Daydreaming

"Soraya, are you okay? You're daydreaming again!" Diana held up her palms in front of my eyes, trying to make sure that I didn't daydream again.

"N-no, I wasn't daydreaming. I just-" I couldn't continue my words. I'm not sure that I can tell them what happened to my roommate.

"Seeing your nervous reaction, I can guess, something must have happened to you, right? Did you two fight?" Kimberly asked. Even though I don't want to admit that Kerry Smith and I had an argument yesterday, we are quite aware that the relationship between the two of us is not going very well.

It's a secret, I'm sure that Kerry doesn't want his embarrassing secret to spread and be known to other people. Maybe not everyone should know what happened or maybe what happened was normal, but it felt very uncomfortable for me.

"Everything is fine, there is nothing to worry about!" I said. I tried to smile, but my eyes accidentally caught the figure of a tall man with black hair walking 10 meters behind Diana and Kimberly.

The black-haired figure walked calmly, stiffly with a cold and mysterious expression. His eyes glanced for a moment at the place where I was looking at him nervously.

A pair of very beautiful blue eyes amazed me, I have to admit that the creature standing there was an extraordinarily beautiful creature. It's too beautiful as if it doesn't feel real, like a statue that has been carved perfectly and flawlessly.

Only 3 seconds, those eyes only glanced at me for 3 seconds. But it's enough to make me feel mixed feelings. Amazed and scared. Yes, I felt scared by his very sharp and deep gaze.

"Who do you see?" Diana asked. I immediately looked back, seeing the same figure I saw.

Kimberly, who seemed to have expected it, only glanced briefly with eyes that showed that she was not at all interested in the figure.

"You two better watch your eyes! It'll be obvious if you two keep looking at him!" Kimberly said.

"Eh? Really? Did you know? Hahaha...what can I do? He's very charismatic, really cool. Right, Soraya?"

"Ah, I-I think so-" I answered nervously. I swallowed hard. I'm very embarrassed to admit it.

I felt my heart suddenly beat fast. Either out of nervousness or complete awe. I just realized that the mysterious lecturer was starting to attract my attention more than I thought.

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"Agh, damn! Why am I looking at him like that? It would definitely be obvious if I was paying attention. Oh, what about this? If we passed each other again it would be really awkward." I kept complaining in my heart since the moment where my eyes and Levi's met.

For a moment, we looked at each other. Even though I admit that my heart was beating fast, it cannot be denied that there was a feeling of fear that emerged in my heart and it was very difficult to explain.

I took a deep breath and exhaled slowly, I don't think I'm used to this strange feeling. Not to mention my relationship with Kerry Smith which makes me a little unsure that we can be good friends.

I walked through the dormitory corridors until I passed the exact same path as when I passed Kerry's boyfriend. It made me feel uncomfortable, including having to lie down and sleep in that bed.

"Kerry? She brought her boyfriend again?" I said when my eyes saw how Kerry, who was making out passionately with her boyfriend, came into our bedroom.

It felt like a dream, I remembered exactly how Kerry promised not to bring her boyfriend back to this room. But today, just one day since she said that with full confidence, she brought him back.

I stopped walking, even though I felt very angry, I was too afraid to take action. I'm afraid that if I complain or vent my frustration now, the relationship between Kerry and I will get worse.

"Damn, what should I do? She actually brought her boyfriend again? Unbelievable!" My hands were clenched and shaking.

Be patient, it seems that's all I can do for now. Sounding like a coward, I realized how embarrassing it was that I couldn't be assertive.

At the closed door, I realized that if I went in now, I would only make myself like the unlucky person who caught a disgusting couple doing something dirty in someone else's bedroom.

"No, I can't. I can't go in now. They'll definitely pretend like nothing happened. I'd better pretend I don't know anything and leave for the time being." I thought. I tried hard to convince my poor self to be wise enough to find a safe path.

I stepped my feet away from the dormitory corridor which I originally thought would be the safest, most comfortable and full of memories. But in reality, dormitories are just a comfortable place to stay for couples who are madly in love.

A strange feeling took my steps further away. I haven't had time to explore the environment around the university, including the dormitory environment.

"Maybe I could wander around for a bit." I thought. I followed my instincts that told me that I would find something extraordinary in this place.

The autumn breeze blows away the dry leaves. The sound of birds chirping and the wind blowing, I really enjoyed it. Reminds me of home, family and hometown.

I realized that my steps had taken me to the middle of a forest surrounded by orange trees. I looked up at the sky, white clouds moving slowly, followed by black clouds far behind me.

"It looks like it's going to rain tonight. I muttered. I knew exactly this situation after observing the sky.

However, even though I know it will rain. I felt reluctant to return to my room now. I knew that Kerry and her boyfriend took longer to finish their make out session.

My eyes glanced at the clock on his hand which showed 4.30 in the afternoon. I took a breath, I thought maybe I could wait for 10 minutes before finally returning to the room.

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