Voice of Sir Alaric

**Aileen POV**
**Trigger Warning**

A shiver ran from my legs up to the back of my neck. Pain shot up from my lower half when I tried to sit up. My hands flung about searching for something warm. They found nothing. Shiuku must have left already.

Images of this morning and last night flashed in my head. I had sex with him... twice. The soreness coming from between my legs was proof enough of that. I rubbed little circles below my belly trying to relax my muscles. There was even some tenderness on my upper half.

I looked down at my bare body and immediately noticed angry looking hickeys all over my chest. The circles were surrounded by thin pink lines? What could those b- Strawberries! Heat rose to my cheeks and ears recalling his meal this morning. So it wasn't just a dream. Hopefully there was an outfit that showed no cleavage for me.

*Wait! Do I have clothes here? It's not like I packed a bag before he tortured my brother and brought me here*.

Where was my husband? I had questions and didn't want to stay naked in his bed all day. I knew I'd go insane. He had to come back soon though. Shiuku wouldn't just leave me after I opened myself up to him. I let myself be intimate with him. He would be back to at least explain what comes next.

A knock on the door brought a strange warm flood through my heart. "Come in!" I called with a little too much excitement. I knew he wouldn't just leave me first thing in the morning. And he did promise me some food. My stomach felt empty.*

My heart plummeted. Ice ran through my veins. Devon entered the room carrying a tray of bacon, toast, and eggs. He walked in awkwardly looking away from me. He placed the food on a nearby table before lifting the covers to me. Shit! I had been so distracted I forgot I wasn't covering myself. I may want to hate Devon for being a coward, but at least he had the common decency to not stare at my naked body.

I chewed on the bottom of my lip. I didn't want to show Devon just how upset I was about my husband's absence. Surely he was just working and I would meet him after breakfast. No reason to give Devon a reason to poke fun at my sudden clingy behavior. It didn't even make sense. I should be glad that he's gone. Shiuku is an evil demon lord that I'm supposed to help kill! This should be a relief.

"*Whore." "No one will ever want you." "You're good for sex, that's all." I was a whore. I had allowed an enemy to sleep with me. I had begged him. I called him Master! NO, why are you all back now! You were so quiet last night.*

An itch formed in my arms that I wanted to scratch. A sudden need to draw blood from my skin become almost overwhelming. Shiuku had left me the morning after. He got what he wanted and left me behind.

I shook my head. No, he would have work to do. *Evil work, probably killing more innocents.*

"Aileen?" I looked up to see Devon's concerned face close to mine. At some point he had grabbed my arm. My fingers were clawing into his flesh instead of my own. His eyes held no pain at my assault, only pity. Pity for me? I did not need or want that.

I glared back at him. "Knock that off now. Just give me some of that food. I'm starving."

Without further comment he handed me the tray placing it on bed. The blankets shifted slightly revealing my cleavage. This time I didn't care if Devon saw the purple blotches on my skin. It wasn't like he hasn't seen every part of me in dream land. Why should I care if he saw the evidence of his lord's possession. Hell, there were probably more marks going down my neck. He did act like a red eyed fanged creature blood sucker with my neck. A Vamper? I think that's what they're called. This dimension really had some weird creatures and stories.

Returning my attention to the food, I took a bit of toast. My stomach was churning so badly I doubted the wonderful smelling bacon would settle. Although, it would be satisfying to throw up on Devon's stupid attempt at empathy. That coward would be too scared to lay a hand against me.

"Is there anything I can get for you let me know. I'll be by your side for next several days." Devon said into our silence.

What? Why? I said nothing and waited for him to fill the space. Shiuku wouldn't just leave me after last night. He cared about me, though he never said he loved me...Did he? God, was I really that stupid! No wonder he didn't say anything to me. That wasn't my use.

"Shiuku will be gone for a few days." Devon lowered his voice, "he has given me orders not to leave you."

Left? He left for days and didn't tell me himself? We had sex and he left. No conversation, he just left once the deed was done. Just like those dirty men said. He used me for his pleasure and left. He left. I wanted to cry, but Devon was here. I wouldn't show him my weakness.

Still, I couldn't control my body from shaking. Tears threatened to fall as bile rose in my throat.

How would I stop them. Those disgusting men were right. What was I supposed to do? I couldn't cry, Devon wouldn't let me scratch myself, and I couldn't scream out at nothing.

"I need paper and a pen." I told Devon. "And some clothes. There's no reason for you to see more than you already have pervert."

He may have seen me naked before in my dreams, but I wouldn't let him leer at me while I write to Father.

"I can't." Devon replied.

Wait what? Why the hell was I not able to write. So this was how he was going to be with any request I made. Did Devon hate me that much. Was this like a little victory to him. If so, I would have to show him I can be just as intimidating as my husband. He was not going to gain any power over me.
Just like Father, I let my eyes darken and coldness sweep over my features. "Give me a pen and paper now Devon."

To my credit Devon did grimace slightly. So he really wouldn't fight me. Maybe now he would know that I wasn't one to mess with. I was more than ready to knock his lights out. Pity me, then try to control me; I would make sure he learned a lesson from this.

"Hit me if you want. If that will help you." he said enraging me further. Devon leaned forward without flinching.

What?

"I told you how to help me. I need clothes and some way to write!" I knew I sounded childish, but I needed something before the voices came back. Violence would not be a solid coping mechanism and clearly my intimidation was lacking. How was Father so good at this. All he did was look at someone and they would pissing themselves.

"I'm under orders not to let you write. Just in case-" He stopped himself. What was he hiding from me. I'm Shiuku's wife...that he doesn't want doing her own hobby. I'm a member of the DSS, my "supportive husband" didn't trust me. He wanted my body and that was it. I wasn't even worth a goodbye.

I'm his whore not his equal. Devon was ordered to keep an eye on me, not look after me. Of course I am.
*This is all I have ever been good for. My brother got hurt badly, my Father belittled, Kalum knocked out, and what do I do? I slept with him like a God damn slut. "Slut princess." I was a slutty princess who betrayed my own family. "Kill yourself."*

My hands were twitching. What the hell was I supposed to do. Sir Alaric was right about me. Was he right that I would be better off dead...

*"Promise me, you will never make me have to bury my own child."*

That's right, I won't hurt my Father. My family was reason enough reason to live on. As long as I was breathing, they were safe. As long as I was breathing, I would not break my promise. I was stronger than that. Shiuku would not beat me that easy. I was not going to let my dear husband break me that easily; no matter what sparks his touch brought me.

Timidly, I reached a hand towards the lilacs Shiuku had placed for me last night. Shiuku at least thought of well enough to have these flowers here for me. So maybe he did love me a little bit.

*"Come on now whore, you look good naked. You like this don't you?" "No one will ever really love you."*

*GO AWAY! I can do this. He was just a fake knight. His words mean nothing. I'm a princess! I don't need paper or something to break. I don't... I don't! He cared, he knew little things about me to make me feel safe.*

Or he was just tricking me into spreading my legs like a bitch in heat. Another trick that I was falling for. Stupid!

My hands fisted the delicate flowers. They were like a life-jacket just barely keeping me afloat from a sea of despair promising to swallow me whole. Mother please help me. I don't know what to do anymore!

Too many thoughts clouded my mind. I couldn't make sense out of any of it anymore.

"I just messaged Sekai to bring you some clothing. What size are you?" Devon's voice startled me. My body jolted up like a scared kitten. My conflicted gaze met his concern filled one. I hated those big eyes filling with compassion. He was just Shiuku's little lap dog. He should be more worried about himself. At least I didn't have to worry about being killed off; yet.

"Shirt medium pants 6." I mumbled nibbling into my crunchy toast. "So you won't leave to go get them? You going to watch me use the facilities as well?"

"No, I will not go to bathroom with you unless I think you are in danger. I will wait outside the door like a gentleman. Besides that, I'm to stay with you." Despite his words, Devon's eyes were humorless as he took a deep breath. He was conflicted over something internally as well.

His body was shaking ever so slightly. Devon was scared? About what?

"Because of orders right." Why else would someone want to be near me. It wasn't like he had a chance to get under these blankets with me. His boss would have his head, quite literally.

"Fuck it all!" I laughed throwing the tray at Devon's chest. He let the contents slide down his clothes and fall the ground. An unreadable expression had seemingly shrunken his face in.

He ignored my toddler like tantrum and instead said the words that got hot blood pumping in my veins again. Tension created tight lines on his face. He spoke in a hollow voice as if afraid of his next words. My ears rang with the next sentence that fell from his chapped lips.

Reaching a trembling hand into his pocket, he pulled out a cell phone. "I can't have you writing per my orders, but how about we make a call to your brother?"