Chapter 30

The next day we woke up, having slept no more than a few hours and even though I had told Aldahir we would figure out what to do once we had woken up my brain was already racing and thinking of a hundred possible ways in which we could handle everything, and of course every single one of them involved, somehow, going back to Loup Ville, which I wasn't really looking forward to.

When Aldahir woke up we talked about what we could do and we ended up choosing to head back to the police station not only to report what had happened but to get rid of the missing person case that was open for me. We decided to head straight into the station instead of stopping at our apartment to shower or eat, because we assumed it was no longer a safe space for us.

Once in the police station we talked about everything that had happened, leaving out every detail that had to do with us being werewolves, the officers were surprised, confused and kind of scared over how extreme things had gotten with a group of hunters.
We did our best to explain they had a weird thing with wolves and how much their fur was - apparently - worth. With that information, the location we gave them and the physical description of all the hunters we saw many police officers headed out to arrest them, we tried to accompany them but they stopped us and pretty much forced us to get a hotel room so we could shower and try to relax a bit.
We ended up going to a hotel the police had some weird ties to, we got a room, ordered something to eat because we were starving and then decided to shower.

-I hate having to wash off blood that's already dry - I complained to myself trying to get rid of a big spot of blood on my shoulder

-Hey, is everything okay? - Asked Aldahir knocking on the bathroom door

-Yes! I'm just struggling to wash off all this blood

-If you open the door I can help you with that

-If you want something else please say it, I don't have the energy to guess your insinuations

-I'm not looking for an excuse to have sex Dhalia, I'm just trying to find a way to prove you I'm still me and you can still trust me

-And you think seeing me naked and help me washing off dry blood is the way of doing it? - I asked trying to hide a chuckle

-It won't be the main thing I'll do but I was hoping it could help a little

I couldn't hide my chuckle anymore and then I heard Aldahir laughing.

-All right, I'll take as a yes so if you allow me I'm coming in - he said laughing

A few seconds later he was standing right outside the shower taking off his clothes, that made me smile because I had always loved Aldahir's body and sometimes I even struggled to come to terms with the fact that we were together.
I always saw myself different, I knew I was different to everyone else around me and I thought no one would be romantically interested in me because of it, when I was diagnosed with Autism a lot of things about myself made sense and I accepted that people wouldn't like me.

When I started growing closer to Aldahir I was always afraid of him realizing he could be with anyone else he wanted, someone "normal" and just leave me behind, I was afraid he would get tired of me, feel like I was too much for him, think he wouldn't be able to handle my at my worst or even just get upset with me over things out of my control.
Because of all those fears I was as upset as I was when I realized he had kept the truth about the whole hunter group thing from me, not only had I always struggled to understand how lying and keeping a secret from someone could be considered an "okay thing to do" it was also kind of triggering because it brought back all those fears and insecurities I had about Aldahir and me.

It made jump into a defensive - or rather offensive - position because I was actually mad at myself for allowing me to think I deserved all the things I had with Aldahir, I truly was angry at him but I was far more afraid of loosing him and loosing what we had together.

-Were did you just go? - Asked Aldahir putting his hand in my back, which made me jump

-Oh sorry... My mind was just, wandering - I answered looking back at him

He smiled honestly, something I realized he had never done and something weird twisted inside my head and my stomach.

-Aldahir, can I ask you something and can you promise to answer me honestly? - I asked turning around to look at him

-I promise - he said rubbing soap on my shoulder

-That smile just now, was it the first genuinely honest smile you've given me? - I asked fearing the answer

-Yes and no, I've smiled honestly at you when it came to our feelings, every single one of those smiles were as honest as you can imagine...

-So when was it not honest? - I asked cutting him off

-When you asked about me, my life before we met and similar stuff, then my smiles were... Maybe not fake but definitely not honest, I enjoyed being with you and talking to you and having you being interested in my life, but since I was lying to you about most of it I felt bad - he explained getting rid of the soap he had rubbed in

-It makes sense - I said softly

-I'm sorry, if I could do back in time I would only to fix this huge mistake I made with you

-You mean not telling me the truth from the beginning?

-Exactly that, though I can't help but question what could have happened if I told you back then? Before we started dating

-If I'm being completely honest with myself I don't think I would have dated you

-Why not? You knew about me actually being a hunter because of my parents and you were okay with that

-I guess it's different, I knew you hunted for the meat and some other reasons, just like we did in Loup Ville so I understood that much, but finding out you were exclusively hunting werewolves would have been a little too much

-It makes sense, so would you want to kill me if I say I'm glad I decided not to tell you?

-I love you too much to kill you - I said chuckling - if I truly wanted to I would have done it already

-I love you too

I smiled at him and we kissed, we finished showering quickly and went to the bed, the intention of not having sex had disappear but we were stopped by a phone call before we could even begin, Aldahir swore pretty upset and picked up his phone.
The call was from officer Reyes telling us they had captured some of the hunters we told them about but couldn't get to all of them and to our horror he mentioned something one of the hunters said about an out of the radar little town call Loup Ville.

-We have to go back - I said starting to panic - we have to warn them, they have no idea there's a group of hunters who know about us, if they decide to attack in some way they would be screwed

-We need money, let's go back to our apartment, get all the money we have, some clothes and get on the first bus out of here, okay? - Said Aldahir trying to calm me down

I nodded and we got dressed immediately, we then headed to our apartment, grabbed the things we needed and rushed to the bus station. As soon as we sat on the bus I put my earplugs in and I held Aldahir's hand praying to get to Loup Ville as quick as possible.