21. Fuck Land

***Emara Stone***

*Fook!*
My heart wildly bangs in my chest as I stare at the picture taken from my book and uploaded on Ryan's Instagram. I can feel something sharp crawling inside my throat. A scream! RYAN UPLOADED THOSE PICTURES!
My breaths come in gasps and I feel like I will blackout. I still can't believe he made my private thoughts public for everyone to read and laugh at it. Though the reality is right in front of me, I still can't believe the prince of Tomorrow Land would be so cruel.
I continue to stare at the paragraph that I had written for him from the bottom of my virginity..

*'Whenever I see Ryan, my mind says he is smart, intelligent, a Greek god, who probably has hoes under his sleeves. But my heart argues he is beautiful, we should keep him in a museum as his hands are prettier than my face.*
*And my vagina screams- Take it! Just take my virginity. Take me right now on the road. For fuck sake, just take it.'*

My eyes are not moving away from the picture as if they are glued to the screen permanently. The number of likes and comments on the post keeps on increasing the longer I look at it. My curiosity side scrolls down to read the comments.

→WTF am I reading 😱

→ Bye. I need to bleach my eyes for what I just saw.

→ LOL. Is this a sex letter?
^Wat is tht?
^New away of asking for sex

→ Such a thirsty hoe! 😡
^IKR, Hoes r everywhere.😠

→ I'll take ur V card gurl ;)
^😁😂😁😁

*I need to leave.*
I need to leave the college, change the country, adopt a new name, and probably get plastic surgery so no one would recognize me as that 'lusty girl'.
"EMARA!" Ana shakes me as she calls my name again and again. I look up at her blurry image as my eyes overflow with tears, "He uploaded them. ANA!!!" I screech the ugliest cry in the world.
*Heartless Pig of Fuck Land!*
"Stop crying. He nowhere mentioned it was written by you or to whom the writings belong." Ana squeezes my hand as she puts light on my clouded mind.
"Huh? He didn't?" I clear the wetness from my vision. "No. But he has sent you a warning." Ana says gravely using her psychological brain.
"Warning?" *If this is warning, then what is his revenge?*
Ana nods, her expressions turn dire as she says, "Yes. He gave you a message in the form of warning." I sit up, my mind grievously listens to her, "What message Ana?" My tears stop but not my panicking.
"He is telling you that he is pissed. You stepped on his ego and now he is going to make you payback for the damage you did to his self-esteem."
"Payback how?" My head feels like a theme park of fears spinning out of control, each one pushing my mind into blackness. "With his evil ways." Ana's voice turns grim as she analysis the case deeply.
Slowly the face of Prince of Tomorrow land disappears from my mind and instead of it, a terrifying devil's smirking face appears.
*Ohh! He was Satan the whole time.*
Ryan was pretending to be a knight. All this time he disguised as my prince charming, a nobleman though, in reality, he was an evil wretched creature from the hell who was after my cute and innocent soul. *I am so fucking doomed!*
I bite my fingers nervously as I wonder what he is going to do with me? Boil me into his big bowl, sizzle with pepper and salt, then garnish me on a plate with basil leaves. He is so evil, I can't believe he would do something so cruel to me.
I instantly message him paragraphs of sorry and beg him to delete the picture but he pays no attention to my feeble efforts. Completely avoiding me like a used condom.
*Why am I so unlucky?*
My eyes again find his profile on Instagram. "AAHHHHHH!" I scream in horror. That's when the attack becomes absolute, shutting down my body functions in a strike. My hands quiver as I see another picture from my book uploaded on his profile a few minutes ago.
"He uploaded another picture, Ana!" I sink on the bed as my private fantasy gets viral.

*'I feel a little disappointed as I really want Ryan to touch me and kiss me just like he did in the dream. I still remember how his tongue rolled over my skin and how his eyes were virtually fucking me.'*

→ OMGG!!😂😂😂
^Is this word porn?
^Bro, who is she?
^Or he? ;)

→ Crazy fans be like💁
^Bitches*
^Hoes**

→ Someone throw a bible on her face 💧
^SOMEONE SHOWER HOLYWATER ON HER!!!

"That's it. I am changing the college." I sob in my pool of self-created tears. He is not going to let me live peacefully. I need to disappear. I'll leave this country and go far away where there are no people with R letter.
"No! You don't need to do any such thing. I know what he is doing now." Ana says critically as she taps her long index finger on her chin while thinking deep.
"What?" I mewl.
"He is playing." Ana squints her eyes as she thinks deeply like Sherlock, "He knows very well how this humiliation is affecting you. That's why he uploaded another picture to just watch you suffer and enjoy the attention."
*I knew it! He is the Prince of Demonic Land.*
I don't know what else he is going to upload next. What if he uploads the page that has the part where Ryan moans my name and declares his love for me in the bed? The thoughts are accelerating like a rollercoaster. I want them to slow so I could breathe but they won't.
"That's it. I am leaving the country."
"You are going nowhere." Ana clamps my arm and makes me sit back on the bed. "He will upload it with my name. I know him very well."
I cry the invisible tears. Ryan is heartless like a lizard who jumps on people just to check their reactions. Now I know him, his wicked ways, and his evil plans.
"Everyone will laugh at me, Ana. They will continue to mock me as a horny girl, and make fun of me for the next three years. Hell, today itself they commented on my looks. I can’t face them.” I whine with a shrill pitch cry. *The world is so cruel.*
"No one will laugh at you. Chill, I have an idea that people will not be able to recognize you anymore." Ana smirks.