CHAPTER 63

Maya's POV
My body could barely keep in the rage, the anger I felt bubbling up in me as my mind went over all that had happened a long time ago. All that I had finally known.
This was the truth about me, and about my parents that I had always tried to find some information about, regardless of if they worked as servants once, or if they were also slaves like I used to be at one time.
But to find out about their true selves, that they were both were wolves of nobility, and that they had died unjustly? To find out that they had practically been to hell before they had even died? To find out that they never had the chance to watch their only child grow like many other were wolf parents had the luxury of doing?
For me to find out that I had been lied to about my life and where I came from, and that my parents had to suffer and die to keep me safe, and I in turn too, had to suffer at the hands of an evil were wolf?
To find out that my parents and I had gone through all of this because of the so called alpha of the Blood moon's pack, the wicked alpha Rick?
'Calm down Maya. It is okay, my love." And then I found myself looking into the eyes of Asher. With something that sounded like what was between a wail and a sob, I threw myself into his embrace with fat tears rolling down my cheeks.
'Do not say that, Ash." I said, my voice muffled by his shirt. 'Do not treat me like I am fragile or weak or helpless. Tell me the harsh, cold truth!" I said in a loud whisper, my voice choking.
Asher hugged me even tighter.
'How am I supposed to do that if you are practically breaking apart in front of me, my love?"
I sighed and my mind began to wander.
Imagine a mother having to give away her baby— being forced to give away her baby, her own child, in a bid to keep her safe. I thought, still crying into Asher's shirt.
My mother had to do that. I never even got the chance to meet her, she too never got the chance to see me grow, or to call her ‘mother'. My father never got the chance to see me grow, he spent his last moments handing me over to keep me safe, and fighting to protect himself and his mate, my mother.
I had two wonderful parents, and because of an argument, because of a disagreement, some fool thought that it would be a good idea to kill a were wolf and his wife?
I had stopped crying and I had dried, salty streaks going down my face.
Wish if Alpha Rick had later found out that I was the daughter of the late Beta Jamieson? What would he have done to me then?
Nothing short of a tortured death is what I had thought that he would do, but I had a feeling that if there was a worse way to die, he would have killed me in that manner, if he had known who I actually was.
The priest's words repeated itself in my head rent free.
'Indeed you are light."
But was I? And what would I be able to do? Cry? The same way I was doing now? And what could light do, if I was indeed light?
Only large, powerful sources of light could do anything significant, like the sun, now that was light that was powerful.
Asher moved me and placed me directly in front of him, using his hands or hold me up. From the point where he held me at, I could see the large wet spot going from his shoulder to his back, and I felt my cheeks burn in embarrassment. Asher's face remained grim.
'Maya." He said sternly. I looked up to meet his eyes.
'Do you know how pathetic you are now?" He asked in a harsh tone and I sucked in an audible deep breath through my mouth.
'You just found out about the truth. The truth about you and who you actually are. The truth about your parents, the truth about their death, about how they died. You finally found out what happened to them and who it was that killed them. And happened to be the same were wolf who had almost killed you on multiple occasions. The same one who has treated you, and eventually, even Edna like the trash was worth more than you both." Asher said, shaking me gently and letting go of one hand to touch his forehead in a fit of rage stemmed from Alpha Rick.
'You finally understand why you have always been in constant suffering and after that, the next thing you do is cry? Like a new born child?" He asked me.
'Is this how you want to be a Luna? Is this how you are going to take care of our pack? Is this how you are going to win against the Blood moon pack and take over as their alpha? I am sure that your parents love you, but if they could see you now, they would be sorely disappointed to find out that the child they had laid their lives down for was only sulking and shedding tears. They would be embarrassed to see that is all you are doing, in spite of the fact that you have got the ability to take them down. Is that how you like it then, my love?" He said in an even louder voice, making it seem like the endearment he had added at the end was also another dig at how pathetic I was being.
'Asher!" I shouted and raised my palm, and it instantly connected with his cheek.
The stupid were wolf did not even have the audacity to turn his head, or at least act as if he was impacted by the slap I had thrown at him.
My breathing was fast and I could feel my heart making an effort to get out of my body. He was actually right about everything. Instead of making an effort to think about what I could do, and how I could defeat alpha Rick once and for all, I was down crying like a child who had lost their toy.
Asher pulled me closer to himself and wrapped his arms around me.
'Baby, I am so so sorry. I am sorry if that hurt you, I did not mean to make you feel bad about yourself, please forgive me." He said.
'I was only trying to give you a reality check, some sort of boost and as you had said that you needed it, I thought that I would have to be the one to give it to you, you know? Please forgive me."
I heard all that Asher had said, but my head was still lost in the thoughts, the violent thoughts that I had centered my person about. The thoughts of killing alpha Rick and crumbling any evil legacy he had made all to dust.
I was snapped back to reality when Asher rested his head on my stomach, muttering endearments and apologies.
'Asher." I muttered, hoping he would hear me.
He did not.
'Asher!" I said in a much louder tone. His head snapped up.
'Yes ma'am." He replied, making me laugh.
'It is okay, you did not do anything wrong. In fact, you gave me the reality check that I needed. I have been whining away like a five year old would after her candy got taken away, instead of being mature and upfront, and to think about the matter in the way that a mature person would.
You were right. I should have thought over it all and I should even be planning my next strike at the moment, instead of sobbing. On the other hand, instead of scolding you, I would like to thank you." I sighed.
'Thank you, my love." I said with a ready smile and gave him a kiss on the forehead.
'I love you." Asher said and pulled me in even closer.
'I love you too." I said, patting his head and smiling down at his cute face.
'So, what do we do now? Do you have a plan in mind, or should we brainstorm together?" Asher asked me, holding my hand and drawing invisible designs on it.
'The second idea— of us brainstorming together sounds better, but how about we talk about it with Killian first?" I asked.
'Not telling him the whole thing, definitely, but like, to ask about the situation of things just so that we would be able to have better insight on how to attack and to plan everything out even better." I said, looking at Asher.
'Yeah, that sounds even better. I would call him now." Asher said and brought out his phone to dial Killian's.
Killian's phone continued to ring, but he was not picking it up. Asher dialed his number two more times, and he still did not pick up.
Asher grinned at me. 'Maybe his phone is on silent."
I grinned back. 'Or maybe he is in an important place and would not need us to blow his cover.
'There is also the possibility of him sleeping." Asher shrugged.
'Or maybe sleeping, and he did not notice that his phone had rung." I mirrored his actions.
'Uh, maybe he is getting some action." Asher said and I responded with a blow to his head which seemed to affect me more than it did him.
In fact, he did not seem fazed at all.
'Edna is his mate, you dumb fuck!" I shouted at him and he winced.
'Oh shit, I totally forgot. I take that back." He said, as if he was panicking. 'Do not tell Edna, please?"
'Don't tell Edna what?" Edna asked, strutting into our living room.
'That he thinks that chicken does not go well with ketchup." I said without batting an eye, or hesitating.
'No way! He is so lame. That is the best combination ever." She said, pulling Asher by the ear and turning to me.
'So, have you figured out what to do yet?" She asked me. 'About the whole pack situation and all the ruckus going about?"
'Well, we were trying to call Killian to see if he could give us any intel, but he was not picking up his phone. Maybe you could try calling him, he would try to reply as soon as he can since you are his mate and everything, you know?" I asked, looking at Asher who nodded at me.
'Yes Edna, call him." Asher said.
'Alright, I even sent him a text, but he has not replied yet. But hopefully, he would answer when I call him." Edna nodded, bringing out a phone to dial Killian's number.
She put the phone to her hair and frowned. 'Funny, he is not picking the call." She looked at her phone.
Then she dialled his line again and out of on loud speaker. We heard the phone ring for about a minute until the ringing sound stopped.
'The number you are trying to call is not answering, please try again later." The phone operator said and the line went off with three loud beeps.
'Why is he not answering his phone? Did you guys have an argument or something?" Asher asked and then I smacked his head at his too blunt question.
'No, we did not. I am already getting worried." Edna said, looking around.
'It is alright, Edna. I'm sure he is fine, maybe he is just occupied with other things at the time. And you know that he is at the Blood moon pack. Answering our calls would be risky for him, and I am sure you would want his head intact, hmm?" I asked and she nodded weakly.
'Yeah, I guess so."