Chapter 27: A Fight or Make up

Chapter 27: A Fight or Make up
Sydney
"How dare he embarrass me like that in front of all the warriors and the pack at dinner." I put my fist through the wall.
He didn't come back for dinner, so I sat alone the day after being marked. The whole pack saw it. I looked like an idiot just sitting there waiting for him. What the hell.
"Our mate was upset." Thora was defending him, which made my already bad mood worse.
"I don't care. He should have sucked it up and swallowed it down, and dealt with it later. We have a pack to run and don't have time for feelings." Why did he leave me? He's supposed to be my mate, and he just walked away like it was nothing.
I hear footsteps coming down the hall, and I can smell him. I ready myself and my weapon. Silas walks in the bedroom door. I launch the pillow from my hand as hard as I can at his head—the impact pushing him back for a second.
"Oh, you finally decide to come back." I rush over to him. The pillow was a distraction, so I could close the distance and hit him. I get within striking distance and attack with a slap to the face.
Silas is battle-ready, and the pillow wasn't enough to distract him. He catches my wrist in midair. He looks at my hand about to strike. "What's that for?"
"For causing a scene on the practice field, for running off without a word, for leaving me all alone at dinner and making me look pathetic." I raise my other hand, but he grabs that one as well. I'm trying to break free of his grasp, but he's too strong.
"I just needed some air." Silas releases my writs and steps around me.
"For five hours. What the hell Silas. You cut the link and disappeared. Did you even consider how that would look?" I cross my arms across my chest. I would wait for an opening.
"Why are you so concerned with how things look but not with what's actually going on. Like Joseph having access to the financials or those assholes finding ways to touch you? You are completely oblivious." I can see his jaw clenching. I give him the Joseph issue is on me, but he's wrong about the warriors.
"Joseph has been overseeing the financials since my father passed. I didn't think it was going to be an issue. Those jerks are just stupid and don't remember anything I teach them. You, however, overreacted and made me look stupid." I watch him like he's my prey. He knows I'm watching him and bidding my time. He is on guard as well. The fight and the anticipation of me taking him down has my heart racing.
"Are you seriously that dense when it comes to men?" Silas cocks his head to the side, and his condescending tone sets me off. I go in for the attack.
"They don't see me in that way no one does." I throw a punch, and it's blocked.
"Let me ask you a question. Have you ever met an unattractive Alpha or Luna?" Silas spins and slaps my ass as he gets out of my reach. Which just pisses me off more.
"Well, no, but I haven't met that many. What does that have to do with anything?" I try to knee him in the side, and he grabs my leg. He paws my thigh with his callused hands. My heart is racing even more
"Everything! You are an Alpha. Alphas are powerful, commanding, intimidating, and above all, attractive. Those dicks are scared of you but still find you appealing. They have been faking it so they could get physically closer to you without you noticing." I step back and try throwing a punch again. This time I'm not blocked, but he grabbed my wrist again. The look in his eyes makes me feel like I'm the prey. My breath catches in my throat.
"This mate-bond has fired your brain. I'm a Beta's daughter who was promoted to Alpha. I'm not appealing, and those guys are just dumb. You are making it more than it is." Si gets so close to me. I can feel the heat coming off his bare chest.
"Do you have any idea what that dickhole said about you? Do you know how much I restrained myself from hurting him? That's why I had to go run for five hours. I would have murdered anyone who looked at you at that point." He snarls, and I try to push him away with my other hand, but he grabs that wrist too. I should fight back, but part of me doesn't want to.
"What did he say?" I squeak out before Si takes both my wrist in one hand and raises my arms above my head.
"I'm not repeating it." He whispers, his hot breath on my ear sending shivers down my spine. How did we get like this?
"I want to know." I look at him with hooded eyes. I wanted to know what pushed him to be so predatory.
"Drop it. It's over now. If he wants to stay alive, he'll keep his hands to himself. We have other things we need to focus on like the Council inquiry and the rogues." Silas presses my back against the wall. He runs his free hand up and down the side of my body. I try to steady my breathing and focus.
"You freak out and go wander in the woods for five hours, and you can't even tell me what set you off. Whatever, I guess I was expecting too much. You don't even care about this pack or me, really your just here because of this fated mate bullshit." I snarl out. He might have me pinned, but I was going to make him fight for it one way or another.
"Syd, it's not like that, and you know it." A deep growl reverberates through his chest. My heart starts pounding again.
"Oh, stop. It's not like you actually love me. I know better than to think that." He may not love me, but he wants me. His desire would be my weapon.
"Maybe I could if you would let me. Maybe I could if you could trust me." He buries his head into my neck and licks my mark. I fight the urge to moan and let him win.
"Get off your high horse. You walk around and act like you're fucking perfect, but you know you have shit you don't want to talk about." His grip on my wrist tightens. I know I hit a sore spot, but I wasn't backing down.
"I've been an open book this whole time." Silas glares at me with his dark eyes, warning me.
"OK, let's talk about those scars on your back? Why the hell are you so insecure when I'm around other males? You already marked me. It's not like I've got another option." He presses his chest against mine, and I can feel the tenseness of his muscles at my words.
"I'm just an option to you. Just a means to an end to you." I physically feel like a trapped animal, but I know my verbal blows are getting to him.
"We have a pack to run and a lineage to protect. That's it. Do your role, and don't make me look like an idiot." I slide a leg up and down his. I'm just calling this my duty. What will you do now?
"You know what? You're right. I'm not perfect as much as I try to be, but it doesn't matter because you are mine." Silas picks up my wandering leg, and I wrap both around him. He throws me down on the bed.
"I'm your mate, and your Alpha remembers that." I tighten my grip around his waist.
"Yeah, I'm your mate. I'm the only one who doesn't bow down to you." He rips my shirt off and paws at my breast. "I'm the only one who can touch you. I don't like anyone trying to touch what's mine." He pushes my bra up and takes a nipple in his mouth. I moan, and I realize I'm losing my resolve. I need to gain back my control.
"Let me up, or we are really going to fight." My words and actions don't match. I dig my hands through Silas' short dark hair as he rolls his tongue over my nipple.
"You really don't understand how appealing you are." Silas moves his mouth to my neck and mate mark.
"It's the bond blinding your reasoning." I feel his swelling length pressing into my waiting sex at my words.
"Syd, you are an Alpha through and through that goes for your looks too. If you only saw how males looked at you. How I look at you." His hand trails down to my ass which he greedily takes a handful of.
"What did he say to you? Tell me." I whisper, trying not to whimper instead. He did know his way around my body. It was taking everything in me to stay in control, but I was aroused, and I knew Silas could smell it.
"Why did you bring up that right now?" He snorts.
"Please tell me." I nibble his ear and press my body closer.
"Fine, but I want to be rewarded for not harming him once I tell you." A mischievous grin tugs at his lips. I cave a little.
"I guess that depends on what he said and what you did and didn't do." I rake my nails down Silas' back. He liked the mix of pleasure and pain just as much as I do.
"He said the marks on my back made it look like you made me your bitch and that you kicked my ass. He then said he would have bent you over and fucked you into submission. There are you happy? Do I get a reward?" Silas tugs at my shorts.
"What? That doesn't make any sense." I know he's telling the truth; I can feel it through the mate-bond, but I'm honestly at a loss for words.
"He said he was going to be your mate before I came along." Si's predatory glare comes back, and I can say I'm impressed he didn't kill him on the spot.
Thinking back to Brian, I can't help but laugh. "I broke his nose on the day of my Alpha Ceremony when he gave me a mate proposal."
"I told him he couldn't handle an Alpha." Si smiled and lightly kissed the corners of my mouth.
"Oh, and you can?" I just want to tease him.
"It's less about handling and more about understanding your needs." Si looks at me in a way that feels like he's looking into my soul.
"And what are my needs?" I take his face in my hands. I was looking back, trying to uncover all his secrets.
"You need pleasure with your pain; you need me to never back down and stand with you. You should never feel lonely." He pauses and kisses me gently. "I'm sorry for that. I didn't mean to make you feel lonely or abandoned. I just needed to clear my head so that I wouldn't hurt anyone. I don't have full control over this mate-bond yet and what he said along with him trying to rub himself on you sent me over the edge." I can feel his regret through the bond.
"I honestly didn't realize that's what they were doing or had been doing this whole time. I never felt that anyone looked at me like that until you." I feel like an even bigger idiot after realizing a big part of my mate's frustration was caused by me and my ignorance.
"They do fear you, but they also want what they can't have." Si rips off my shorts, and I'm bare under him once again.
"You did run off today. I think you should be punished." I run my hands over his toned chest
"Oh, I will take any punishment you will give me." Si's hand makes its way to my wet folds, and I moan at the ruff hand caressing me.
"I think it will be a long punishment." I wanted him to work for it, and I knew I would not regret it.
"Whatever my Alpha wants." Si rubs the tip of his cock at my entrance, and I just want him in me.
"Don't leave me again." My need was more than just physical. I didn't like being alone, and when I am alone, the darkness creeps in.
"Never again." Si trusted in me, and I felt I might be able to trust him.