I Am Human

**Aileen POV**
**Trigger Warning!!! Dark and Mature Chapter Ahead!**
For the past seven hours I have not left the bed. Three covers and I still couldn't stop the chills. Shortly after Devon had left, I started feeling sick. My emotions were all over the place and fake Sir Alaric was back with a vengeance. A strong headache had not left me since I found out Sir Kalum had died; by my demon lord's order. I could say this was the first time I had ever been so stressed that I got sick. First the headache, then the throwing up, now I had freaking chills. Why were these heavy blankets doing nothing!?
*You deserve all this. You love to spread your legs.* That voice I remembered being a blubbery fat man with more gut than dick. If I had the energy, I would have gone to write a letter. *A whore like you...Just kill yourself*
I did feel like a whore. Here I was in the bed of someone who had marked me. The feared demon lord had agreed to respect and stay loyal to me. Though he said he didn't love me; at least he was giving me all I could have wanted as a kid. I never expected love, so how could I fall for Devon? Maybe I was just confused and upset. Yes, I was confused about Shiuku having Kalum killed. Obviously that would make me upset too! Add that with that stupid comment Sam made well duh! Great, I figured it out so can the shaking go away now?
*Oh cutie, you're so tight and wet. Forget being a princess, join a whore house.* Leave me Alone!
"Cozy on my bed are you? Did you miss me so much?" Shiuku opened the door with an amused expression.
Rage tried to spark in me, only to be chilled out by whatever illness I contracted.
"Sick?" he questioned walking over to me. He put his hand to my forehead. No mushy feeling, or security I more often than not felt around him. The disgusting men didn't stop talking in the back of my mind either. "Well, demons don't get sick so easily. Give me a kiss little one I've returned."
NO! Something screamed at me.
"Where were you? You've been leaving a lot lately." I asked. He never let me know about his outings.
"Been lonely? I'm sorry dear, but I've been busy handling some matters." Shiuku grinned. He must have been successful for whatever he was off doing. He started rubbing his goatee staring down at my shivering body.
With no heads up, Shiuku flung himself on the bed. He reached for me trying to pull me close. I placed both hands on his chest in defiance pushing back on him. He couldn't just keep in the dark about what he was doing. Not only that, but I needed to know about Kalum. Since Shiuku was in fact watching me as a kid, he would know how much Kalum meant to me. Losing him was losing a piece of myself. For goodness sake, I was about to torture Jacob to death; had Devon not stopped me.
"Why did you order Jacob to kill Kalum. Was torturing my brother not enough? You had to pick on another member of my family. I thought you were going to offer them protection for me being here." Might as well move on to my next question. He wasn't going to tell me where he was.
He groaned, clearly annoyed. "They aren't blood related. Your Father is safe. And I've told you why. You need to kill someone so my subordinates know you can handle yourself. Jacob was the perfect tool."
"You know I think of them as family! I agreed-"
"Enough."
"Do you ever think you could love me at all?" I needed to know. Some arranged marriages the couple really did fall in love. Shiuku could learn to care for me and my family. "Maybe with time-"
"Your dimension is all about a woman marrying the man beneficial to their family. You never expected love. That was a major reason I considered you and watched you closer. That right there gave you one of three qualities I needed in a woman." Shiuku started to take his shirt off. How could he say that? At one point he had a true love.
"What if I found my true love?" I wanted to hurt him like he was hurting me.
Shiuku chuckled darkly. "Humans don't have true loves or soul mates little one. Your kind is simply supposed to make do with whatever situation you find yourselves in. No point in searching for someone who doesn't exist. You are mine." His tongue started trailing on my neck as his fingers knotted in my messy black hair. I felt no excitement, only dread. I didn't want this.
I tried to leave the bed, but Shiuku grabbed my arms forcing me back down. This was nothing like the man I shared that passionate night with. All those comforting feelings, where were they?
Lost in my own thoughts, I didn't see him pulling out a pair of black cuffs. Not until I felt the fuzz on my wrists did I figure out what was going on. I thrashed in his hold. He would never love me, he just needed a woman to breed and I met the requirements.
"Stop squirming, I know you like this. It's both your kinks." Shiuku's lips started sucking and nibbling on the hollow of my neck.
Both our kinks? What the hell was that supposed to mean? I didn't have time to think on that. Shiuku put the chain of the cuffs between two bars of the headboard. I couldn't break free no matter how much muscle I used fighting against the bonds. He was wrong. I only liked this if I felt safe with the one I was with. Right now, I couldn't trust the demon lord at all. I just wanted free.
Slowly Shiuku brought his hands up to cup my breasts. He closed his eyes, leaning forward. I clenched my teeth when I felt his lips moving against mine. He bit down on my bottom lip. I bit down on my cheeks. I felt woozy. I could puke up the little bit I ate any second. Agitated, he left my now bruised lips. I felt him move his hands down to the button of my pants.
*Little slut; no one will ever love you. Pleasure is what you should be used for. Might I say, your little body is quite delicious.*
That was all Shiuku wanted me for too. Why wasn't he taking these voices away again?
A cold hand found its way under my shirt, squeezing one of my mounds. Two of his fingers started pinching my nipple. Unlike the other times, my pussy was dry. Friction against my lower half had me balling as Shiuku grinded his covered erection. He removed a hand from my pants to start unzipping his. I lost it.
"No! Please don't do this. It hurts! I don't want it. StOp PlEAse!" I hiccuped flinging my head from side to side. Strands of hair fell over my face and into my mouth.
Shiuku grabbed my head. "I'm not doing anything! I barely touched you!" He mumbled in a low tone, "I'll have to call Devon back from his mission early; whether he's done or not." Shiuku tugged harder on my sore tip.
His words left no impact. I couldn't make sense of them. I was lost in the past. "Please Kalum! Momma! Someone, please save me! I'm sorry, I shouldn't have trusted that bad man. I learned my lesson! Please make this stop! It's painful!" I was screaming and drooling in a disgusting mess. Everything felt so fresh, their hands, their words, the splitting feeling in my lower stomach. It was so intolerable. No more, Father, I'm sorry, I can't do this anymore! "Let me go, or kill me just don't touch me!"
The soft fuzz came off my wrists. The weight on top of me was gone. I rolled over to the side of the bed and threw up. A small throw blanket was put over my trembling shoulders. Again, he tried to kiss me. With a screech of pure anguish, I slapped Shiuku's cheek.
When I opened my eyes back up, his irises were red again. I could hear his teeth grinding together. He really wanted to kill me now. I dared to raise a hand against him.
Roughly, he shoved me off of the bed. I fell next to the fresh vomit on the ground. I was about to say something when I heard a scream from right outside the door. My head was still spinning and my chills were back. I made myself sit up listening to a desperate cry from outside. Sick or not, someone needed my help. I stood up lightheaded and dizzy; I needed to get moving.
"Tch... humans are so emotional. So annoying and clingy." Shiuku grumbled retrieving his shirt. "Don't worry, I'm not going to force you. Just sleep, you're sick and I don't feel like dealing with this anymore, acting like a weak worthless human."
"I AM A HUMAN! And I'm not WEAK!" I shouted running for the door. I elbowed Shiuku on the way out. Someone was in need over there. I coughed as I kicked the heavy door open. I'm not this weak. I'm not! I protect the innocent with my strength!
In the middle of the hall, no more than eight feet away was a girl with cuts running up her arms. Her shirt was torn to pieces barely covering an inch. The look on her face, she was a human worker here. No way for her to defend herself against the big thug attacking her. He was a piece of work. Thick, webbed fingers held onto a crimson knife. The demon had an extra set of ribs that protruded from under his chest. His eyes were black and beedy like a shrimp.
I stumbled slightly on my feet. Damn being sick... but this girl needs me.
The demon went to grab the girl again. I charged forward, seizing his armed hand. I had to keep that knife at bay. The demon tried to shake me off. A giant fist started pounding on my head. I refused to let go of his weapon. Fat ugly humanoid fish! When he swung back for a fifth hit, I headbutted him. That took him surprise and he eased his grip just enough.
With no hesitation, I stole his knife and plunged it into his chest. Warm blood splattered on my face. Unlike before I knew my first stab had perfect aim. The demon fell back with a dumbfounded expression.
Shiuku entered the hallway. His aura was intimidating and almost caused me to shrink back. Still no comfort.
The girl whimpered trying to make words come out. "I...I ante wanted to beg you...m...my lord. I don don't want to be a re reward."
"Nembin had earned you. And you dare interrupt me for something so foolish!" Shiuku was going to kill her!
I spoke up first, "you are a reward no more! This is wrong! Demons don't have the right to do this to anyone! No one should have that kind of power over another!" I tried to sound strong, but whatever virus I caught was really doing a number on me now. "You wanted me to kill someone. There you go, I finally did as you pleased. You win!"
"She was a gift for a job well done." Shiuku was being stubborn.
"And I will kill each demon that you give a reward to. I don't care about pissing you off. You'll never love me anyway."
My legs felt heavy. I was barely standing. Everything was becoming dim. The girl ran away.*I'm glad.*
Shiuku brought his mouth to my ear. "Women can be so obsessed with the idea of love. I offered you my respect and loyalty; that should be enough. Child you would be over the moon to have that!"
Shiuku's grin terrified me. He continued, "I suppose you did something I wanted, there is a dead body by your hand, so I will let you in on a little secret." He blew hot air on my neck. "Three women I have tried to have carry my child. The first was my true love. She constantly wanted affection and started to make me yearn for it too. And you know what? I killed her Aileen. I murdered her for being clingy. Do you understand me? I killed my true love."
The sickness infecting me, the mental breakdown, and my bashed in head became insufferable. My sight was dimming. Everything became black. As my consciousness started failing, the last thing I felt was cold stone against my cheek.