Chapter Nineteen

Maggie's Pov
Okay, so the good news was that Alpha Julian wasn't dead, he had collapsed and while I blamed myself for what had befallen him, Greyson tried to convince me otherwise while Ryder rocked and soothed me.
"I really hope he's okay, I'm so scared. I feel like I caused this' 'I said, grabbing my fingers from Ryder's and wrinkling them tightly in my grip. I was definitely panicking and I didn't know what to do about it. Seeing Alpha Julian, laying down still after the dream I had about us, made my pain and anger increase. Maybe, just maybe if he was awake, he could have done something about it.
My train of thought was interrupted when Greyson suddenly took my hand—a gesture he did to stop me from fidgeting. Once our fingers were laced, I looked up at him, with the sole aim of planting my neck on the crook of his neck, crying out my fears and pain. The look on his face was more of pity than concern. I knew my eyes were full of so much fear but I didn't know why. Something in my guts told me it was either because I was shit scared for Alpha Julian or I?already cared about him that much. It should be the former, there was no way I cared for him. He was merely someone I know.
Who was I kidding?
"Look none of this is your fault, you weren't even there when he fell and blacked out so you shouldn't blame yourself okay," Greyson told me and I?reluctantly nodded. He smiled and patted my head then unexpectedly, he tugged me closer and hugged me "Julian will be fine. We called the doctor already and he's on his way here, he's probably on his way to the room already" he said into my hair, his voice coming out in a muffling sound—to assure me the more. I heaved a song of temporal relief against me as we still hugged 'thanks Greyson, I'll have faith and stop blaming myself" I?said and gave Greyson a forced smile which I took as an improvement. I was so grateful for Greyson. He was indeed a very respectable and responsible second in command.? Considering the report he gave to me, I knew he was having an inner war with himself but at least he was a strong one. He didn't break down, bawling and sobbing like a wreck—like most women would do. He truthfully, like a baba Shade. She still held her ground and patiently waited with me for the doctor.
"Don't worry Maggie, Julian will be fine okay. He's gone through worse and he survived, he's a strong one okay" Ryder who had been silently standing beside Greyson and I and had been? lost in his thoughts said as he placed a hand on my shoulder and gave send a smile my way when I bright my chin up to look at him?
"Thank you Ryder," I said and bent my head back in silence, having zero energy to keep my head up at that moment. A lot of other bad, very bad thoughts came into my mind and I once again began fidgeting with my fingers but this time, none of the guys bothered to stop me. I didn't try to stop myself. We were all worried and grieving, almost, so they all let me be, to tend to their hearts—it was like we were on a battlefield and the fittest should survive. If fidgeting was what would help me calm down, they let me carry on with it, whether or not.
I'd never been a person with a dirty mind however, at this moment, I had to start questioning my sanity. Aloha Julian was lying helplessly on the bed and the only thing in my mind was the dream I had about him. Surprisingly, I felt his presence stronger than I had ever done and that shit confused me until the dampness in between my less dried off. "Um, can I see Julian? I want to see how he's doing" I?asked both Greyson and Ryder. And Greyson nodded.
"Yeah you can, he'll be happy to hear that you checked up on him when he wakes up," Greyson said with a smile. I was truly happy with how the guys had been treating me. I never knew they were this cool and easy going and I've been mean and closed off with them. I flashed an appreciative gaze to them before sliding into the room where Alpha Julian was laid on the bed motionless and unconscious. His breath was shallow and almost non-existent so I began to fear what could happen to him. He looked calm and innocent from up close and almost fragile. I knelt beside his bed and took his hand in mine,?dragging in a long breath in and exhaling almost immediately.?
"I hope he wakes up" I whispered to myself, staring at his pretty face.?
?I felt Greyson's gaze heavily on me from the door while Clara watched me from where she sat on the other side of the bed. "Of course, he will, Julian is exceptional," Clara said and I just nodded
?"I really hope so," I?said again, standing up to face the others "Thanks for letting me see him," I said and I smiled
?"It's nothing Maggie, you're free to do whatever you want here," Greyson told me, as I began to move to the empty side of the bed to the side so I could still watch Julian where he lay. I suddenly felt the urge to remain in this room and watch him all day long. I wanted to gather him up in my arms, kiss him and caress him softly until he woke. I couldn't fight the urge. I went over and brushed his hair softly, his hair was so glossy, shiny, and of course, soft. A knock sounded against the four that made me turn to the door. Ryder went outside to see whoever was there and returned shortly afterward with a petite, Scottish-looking man with a big belly and butterfly mustache behind him. He looked clean, professional, and well, I guess professionalism is the word to cut his look.
"He's here, the doctor's here," Ryder said from outside the room. I felt really relieved as he proceeded to open the door for him and let him in. The doctor and Greyson exchanged greetings and shortly after their pleasantries,?Greyson explained all that happened at the gym to the doctor.?
Greyson shared his worry to the doctor about how he thought that maybe it was probably his punch that hurt him and made him black out but he also told him that it wasn't the first time he had punched him hard like that and nothing ever happened to him. The doctor nodded in approval of Julian's strength and I wondered how strong he was.?
The doctor, whose name I learned to be Doctor Noah just nodded as he took down notes and tucked his notepad into his pocket before he faced Greyson "Thanks for the information Greyson, I'll take a diagnosis on Alpha Julian now so I'll know what exactly it is that's wrong" the doctor said to Greyson in particular but the rest of us couldn't help but fall into their conversation. "Please, lead the way," the doctor said to Greyson who nodded, making his way to go over to Julian's bed.
"I'd like the rest of you to wait," Doctor Noah said but the skeptical look on Greyson's face made him think twice.?
"If it is not so much of a bad thing, I think we should all stay and watch as we all hold various important positions in the pack," Greyson said as the doctor eyed us suspiciously. "You know Ryder, the Gamma." The doctor nodded. "That right there is Clara the Zeta '' Greyson said pointing at Clara who nodded curtly to the doctor—the doctor who in turn reciprocated her nod with a small smile. 'And right there is Maggie, our Alpha's mate."? I didn't miss how the doctor's eyes widened a fraction and how his expression turned soft. He moved towards me and extended his hand.?
"Nice to meet you, future Luna?" He said and gave me a curt nod.?
"Nice to meet you too, Doctor," I said briskly.
"That's the pack's doctor— more like Julian's personal and favorite doctor. He is the only doctor that has ever treated our Alpha, the reason why he is so protective of him" Ryder said with an honest smile.
"Ever since we got our pack, it's been only me that had treated you three," The doctor said with a proud smile. Them three? Then what about Clara? Was she just a new member seeing that Greyson had to introduce her too? The doctor turned my way and once more, smiled gracefully and proceeded to do the purpose of which he was summoned. He took his stethoscope out and placed it on his chest as we all held out breaths in the room hoping to hear something good from the doctor after he was done checking his condition. He carried out other tests and when he was done, he packed up his instruments into his bag and faced us. His facial expression didn't look like Doctor Noah carried good news with him which made me a bit scared. The joy he had in him earlier was gone and was replaced with…
"What's wrong with him, Doctor Noah?" Greyson asked and the doctor shook his head?
"I have two news, the good and the bad but I'll start with the bad" Doctor Noah replied and went on to explain to us?
"Your punch didn't cause him to faint, in fact, nothing medical did. I diagnosed him and I saw that it wasn't your punch that caused this'' doctor Noah said to Greyson. The beta, Greyson, blew out a long breath of relief. Earlier he was talking about how he blamed himself for punching Julian very hard. Guilt ate him raw as he thought about the possible outcome but now, now he was being liberated. It wasn't his punch—it wasn't his fault.
"So Doc, what's the bad news?" Ryder asked and the doctor looked sullen. More than earlier, his countenance dropped and he looked conflicted.?
"The bad news is, I can't wake him and I don't even know the cause of his unconsciousness. It's strange, he's not breathing but his heart still beats, this isn't something medical, I've done my best and this is all I can do" the doctor said and stood up from the chair he sat on while grabbing his bag "This is very strange as nothing of sort had ever happened to my boy. I'll take some more components to the lab and see what I can dig up. I'll be on my way now" he added and with a bow of his head, he left us all speechless as we wondered what the mysterious cause for Julian's fainting was.
Clara began pacing the length of Alpha Julian's bedroom, her fingers in her hair, furiously tugging on her scalp. Ryder was just speechless and so was Greyson.?
"How… where… The doctor said Alpha's predicament is not medically traceable to anything, so why the hell is he not waking up?" Clara screamed at my face that I flinched, my arms coming to my front protectively.?
"She isn't a doctor Clara nor a fortune teller or a prophet or seer or something. We were all at the gym when Julian collapsed. She wasn't! She should be asking us what the hell is going on not you fucking screaming at her face like some goddamn child." Ryder fired back at Clara and Clara looked at him unbelievably.?
"You didn't just raise your voice at me," Clara said questionably. She looked between the two of us blinking rapidly as though trying to form words. "You raised your voice at me because of… because of her?"
"If you want to be talked to with respect, then you should start doing the same to others" Ryder spat bitterly.?
"Guys please…"
"You shut the fuck up! Nobody asked for your permission slave girl." Clara spat.
"Oh, what the fuck?!"