down my easel when I saw that Brice commented on my sketches. He never commented, not ever, he would like my posts but never comments on any of them.

"Ella, are you okay? you look like you've seen a ghost."

"A miracle to be precise!" I shouted like a deranged woman waving her my phone.

"Huh?"

"My honey bun bun, he commented on my Insta post!" I showed it to Gemma and she slowly shook her head.

"You're going on a date with him tonight, you should stop calling him bun bun."

I put my phone to my chest, sighing exaggeratedly while Gemma told me that I was a helpless stalker.

"You need to stop fangirling over him, you need to come clean. He will find out sooner than later, you're one of the admin for his fan base group chat right?"

"Um, yeah... I'm the one who set up the dedicated group, I even chatted with his manager a couple of months ago. She's nice."

"Really? so she likes you, thanking you for setting up his fan base?"

"Yeah, no...she said I was coming too strong to him and need to dial down on my emails." I grinned at Gemma and scroll down my phone while thinking of a witty comeback to his comment.

"Damn woman, you are really creepy aren't you?"

"But in a nice way and she knows it, anyway...what do you think I should reply to his comment?"

"It's a freaking love emoji, stay calm, cousin,"

"But this is monumental, never happened before. This is my best achievement yet, you should be happy for me."

Again, she shook her head as if I was a lost cause.

"You know you can always go to the office if you don't want to contribute to my happiness." I teased, but she looked like she's in a really bad mood.

"So, you're truly skipping Monday huh?"

"Yep, and I'm going to have lunch at Jacqueline and Benji's. I'm hoping he's still having a meltdown, I need some sugar in my veins,"

"I'm coming with you, I want to announce my news and asked them what should I reply to his comment."

She totally ignored me and walked towards our neighbor's apartment and knocked lazily.

"Permission to enter." She winked at me when the faint scent of savory tomato sauce and oregano travel to the front door.

"I hope Benji is making his Lasagna, I need some comfort food for my tummy...ah, my favorite chef!" Gemma spanked his ass playfully when he opens the door and let us into their apartment.

"My two favorite virgins, tell me, have you finally let me have my way with you? I'll be gentle," he said walking back to the kitchen and tend to his cooking.

"Benji, feed my roomie first, then you and I will have a serious discussion. I think I might do the naughty tonight." I hugged him and took his attention away from the stove.

"Jacqueline, babe, sit! Ella here is going to need our guidance on SEX!"

I've never seen her smile so wide when she quickly sit on the sofa and told me to spill the details leading up to my date with my honey bun bun that night.

"So, is he big?"

"Eh, I think so? I mean I felt him but I haven't touched him. I mean, he's my honey bun bun... duh,"

"Well that doesn't explain much, some would appear small then grow when they're aroused, and believe me I've seen some impressive growers." She smirked and let me get cozy in my seat.

Gemma was to my front seating in the one-seater with her hand holding onto her plate and her other hand spooning the Lasagna.

"What? we arrived in time, you gotta get it while it's hot!" she defended herself when I give her the look.

Benji was to my other side after he turned off the stove and took two bottles of beer from the fridge then gave me one.

"So, I'll be sending you home with some regular Durex and some XL Magnums just in case. I'm glad some of us will have a good time." He explained as if he's going to send me home with some leftovers.

"They don't have Durex XL?" and apparently my mind was thinking more unimportant details when I blurted out my question.

"Durex XXL, yes they have that, but I like to have different brands just for easy grab." He smirked and drink his beer.

"Ella, sweety, you're sure about doing this with the person you're obsessed with? I just don't want police knocking on my doors when...you know,"

"No I don't know Jacqueline, but I think I'll be okay, me and Gemma had the talk already. I think I'm done with my V. I mean, if anyone would sweep me off my feet they should've done it by now." I shrugged and she hugged me, then give me her mischievous smile.

"Well then, if you're sure...okay, let see where do we start..."

"Are you growing a rainforest down there?" Benji asked suddenly making everyone laugh.

"I'm not a prude! I've done stuff, and I waxed diligently."

"Good to know, you Gemma?"

"Same, though I'm thinking I'm wasting money for my beauty stuff. I think rainforest might be a good idea for me at some stage."

Jacqueline and I laugh so hard when Benjamin almost choked on his beer.

"Gemma! Oh, honey, what happened to you?"

"She's fine, she's just being dramatic. I won't let her grow the forest. Come on, my thing will be gone in hours. If there's anything I need to know, you should help and not let me embarrassed myself."

I was tense about tonight, and what Jacqueline said was right, he's my honey bun bun. I've been fantasizing about him for the longest, and seriously don't want to mess things up.

"Okay then, Benji get your laptop and plug some porn, we'll be viewing vanilla ones. We're going to make you a pro in an hour."

"Damn woman, you're going all out tonight!" Benji got up excitedly and walk to his room to get his laptop.

"You set it up, and pick the movies I'm getting our lunch and snacks. We should do this movie time more often." He laughed and leave us to go to the kitchen.

So there we were half an hour into the movies, with an empty pan of Lasagna and empty beer bottles.

"Okay, now summaries..." Jacqueline was to the side of the flat screen mounted on the wall acting all mentor, while Benji chuckled as he cleared up our dirty dishes and put them all in the sink.

"Got it, grabby hands, orals, missionary, eye contact, doggy style for later?" I spilled out my crash-course knowledge of losing virginity the Jacqueline way.

"Well yeah, but what else Ella? come on..."

"Oh, and tell him I'm still a virgin."

"Yeah, that, some men are disappointed when they found out they pop ones cheery without even knowing it. It's a male thing, they just need to know, maybe it's the experience...I don't know, Benji? can you help me on this one?"

The handsome man was back with our coffees and told me that it's their male ego.

"... and basically because they want to know how it felt when they push through your hymen. Which I think is bull, that's why I think you should have your first with me, and get the awkwardness done with and you can be the wild woman in bed tonight." He sits to my side after putting our coffees on the table.

I laughed nervously thinking that he was serious with his words, and in that couple of seconds, I was actually thinking about it.

"Ella, don't go there. Just be yourself tonight, you watched your porn, Jacqueline had told you about what and what not to do. You'll do great, I believe in you, cousin." Gemma caresses my hand and gave me her smile.

"Yes, listen to your cousin, be yourself, take everything slow, sensually slow, and eye contact then everything will go smoothly. If not then there's always a second time." Jacqueline give me her kind of pep talk and made me laughed again.

"Yeah, I can make you feel so much better the second time."

"Benji!" both Gemma and Jacqueline told off Benjamin at the same time.

"Okay, now that her issue is done, can we talk about me now?"

"I guess so, maybe it'll dilute my feelings, I'm getting kind of horny with that porn."

We all giggle when Gemma told Benji to take our minds away from the porn.

The rest of the afternoon Benji let his feelings out, it was heartbreaking seeing him like that. He's such a kind man, beautiful on the inside and out and I can't believe he's having such a hard time with his love life.

It was ten minutes before Brice was scheduled to arrive and I was ready with my spaghetti strap black dress and a sheer black cardigan showing off my tats in the most modest way possible.

Getting ready was easy, though I spent the longest time coloring my nails with a deep burgundy color that matches my lacy underwear. All in the fine little details, Jacqueline said earlier when she showed us the women in movies.

And with the time that I have left, I decided to check on my Insta account to see if he actually replied to my previous reply on his comment.

Benji and Gemma were telling me to be cool and reply with a simple thank you and a hug emoji, both saying that I should just be cute about it.

But Jacqueline said that I should go, full-on stalker, like I always have been. So I put on capitals on my 'thank you' and love kisses emojis and hurriedly click post before I change my mind.

I think Jacqueline was right because that was my initial feeling and I think he needs to know that.

"Oh honey, you look like you're a woman who's going to lose your virginity. Come, give me a hug. Wait we should take before and after pictures of you." Gemma snapped a picture of me then we hugged saying she felt like a parent giving me away for prom.

And with her last word my phone buzzed, it was his text saying he's at the door.

"Okay mom, I love you and I'll be taking precautions they're all in my purse just pray that I don't spill everything and embarrassed myself."

"You won't kiddo, I love you. You will make me proud, use those condoms, and have multiple orgasms for me."

"Eww... Gemma, that's it. I'm outta here."