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CHAPTER FORTY FIVE
GABRIELLE
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I woke up to the feeling of warmth beside me, I remembered Lucian had carried me back here last night.
Oh god!
Panic flared as all of the memories rushed through me.
I had lied about being pregnant! Of all the lies in the world, it had to be just that. I had managed to get away with it last night, but for how long?
The pills I had taken would keep me safe for another one month, so I couldn't even hope to miraculously get pregnant. After last night, I discovered that Lucian might not be that bad of a father as I thought he would be. Even though he didn't love me, he appeared to adore the baby he thought I was carrying.
If he wasn't as immune to emotions as I thought he was, did it mean that there was still the slightest hope for us?
Now that I fully accepted that I was going to be with him, maybe we could try to make us work?
The problem was that Lucian still clearly didn't believe he had done anything wrong with me. Each time he hurt me, he had always spoken about how I deserved it.
Maybe if I tried my best to understand him, I would find out his reason for most of the things he did?
I still firmly believe that a person couldn't change another unlike what Loretta had suggested, but maybe I could make the first move?
After all, it was I who was always the victim of his aggression.
He shifted in his sleep and my gaze drifted to his gaze which just fluttered open. As usual, I was taken aback by the intensity of it. Why did each of his glances make me feel as if he was consuming me alive. Piece by piece, until there would be nothing left.
Our gaze remained locked, I could also study the rest of his features, It didn't seem as though he had just woken up, had he been lying conscious all this while?
"Good morning" I tried at a smile. The keyword there was TRIED. It didn't manage to form fully when it wobbled off, especially at the way he was staring at me. He was staring at me with the same exact expression a person wore whenever they expect a joke to be played on them.
I didn't believe myself either, was I really going to try to be that girl who saves the monster?
What if I ended up being devoured by him?
He rolled off the sheets and straightened from the bed. I found myself staring at his nude body as he walked around with no care in the world.
He paused to throw his attention back at me.
"Get prepared, we are leaving."
I blinked in confusion, where were we going? And so early in the morning? As if reading the questions in my eyes, he threw the answers at me and it wasn't something that I was expecting.

"I made an appointment for you last night, We are going to see the doctor."
I think I died right then. I remained frozen after the bombshell was dropped on me...
He slowly walked back to where I was to sit beside me.
I think I flinched slightly when he shove aside the cover to caress my belly. When his eyes found mine again, I could feel the excitement shining in them and it set my heart thumping with dread and a trace of guilt.
"Did you hear what I just said? I need to ensure for myself that you're fine, along with the baby."
I swallowed with great difficulty as my mouth suddenly turned to the Sahara desert.
"But I'm feeling quite fine, why do we need to visit the hospital? We don't need to." I tried as much not to let my overly-reluctance show. I always knew he was going to find out my lie, I just didn't think that it would turn out to be this soon.

"Don't argue. We are going, it's for your own good, as well as the baby's, I will also be at peace in knowing that everything is fine." There was a finality in his tone that told me it would be futile in trying to convince him.
He kissed my forehead softly and scooped me off the bed, leading us towards the bathroom.
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We had sex in the bathroom, I could still feel him on every inch of my skin and the spot between my legs. I hadn't wanted it to end, I had hoped it would be enough to distract and stall him, but here I was with him.
His hands were permanently glued on my shoulders.
One step...
Two steps...
Three Steps, into the hospital. The smell of antiseptic greeted my nostrils. I've always hated the smell of hospitals, but today, I despised it even more.
My legs threatened to fail me with every single step closer.
My hand was clasped against Lucian's, as he led us inside of the huge modern building. I felt as though he was leading me towards the valley of the shadow of death.
Perhaps, I should have confessed to him rather than bringing him here to be disappointed, but I was too cowardly to do so.
He seemed to be familiar with most of the people around, I wouldn't be surprised if this place was a family hospital or something like that.
We entered an office of some sort and he led me to a chair where I sat rigidly.
The woman who was dressed in a white lab coat seemed to be in her early thirties. She flashed us a warm smile as she approached to extend her hand for me to take.
"I'm Julia, Mr. Castiel told me about you, nice of you to be here." She shook my hands, I didn't tell her that there was nothing nice about it, that she would probably be the last stranger I would encounter before I would meet a tragic end.

"How have you been feeling lately? signs of anything abnormal? weakness? Nausea?" She scribbled on her jotter pad. I was conscious of Lucian's gaze boring holes into me the whole time, I was too nervous to answer, so I merely nodded.

"Okay! So I'm going to take your blood samples and run some tests, we can find out if you are okay, and of course your baby. It will only take a few minutes. "She looked to Lucian who nodded in approval before proceeding to take my blood samples, she left when she was done.
Those were the longest minutes of my life. I stared at Lucian from time to time who appeared to have busied himself with his phone.
"You seem like you want to tell me something." Lucian spoke without glancing up from his phone.
How could he tell that I was staring? I wet my lips nervously. It was either I told him or the doctor would. I didn't see another way out of this, but I somehow thought it would be better if I told him myself. Maybe he would be more forgiving if I confessed it to him.
"L...Lucian.." I stammered, too late as a knock sounded and the doctor returned. She walked inside with documents in her hands.
She stared from me to Lucian while my heart was thumping violently against my chest.
Fear and panic traveled in my veins, producing cold sweats on my forehead and palms.
"Julia, how is she?" Lucian spoke, cutting the silence.
A slight frown formed on the doctor's face as she began.
"Actually, um, I don't know how to say this but..."
BANG!
A loud sound echoed the air, shortly followed by screams and sounds of heavy footsteps.
Lucian suddenly lunged for me, yanking me behind him.
"Get down!" He yelled I couldn't tell if it was for me or the doctor present, but my body instantly obeyed, already used to him giving orders.
He produced from his waistband a gun I had no idea he was holding.
BANG!
BANG!
BANG
The sound of gunshots continued, It only got louder and louder, until it seemed to be just in front of our door.
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