Hard decision

Steve
The information that Laky gave me takes me by surprise. I'm between the hammer and the anvil. If I assume this pregnancy, I have to put an end to my marriage with Paula. I must be sure of it, because she will never forgive me for having cheated on her, especially with the housewife. Paula is a proud woman who cares about her image. Already now she's a successful businesswoman, she'll want to get rid of me if she finds out the truth. Because I have become useless to her. On the other hand, I always dreamed of having children, but Paula didn't want them. We had discussed about the topic several times and she had promised to make concessions. Only, she always postponed this project until later. It was never the right time. I ended up resigning myself and losing hope of having children one day. Come to think of it, Paula has only given me trouble. She took me on her revenge plan against her sister and ruined my life at the same time. I still can't figure out why I agreed to marry her, when nothing forced me to. Despite all the harm she did to me by forcing me to rape Martina, how did I end up taking such a woman as my wife? I curse the day that I met her way. Come to think of it, it seemed like I did something against my will by choosing a woman I never wanted to marry, not even in my dreams. Now that Laky is pregnant, there will surely be consequences that will affect our couple. The dilemma in which I find myself is very great. What if this was my only chance to have a child? Isn't having Laky an abortion taking a huge risk? What if she died at the same time? However, am I able to deal with Paula's anger? These are the questions that tormented my mind during this week. The last day before the deadline that I gave Laky to situate her on my decision regarding her pregnancy, Paula came home late at night. Since we moved into this house, it's only today that she reappears again. I was sitting in the living room watching a documentary on television when got in the house.
"Where are you coming from Madam?" I asked her the question, as she crossed the living room without speaking to me.
"Stop with your stupid questions!" She replies in a condescending tone. "Don't you know I'm a businesswoman and I'm very busy with my business? Where do you want me to be?" She continued talking to me with the same tone.
"Don't take me for an idiot Paula! You're not the first, let alone the only person who trades out there ok? We've never heard that to trade, you have to spend nights in sleep outside like a wanton." I said raising my voice.
"You know what, I don't have to give you an account on what I do or where I'm coming from, sir. It's my house, therefore, I go out and come in as I want. If you're not happy with that, well, you can take a leave! Why don't you go out like real men get your own money and grow it like I did?" She told me with a look full of contempt.
The way she talks to me disgusts me enormously.
"Now it's about your money and your house?!" I inquired with bitterness in my heart.
"You know what, you're seriously pissing me off. I don't even know why I'm here giving you explanations about my actions. Good night!" She concluded heading for her room.
I remained thoughtful about what Paula has become. She is getting worse day by day. What will I do well? Because I'm not ready to suffer so much humiliation every day that she will be at home.