Chapter 29

Aldahir allowed himself to breath after having the bullet taken out and I cleaned him up a little bit, just enough to stop him from staining the shirt he would wear after.

-I'm sorry - he said suddenly

-Everytime you say sorry I want to hit so please stop - I said angry getting off of him

-I meant about the claws on your legs - he said pointing to the ten different holes on my legs

-Oh... Yeah that umm, it doesn't even matter, I will heal in a bit - I said pulling a lose string from the jacket

-Would you kill me if I ask how much of what I told you earlier you actually heard? - He asked barely loud enough for me to hear him

-I would, because I heard everything - I said angrily

-I know you didn't, you zoned out - he said looking sideways at me

-Sometimes I hate how much you know me - I said irritated and started picking my lower lip with my nails

-Well sadly for you I do know you and I know you zoned out, which means you didn't hear everything I said

-And why you care if I heard everything? - I asked annoyed and tried to get up

-Because - he said grabbing me and forcing to sit back down next to me - I want you to understand what really happened, what I did, why I did it and... Well I was hoping you wouldn't totally hate me afterwards

-You're lucky I broke my wedding ring during the transformation into my wolf form

-Lucky? - He asked concerned and confused

-Yes, because if I had it I would have thrown it at your head right after making sure you weren't going to die! - I yelled angrily and got up

-Dhalia please - he said going after me

-Aldahir... I don't hate you, okay? I don't actually think I would ever be able to hate you, but I would appreciate it if you didn't push me into that direction

-What can I do?

-About what? - I asked annoyed turning to him

-About this whole thing, is my fault you got caught and...

-How is your fault? - I asked confused

-One of the hunters, I believe the one that started behind when the rest took you to the hospital followed me to our apartment... I heard someone and I knew I was being followed but I convinced myself I was just being paranoid and...

-They followed you? - I asked cutting him off

-Yes

-Why would they?... You were a wolf, just a wolf, unless they knew you were actually a werewolf they had no reason to...

I froze on my place with my mind starting to race and I started shaking thinking of all the possible explanations, each crazier than the one before.

-Why would they follow you, a wolf outside of the forest? - I asked on the verge of a meltdown

-Because they recognized me... Maybe we should head back to the couch and talk about it there

-Aldahir if you make me move I'm going to have a meltdown, just say whatever you have to say right now, please - I said digging my claws into the wall behind me

-Okay, do you want to slide down the wall and sit in the floor - he asked

I nodded and allowed myself to slide down the wall until I touched the floor and sat there with my legs cross scratching the floor with my claws, Aldahir sat across from me, staring at me unsure what to do with his hands nervously dancing on the floor in front of me.

-They recognize me because I didn't just disappear from the face of the earth after you bit me

Aldahir stopped talking, waiting for me to say something but I didn't want to talk at all so I just signaled to him to keep going.

-It wasn't like a planned thing, I wasn't out there looking for a werewolf to bite me and give a chance to get into their pack, but we did have a backup plan in case that would happen, which involved getting back into contact with the rest of the group as soon as we could with important information about the pack, their location or something like that

Every word that came out of Aldahir's mouth made me get angrier and angrier by the second.

-You did it? - I asked Aldahir

-Give them information?

I nodded and Aldahir took a deep breath.

-Sort of, I was in too much of a shock for the first few weeks, while you were feeling totally guilty about what happened to me and just being super nice to me because you wanted to make me feel like I belonged there, so when I realized I should have given them information I gave them the most useless I could
I looked up at him confused, waiting for an explanation.

-What kind of useless information could you have given them?

-A physical description of myself as a wolf - he said chuckling - and I said something along the lines of "I have no idea where we are, I'm new and they've kept me locked and under vigilance"

-You made the pack seem like a prison - I said chuckling

-I wasn't that far off - he added laughing

-Why didn't you give them the kind of information you should have given them?

-I couldn't, I saw the way you all lived there, in quite a lot of peace, away from the craziness of the big cities and even though I was never considered to be an important member of the pack I ended up liking my part in fighting for it and I didn't want to destroy that

-But you hated the other ones who attacked your parents and you've always hated being a werewolf, it wasn't until earlier today that you were able to transform without any pain

-My life before being bitten by you was complicates to say the least, I never felt understood or loved by my family and I ended up finding a second family with this crazy group of young hunters why believed that werewolves were real... That group of people was too crazy and funny not to enjoy being with them

-You enjoyed all the parts of being with them?

-At the beginning, I was no stranger to hunting because of my parents and I must admit I enjoyed the chase, the catching the animal in a small space and outsmarting it, it made me feel good and kind of powerful, but I was never a fan of the actual killing and taking apart the animal, it always made me feel guilty

-So you're telling me you prefered your life as a werewolf and decided not to screw it up?

-On one hand but on the other I obviously fell in love with you and I wanted to keep you and the life you loved safe... That's the whole truth Dhalia, I know you've been hearing my heartbeat so you know I wasn't lying at all

-No, you weren't lying... And I do believe every word that you said I just... I'm still angry because you kept it from me, that made me feel bad because I kept thinking what did I do to stop you from trusting me

-Hey - he said grabbing my face - you did nothing wrong, okay? If you're only going to believe one thing, please believe that

-Then why didn't you tell me? - I said shedding a tear

-I was trying to protect you and I was terrified of hurting you

-Okay... I can understand that, I've... Actually done the same for you

-You kept a secret from me? - He asked chuckling - that's something I never thought possible

-I know - I said chuckling too - but I didn't want you to feel worse about the huntress you killed

-Well I told you everything, now is your turn

-You mauled her Aldahir, her body was completely destroyed, some of these body parts were sabered from her body and... One of her eyes was just missing

Aldahir's face turned into a shocked expression and then he ran to the bathroom and I heard him throw up. I got up too and went over to him to give some moral support, once he walked out if the bathroom we went to the only bedroom in the cabin and he just sat on the edge if the bed.

-It's been a long day, maybe we should try and get some sleep, we will figure out what to tomorrow, okay? - I said to Aldahir

-I love you - he said grabbing my hand

-I love you too - I said rubbing his hair

-I'm sorry - he said crying and hugged me

I hugged him and layed him on the bed, then I laid next to him and hugged him from behind trying to comfort him.