Chapter 33

After consoling Felicity, Mercy took her up to her room and she fell asleep almost immediately. Raymond remained in his room, he didn't come out for breakfast when Gloria called him rather he ordered that his breakfast should be brought to his room where he ate silently. His words that hurt Felicity still rang in his mind, hurting him just as well, he wonders what she was doing at the moment but he couldn't bring himself to go check on her, he is not falling for her, it's going to a take a really strong woman to get him to bend and she had not yet been born, he thought as he silently scooped his food to his mouth, he doubts if he would love to see her for the rest of the day.
Katherine watched Mercy as she climbed down the stairs one step at a time, she heaved a sigh and waited silently for her to get closer.
Mercy looked at her when she was at the foot of the stairs, she silently walked up to her, they stood facing each other, not saying a word. After some seconds, Mercy sighed and began, "I'm sorry for what I said earlier, I didn't mean it. I was just..."
"It's okay" Katherine interrupted "I shouldn't have said what I said either. I knew very much that you care for her like your very own daughter which made what I said totally unacceptable. I get it, I was angry but that doesn't mean I should say those things to you. You only wants what's best for her, and you are right" she shook her head when Mercy wanted to say something and raised her hand to stop her, "I am the reason she has not recovered. But it's only because I am afraid to let her go, I don't want her to get hurt. The outside world is not a good place for her but you are right. That it's not in my power to decide, she has every right to decide for herself, she is not a baby anymore" she heaved a deep breath "so I have decided, once the contract is up, I will send her to a new country and hire a tutor for her, she will start school."
"Katherine..."
"No" she sighed "the tutor will help her, guide her and teach her the necessary things."
Mercy smiled warmly to her, her little Katherine has grown up, she closed up their distance and hugged her "I just hope I'm not too late to decide that, I just hope she will get better after getting the exposure she needs. I don't want to fail her parents, I don't want to fail her. I want her to be a desired woman, I want her..." She broke down in Mercy's warm hug.
"It's okay. You are not too late. Felicity is a smart girl and should she get a force to push her to do something, she will do her possible best to be perfect in it. I know her, we both do. She will be the woman we both want her to be, you will see. All it will take it's time, and time is what we will give her" she released from her hug and wiped away her tears with her fingers "Felicity will be a woman. I promise you" she smiled.
"Thank you Mercy, for being here. I can't ask for any other person."
"And I always will be."
The two women smiled and hugged each other again. They then had their breakfast and Katherine left right after Felicity woke up from her nap.
***
Days turned into weeks, weeks turned into months. Before they knew it, Felicity has only but one more month to live with Raymond. She is just as she used to be except that, her innocent naive heart was no longer hers and what about the man she so love? He doesn't give a damn about her.
Raymond lived through to his words to avoid Felicity and to his greatest surprise, it wasn't that hard to do. Or so he strongly believed. He knew all he had to do was get her out of his mind and hook up with a lot of girls like he used to and things will go back to normal. Each night he spends with a different girl in his penthouse, he hardly visits his mansion anymore and that means that Felicity will go two to three weeks and sometimes a month without seeing him.
She had complained the first time in her own way but Raymond had said a sentence to her that she will never forget in her whole life "why don't you become a woman, maybe then I will consider staying with you like before. But now, I won't like to be arrested for child abuse."
She had went to Mercy that day and repeated the sentence to her, although Mercy said it means nothing, she didn't believe her and so, she had called her only friend, the one who she was sure will tell her the truth, Grace.
When Grace heard from her, she had wanted to play angry at her and not wanting to honor her invitation but after remembering that she will get to see Raymond again after how many months, and not forgetting how he had responded to her seduction that other time, she couldn't do anything but to let go of her anger.
Felicity told her about Raymond words to her and Grace promised to turn her into a woman, making Felicity really happy.
Since then till now, she was still turning Felicity into a woman and had even used it as an excuse to live in with her. Unfortunately for her, whenever Raymond returns home, he locks himself in his room and he leaves the next day before any one wakes up and so, Grace never found the time to execute her plan.
Hana and Desmond was alerted two months ago that Raymond's father got into an accident and so left to go stay with them and support Raymond's mom, leaving Raymond temporarily in charge of the Baldwin Empire.
Which Raymond found as an opportunity to prove his worth and to buy the hearts of the shareholders, so that by the time Desmond returns, they will urge him to sign off complete ownership to him. And according to his plan, it was working. Although he spends much of his time with different women, he never plays with his business, after all, what matters more to him was owning more empires.
He knew he had been ignoring his wife for the past months but he was afraid of getting too close to her. He won't say that he did not see the efforts she was putting on for him but the truth is that, he had hate himself ever since the day he made that sentence to her but he couldn't get himself to apologize. Perhaps it's for the best that it's like that, at least Katherine won't accuse him of breaching the contract again and he on the order hand will keep his feelings at bay. That's if there is a feeling, he corrected himself.
In as much as every night he was with a woman, he can't help but wish that she was his cute childish wife. He had never let himself lose control around her again and so had never kissed nor touched her but that doesn't mean he doesn't dream about that flawless body of her hers. Her sweet lips and pinkish succulent nipples.
He found himself really glad that he only has to put up with it for one more month and it will finally be over. She will finally be out of his life and by God's grace, out of his mind. After all, it is said that out of mind is out of sight. But why is that after all these months of being out of sight, she is still god damn in his mind? Perhaps he is going crazy or too weak to keep her out but it's definitely, definitely, definitely, not because he has fallen in love with her.
Nonsense!
How can he be in love with her?
You can only be in love with someone you spend so much time with, someone you kisses and have sweet sex with all night, not someone you sees once in two weeks or a month.
But if so, why hasn't he fallen in love with one of his bimbos? Or possible all of them?
After all, he spends time with time and haves sweet sex every night with them.
Why does he found himself thinking about the one he left at home?
How she was doing, if she had eaten.
Does she think about him every night?
Does she miss him?
Does she miss his kisses as he misses her lips?
Does she want to touch his sausage again like he wants to feel her soft palm on him?
Does her nipples burn for his kisses like his mouth and tongue really wants to have a taste of hers again?
As if wanting to torture him more, his mind picked up that one and only night in her bathroom, on their wedding night.
How she responded to his kisses even though it was all a new feelings to her. How she pushed herself to him, how she arched her back.
How she shudders at the feeling of his lips on her skin.
The soft moan that escaped from her mouth.
"Ugh" Raymond grunted, he hates whenever he thinks so deeply about her. Especially that night, he hates to think of that night and the one she touched his dick but his mind always tortures him with them every single day.
He stared down at his lower body and cursed when he saw something bulging out in his pant. He rolled his eyes and stood up to go take care of himself in the bathroom when his office door was opened. Out of reflex, he looked to know who it was and thanked his stars when he saw the person.
Guess he doesn't need to use his hand after all, he smiled "Natalia, what a pleasant surprise."
"Raymond, I decided to take it upon me to visit you after you abandoned me on a cold bed in the hotel" the lady dressed in a tight fitting leather gown with a pink hair and extremely sexy long legs made herself comfortable on the armchair opposite him. She dropped her bag on his desk and crossed her legs, giving him a good view of her legs.
Raymond's eyes trailed on them and he smiled while setting his ass back on his seat "I am most humbly sorry about that night but I had to rush somewhere and didn't want to disturb the beauty sleep of our top rising model."
"Ha ha, enough with your charming praises Raymond, you and I both know you ran to climb into another woman's bed that night."
"If you mean my wife then you are mostly correct" he flashed a smile, knowing she can't refute him on that.
"Well I pity her. I wonder how she will feel when she finds out you just got of my bed before visiting hers."
"That is why she mustn't find out" he grinned "Natalia, let me make it up to you. Whatever you want."
"Did you just say whatever?"
"You heard me. Loud and clear."
Natalia smiled, she stood up then and walked around his desk to him, she traced his chest with her long finger nails "how about giving me an endorsement in the Baldwin? Hmm?"
"Hmm. That's interesting, I guess it means you are aware we need a spokesperson for our new brand?"
"Of course, why else will I request for that? You know as I'm just an A list model, a spokesperson in the Baldwin will skyrocket my fame and I might become and international model too. So what do you say? With my long legs and beautiful face, you are going to get more patronizes you know" and it's said that every model knows their selling point and Natalia is one of them.
Raymond couldn't stop himself from looking down at those legs, he looked up to her then and the corners of his mouth quirked up in a smile "what is in it for me then?"
"Haha ha Raymond, you are indeed a man of interest. You are the one that wanted to make it up to me and now I should be paying interest?"
Raymond raised an eyebrow but didn't say anything. The corner of lips lift up in a taunting smile.
"But it's okay, I don't mind giving you another trip to heaven. What do you say?"
"I like it already" his hands grabbed her ass and she left herself fall into his arms, their lips meeting in the process. He squeezed her buttocks and she moaned into his mouth. His hand trailed up to her right boob and he squeezed it as well. Just as his hand reached to pick her up, she broke the kiss.
"So, do we have deal?"
"Of course."
"Can I have the contract?"
"Don't you trust me?"
"No I don't. Apparently, men like you cannot be trusted Raymond" she turned and walked back to her seat. She sat with one leg on the desk and the other on the armrest of the chair, giving him a full view of what's under her legs.
Raymond cursed when he knew she was teasing him, his eyes lingered on the part in between her legs for a while before looking at her, he picked up his intercom and called Morris "send the Baldwin spokesperson contract to Natalia Irvine manager right away" he dropped the call and raised an eyebrow at her.?
Natalie smiled and stood up "now we can play with our hands until my manger calls me."
"Ah" Raymond chuckled, she is a bad girl, he thought.
She sat on his lap with each leg the other side, making sure her pussy was rubbing on his dick, she smiled and started kissing him. Raymond squeezed her ass and gently guided her waist to work on him. His lips left hers and he started kissing her neck, she tangled her fingers in his hair and threw her head back to give him more access, she ached her back, pushing her boobs closer to his mouth.
A phone's ringtone disrupted their intimate moment and Natalie stood up from his laps and reached for her bag, she fetched out her phone and answered the call "yes Chandelle?"
"Natalia, what did you do? I just received an email from Raymond Baldwin's assistant, asking us to go through the contract and to go to the Baldwin headquarters to sign the contract when we are done. What the hell happened?"
"Nothing, just go through it and wait for me to come home."
"Okay. Damn, this is good, no, it's more than good, It's great. Hurry up and get here."
"Sure" she hung up and smirked at Raymond "now daddy, let's have a real fun" she placed her phone on the desk and started undoing her zip.
Raymond licked his lips and just as always, he saw Felicity approaching him and undressing herself, that turned him on even more. She unbuckled his belt and unzipped his pants, fetching out his dick and then covering it with her mouth immediately, "oh damn Felicity" he moaned.
"What the heck?" Natalia stopped what she was doing and stared at him with a tinge of frown on her face.
Raymond snapped open his eyes and he realized he must have mentioned her name again "don't worry, I'm just doing a little role play."
"With another woman's name?"
"It doesn't matter."
"It does. I can't have a man I'm pleasing mentioning another woman's name."
"So what are you planning to do now?" He asked with a raised eyebrow.
Natalia knew then that if she didn't continue, he can easily cancel their deal, after all, she hasn't even signed the contract and won't get any compensation fee from him, "nothing of course" she replied and continued what she was doing.
But unfortunately, Raymond has lost his arousal, she had called him out of his fantasy of being with Felicity. Although he hates himself for mentioning her name, but he would have loved to carry on making love with her in his mind and Natalia to satisfy him physically. He placed his hand on her head and stopped her, he wasn't in the mood again "why don't you leave for now. I will come find you later."
"What happened?"
"Nothing. Just get dressed, I will come find you for my interest when I'm ready. Just be ready for me" he grinned.
"Okay" Natalia said, as long as he wasn't going to take the contract from her, she doesn't mind leaving. She dressed herself while Raymond zipped his pant and buckled up his belt "I will see you when you are ready then" she left.
Raymond face palmed and sighed, just what the hell is wrong with him. This has been going on for the past two months now, any time he was with a woman, he will suddenly start seeing Felicity and will always call her name subconsciously. Then he will lose his arousal once the woman call him out of his fantasy. Just what is she doing to him?
Does this mean he can't have a woman in his life again because he is certainly sure he can't have Felicity. He will never have her.
What does that mean? He can't have her and he can't have other women as well?
This is bullshit!
He can't go monk for the rest of his life just because he can't have a single woman. He has to do something about this and fast.
The sound of his door opening brought him out from his thoughts, he almost cursed when he saw Katherine. Just another pain in the ass "what now McCarthy and what have I told you about entering my office without knocking?"
Katherine looked at his disheveled clothing and sighed, she knew what he has been doing, especially when she saw that model leaving his office. She has gotten used to his lecherous ways with women and had decided to ignore him but every time she sees how quiet and lonely Felicity looks because of him, she couldn't help but feel bad. She knew Felicity might not know what she was feeling but she, her aunt knows that she has fallen in love with Raymond and it hurts her that she was the reason the first man she loves doesn't even care about her "I'm sorry sir, but I saw your guest leave and deliberately delayed to give you some time to neaten yourself."
"What the hell is that supposed to mean?" Raymond asked with a frown.
"Nothing sir" she quickly answered before dropping the document she was holding on his desk "I only wanted to bring this to you sir, to crosscheck."
"Fine. I will go through it later. You can leave now."
"Yes sir" she turned to leave but stopped to look at him, she wanted to say something but doesn't know how to bring it up.
"Anything else McCarthy?"
"No, nothing sir" she opened the door and left.
Raymond knew she wanted to say something but somehow, he was glad she didn't. He can't handle another conscience speaker right now.