Chapter 13

This is crazy, I tell myself. What am I even trying to do? Okay, I know I said I will try to get the guy out of my mind so I could focus on other things but it seems I’m already failing before even starting. And the crazy part now is that I’m on the way to look for him.

I struggled to sleep throughout the night because all I had were the thoughts of him. It was starting to get out of my control because I tried as much as possible to not think about him. Maybe, just maybe I had not had the chance to get into a spar with him then I probably would have not had him in my mind in any way.

Now that I was seeking him out at this time when everywhere was still dark was crazy. Literally, I have no idea where he would be, talk more of knowing if he would even be on duty, but I was trying to use the pull to get me to him. Should I be reliant on it? Who knows?

The number of guards I have evaded since the minute I walked out of the room I was in has been a lot. I could easily tell that none of them were able to detect my presence as I passed by and yet Leonard wanted me to think they were the most skillful. Perfecting my ability to hide my scent around others could be the major reason I was being successful in this aspect.

Jumps after jumps and hiding in the shadows have been contributing factors in my bid to find him. In what again? My PJ, exactly. I didn’t even mind that I was trying to seek out a dude. I chose not to look for a change of wear.

Is this the place? I mentally ask myself when I get to a spot that looks like where I saw him two days ago upon my arrival in this pack. It literally looks a lot like the same place but I cannot affirm yet because it has been such a messy situation when I was here that day. Talk about the embarrassment from the dude.

There was no sight of him here. I would have gone away but the strong feeling of the pull was the only reason I have not walked away yet. It was as if it was telling me to be calm, citing that he was around here. But if he indeed was, then why has he not shown up? Goodness me, I sound like I planned to meet up with him here. D
More like a fucking desperado.

“Who is that?” the almost loud current of his voice suddenly gets into my hearing but I flinch because it was unexpected after not seeing him there for a while.

The direction of where the tone came from was the back so I turn around to see his feature through the dark of the night. “It’s me,” I manage to say after I do that, hoping he will instantly recognize my voice.

“Alpha Soma?” he says after some time in something close to a stunned tone.

“Yes,”

At the moment, I’m trying to control the rate of my heartbeat because I’m a little nervous now. Scratch that, I’m so nervous. Makes me feel like a little school girl who is trying to gain the attention of a famous senior.

“What are you doing out here at this time of the morning?” he queries.

“I know,” I say, starting to feel glad that he even chose to actually have a conversation with me now. Not that he even knows that I’m here for him. “But I have a lot on my mind so I thought I should come outside so I could get it off me. More like I should take a walk,”

“Oh,” he says, nodding alongside the uttering of the single word. If it should be called a word, though. “But you will have to go back because it is too early out here. So many things could go wrong if you walk around like this,”

“Can I stay here then until I’m ready to go back?”

I wish I could clearly see his face because I for one know that he would be skeptical about my request. Who wouldn’t be? When I was asking for a hindrance of his duty.

“I don’t know if it would be appropriate for you to stay here while I am on duty at this time,” he says eventually, which I already expected from him. But I have an alibi.

“Don’t worry, I won’t be here for long.”

“Okay.”

And from there, I take a seat on the three-step stairway, which prompts me to get a view into the down part of the area. And for real, the breeze out here was magnificent that I was starting to feel myself wanting to sit out here until the crack of dawn.

“So, what’s your name?” I ask in a bid to set up a conversation with him. While waiting for a response, I was pulling back loose strands of my hair away from my face.

“Luis,” he says, and for the first time, I won’t go about calling him a dude or stranger.

“Wow,” I whisper which I’m sure would still be heard by him. And from there I shift my position to enable me to see him directly because I have a lot to ask him. “So, Luis, you need to tell me how you managed to hold your ground against me in a fight. You are the first to ever succeed in doing so,”

“I don’t know, Alpha Soma. I only did what I have always been trained to do.”

“Which is?”

“Fight like your life depends on it,”

Now that’s some crazy philosophy attached to combat. That’s obviously the same thing that the others follow. Could probably be the big reason they proved to be more skill worthy than the warriors of my pack. When I get back, I’m telling the head warrior to change their routine as well as their philosophy.

“Now, Luis, I’ve got something important to tell you and I hope you’ll listen to me,” I announce already. Why? Because I need to get straight to the point of being here. I cannot be hiding my feelings about the whole situation anymore.

“I will.”

“Good,” I say. “Now, first I need to ask you something. Have you been feeling something weird in you? You know, like this kind of weird pull that makes you want to know why you are feeling that way?”

It takes a while but he responds, “I don’t think so. Why do you ask, Alpha Soma?”

“I don’t know why I’m asking. Although, to be honest, I have a reason I’m asking.” My statement, to me, sounds like the most confusing thing I have ever heard myself say. It was more like I was being put on edge to say something but it was difficult so I chose to switch to something else.

“I don’t think I get you,” Luis says, bringing my attention back to the fact that I am still holding a conversation with him.

“You know what, let me go straight to the point. I need to tell you the reason I am really here. If I don’t say it now, then I don’t think I will be able to say it ever,” And from there I pause to get my thoughts together before I announce what I have in mind. With a deep breath, I say, “Luis, I think you might be my mate...”

That was too straightforward. And the reaction I get from him proves that it was indeed too direct.

“What!” he almost exclaims, and I'm glad he doesn’t because it would only make me feel more embarrassed than I already am.

“I think you need to keep your tone down a bit,” I tell him awkwardly.

“I’m sorry. I’m just kind of stunned from hearing that so I didn't know how well to react to it. I’m truly sorry,”

“No, it's fine. I probably would have reacted that way if I was in your shoes. But if you listened clearly to what I said, I made emphasis on ‘might’. This is because I am uncertain of what the pull is truly is. I don’t know if it is supposed to be the mate feeling or something else because even my wolf cannot tell what it is. And that is why I asked you initially if you have been feeling anything weird,”

The atmosphere becomes quiet after that. I have nothing to say at the moment and I do not know if he does have anything to say. He could be processing what I told him so I would just have to wait while he gets that done with.

But after about two minutes of waiting and not getting anything from him, I decide to say something. “Is something wrong?” I ask, snapping him out of his thoughts.

“Sorry, I had something in my mind," he tells me and I see him shake his head. “Alpha Soma, I think I might understand where this is coming from but I don’t think we can discuss such an issue here. Is there any place you have in mind?”

“You mean somewhere outside these walls that we could meet?”

“Yes,” he nods. “There's kind of a lot that you might need to understand,”

I think it was a little weird hearing him say that. But I will try not to react to it... yet. “The best bet now is where I work. It’s the Walters Holdings... my father’s company. Will you be willing to come there? I can assign a date for you to be there. Let's say the next three days?”

“That’s fine. I'll be there.”

I stand up immediately, already citing the day changing. Definitely wouldn't want to be caught here. But it allowed me to see his face clearer.

“Before I go, what you want to tell me, is it something that would not sit well with me?” I say, trying to get a little something out of him.

But he only says, “You’ll know soon.”