CHAPTER 52

Maya's pov
No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't control the anger that kept on rising in my heart as I baffled at the evil that alpha Rick contained in his whole soul… that man was wicked, heartless and other words I could think of to describe a person that had no remorse in his heart. How could someone be so filled with evil and still crave to do bad things to people? What was he going to gain? A new pack? Even if he did get it in the end, loneliness was bound to come along with it because everyone around only feared him and felt nothing else for him, so he was definitely going to wallow in loneliness even if he took over all the packs in the whole werewolf world.
I kept on stringing my fingers, squeezing them tight, hoping to dissipate the anger that was swelling inside of me but it wasn't helping, nothing was changing. I had never felt this angry before and there seemed to be no option to calm down. I hated feeling this way but there was nothing I could do to get rid of these negative feelings growing inside me… I kind of felt good in a way; imagining gruesome things that I would like to do to Alpha Rick in my head because the hate I now felt for him was way more than what I did feel when he only made life miserable for me while I stayed at the blood moon pack.
He killed my parents. He fucking killed them! And still had the audacity to lie to me just to set a trap to have me and Asher killed. Thanks to Shalom who quickly called us to rectify the situation while we were on our way to the blood moon pack. It would have been a different scenario if we had gone there and fallen into their trap. To think I actually had faith he was saying the truth hurt like hell because I had hope, I thought that maybe finally I'd be able to meet my long lost parents thanks to fucking alpha Rick for awakening dead feelings inside me again by making crave for the love of a mother or father when they were dead.
I was fuming, wallowing in an endless fury that seemed to have no end this time. I swore to make him pay. I remembered the promise I gave him when I and Edna were kidnapped; I was going to fulfill that promise, I was going to make him, Jason, and Melissa go through double the pain they made me go through, I was going to make them go through hell until they finally died in the hands of my torture I'll put them true
All this thoughts weren't still helping. A part of me was in extreme hurt and pain from believing I'd actually meet my parents when they were dead and another part me was fuming in too much rage about how alpha Rick lied to me about having my parents as hostage. He had to crazily desperate to do that because it wasn't even a smart move. Thanks to Killian and Shalom who saved us at the last minute, I would have endangered Asher's life to because of how curious I was to see my parents that were already dead and were killed by alpha Rick. That man had done many things, so many evil and I thanked the moon goddess for letting me survive through all that ordeal I went through because I was going to make him pay; including his useless children that were following the path he laid out for them… they were all going to be at my mercy soon, one day and I wouldn't listen to their pleas, I'll only laugh and ask them who's begging now.
This wasn't helping, sitting and doing nothing to kill the anger in me. I decided to leave for the training ground, hoping that my anger will be leveled if I punched some bags and tried to shift between my omega and white wolf form. I stood up from my bed and went to the bathroom to rinse my face. I did that and looked in the mirror, my eyes were blank, lifeless like I was numb but I knew what I was feeling inside, I couldn't stay close to anyone because I didn't know what I was capable of doing in the spur of the moment. My wolf wasn't settled in my head too, she kept on howling and growling in anger too and I was glad I wasn't alone with this feelings that were eating me up but I didn't want to leave me. The anger felt better than crying like a pitiful and weak werewolf that seemed helpless and hopeless.
I wasn't any of that, I was strong and I knew it. I only needed time to discover my whole power and believe me, alpha Rick and his children were going to have a taste of my anger, they were going to coil in fear, shiver at my outburst and cry for mercy in my hands while I did all the things I'd thought of doing to them my whole life.
I got really angry at that moment and punched my mirror, it didn't crack and I got more angry. I growled and kept on punching as I yelled. My knuckles were bleeding and the prints of the blood smeared on the mirror but I didn't feel it, I didn't care. I was too angry to even realise I was destroying my hands.
The mirror cracked at each punch I gave until it shattered and fell to the floor in pieces. I still wasn't satisfied, I began to throw things in the bathroom, flinging them around as the sound of glasses breaking and pouring in shards on the floor resonated in my ears and only increased the rage in me till it was only a room filled with broken pieces of things on the floor.
My door opened and Edna walked in with panic on her face "Maya what's wrong? I heard a loud noise, are you o…." She stopped as she saw me in the bathroom in the middle of the mess I created and looked at me with eyes that were filled fear
"What the fuck Maya? What happened?" She asked me coming towards me and I glared at her, making her take a few steps back in fear.
"You're different Maya, you… you need to calm down" she stammered as her gaze travelled round the bathroom frantically in utter fear.
"Don't tell me what to do!" I said in almost a whisper and she began to come closer again; cautiously
"Maya you just have to listen to me, I'm here for you" she said calmly and placed a hand on my shoulder. I threw her hand off my shoulder immediately "DO NOT TOUCH ME" I yelled at her and she gasped "Maya" she called in shock but her soothing voice didn't get to me, I was lost in my anger.
The door opened and Asher, Tommy and Shalom walked in. I was sure they heard my screaming. "What's happening?" Asher asked and saw the mess too when he got to the bathroom with Tommy and Shalom close behind him. I rested my back on the wall and slid down till I was seated on the floor of the bathroom and bent my head in between my legs but I could tell Asher, scratch that, I knew everyone was staring at me with shock. They'd never seen me this way. "Maya what's wrong?" Asher asked me after Edna had briefed him on what happened after she entered. He sat beside me and slowly rubbed my arm to calm me down. It always worked but this time, it didn't. His touch only pissed me the more.
My wolf was growling in my head and I could feel my anger rising to the surface again "get out" I replied his question but he only brought his head closer to mine "I'm here Maya, whatever it is, well tackle it together and win" he said and I lost it
"Get out!" I screamed and he flinched. I raised my head to look at all of them and they all looked shocked, speechless and scared
"You're the one who lost your fucking parents before even getting to know them. You're not the one who's a white wolf with a destiny to claim a pack owned by the man who killed your parents, you guys are the freaking ones that went through all the shit I did while at that pack. So don't tell me you're going to fight with me" I stopped to catch my breath as my voice broke
"Maya don't say that" Edna said and I glared at her.
"You're all going to die, can't you see that? Your boyfriend's life is on the line. Our fucking lives are on the line and you still want to fight with me? That's fucked up!" I screamed before pushing through them to finally leave for the training ground.
I was already getting suffocated in the bathroom where I stood with their hoke boring eyes. I needed to be alone, to organize my thoughts, to feel this anger at its highest because it was soothing, I couldn't deny that. I was feeling a kind of unique high and I didn't want to come down yet.
I got to the training ground and wore gloves then went to a punching bag ready to vent my whole fury on it.
First punch… I swore on my whole being to make Alpha Rick pay for everything he had to me and the whole white wolves that were innocently killed
Second punch… my parents, the fucker was definitely going to pay for killing them and killing my chance of ever meeting them
Third punch… he was going to go through hell in my hands, along with Jason and Melissa. I was going to watch with satisfaction as their faces would contort in different expressions that displayed pain while I tortured them.
"I'll kill them" I swore, sweat already dripping down my face
"I hate them" I said again, another punch.
"You took my parents" I uttered, I punched again and I began to hear footsteps, then Asher, Edna and Shalom came in
"Maya, you need to calm down," Shalom yelled from where she stood. I was sure she was scared of coming close to me. I preferred it that way too because I didn't know what I could do to her too and I was scared I'd hurt her. I closed my eyes and fell to my knees. My anger was slowly turning to hurt and tears were already filling my eyes.
"Fucking bastards!" I screamed out in fury as the whole anger hit me again and punched the ground with my other hand causing the knuckles to bleed too. It hurt this time and my wolf howled in my head from the pain I was feeling. I began to scream… the pain and anger was way too much to handle. The smashing didn't help, neither did the punching do anything too so I hoped if I screamed my feelings out, it would help. It got out of my control and I began to shift. Bones snapped and I began to scream in pain until I shifted completely but I wasn't in my omega form, I was in my white wolf form and my wolf wasn't calm tok. She kept on howling and growling and Asher, Shalom and Edna had panicked looks on.
Shalom began to chant a spell she once learnt hoping it would help me but It didn't do anything. Asher then took the bold step and came to me, his face calm and his eyes kind. He told me sweet words and tried to make me calm down as he reminded me of how much he loved me and would always be with me… my wolf began to whimper and laid on his leg where he sat and he ran his fingers through my fur. I felt myself calm down and closed my eyes then slowly, I shifted back to my human form. I was weak so he carried me to his room and laid me down on his bed. I lost consciousness immediately due to how weak I was.