Chapter 31 Abandoned

MARINA
"I love you more Marina," as soon as he said those words to my ear, he gripped my waist and crushed his lips onto mine. I moaned as his hands roamed around on my body. His touch sent warmth and shivers that I miss. His kiss was sweet but passionate.
I will forget everything for him. Sometimes I asked myself if he was like that to me, I wanted to ask him if he could give up his dreams for me but I couldn't. I was afraid of his answer and I was even more afraid if he had no answer. No, I do not want to hear the answer I do not want to hear so I choose to keep quiet and let my heart love him and he will love me too.
"Please be mine tonight," he said between his kisses. I moaned and he took it as an answer to his question. He planted some kisses on my neck before lifting me like a bride.
"I want you in my room," he lustfully said and his eyes were hungry looking at me.
As we entered her room he immediately closed the door with his foot and laid me down on his bed.
"Let me undress you," he said in a raspy voice as he looked at me, I just nodded and a small smile escaped from his lips.
"I love you so much, Adam."
"I love you too, more than my life."
And that night was a beautiful night for me, we shared love and words that I can't keep and longed for him to hear.
***
ADAM
"I love you so much, Adam," over and over again it ran through my mind as I stared at her in her sleep.
I was very lucky because no matter what I did to her, she still accepted me for the rest of her life.
When I see her with someone else I want to punch the person who holds her hand and waist, she's mine and the only mine no one touches is my woman. And even though my business associates are my friends I want to keep their eyes off of her.
My phone rang and I immediately took it on not waking her up. I frowned as I looked at the caller's ID, it was from my manager. Even after finishing my contract with them, I was still hot in the eyes of the media because of the movie I executed.
I answered the call even though I didn't want to.
"Hello," I answered.
"Adam, you're now in the news, who's the lady that you drag with at the Resto?" he asked, worried in his voice.
"Sorry for not telling you this from the start Phillip, but Marina was my woman, she will be my wife," I straightly answered wanting to tell him the truth.
There was a long silence before he replied. I know that he's rubbing his temples now for giving him such a statement but I don't want to lie anymore after what happened between me and Marina.
"How couldn't you tell me all this time?" he asked.
"I just wanted it to be in private Phil," I said and I heard him sigh on the other line.
"So are you ready to tell to the people that you have a woman in your life?" he asked
"Not yet, this is not the right time. Please, can you divert this news for me?" I asked and I heard him groaned, I know my request is difficult but I'm not ready to tell people this. Yes, I love Marina but I'm not yet ready.
"Okay okay but I want you to enlighten me Adam and I promise you that it will stay just the two of us," he said and we bid our goodbyes.
I sighed and ran my hands into my messy hair. I look at Marina who's sleeping like a baby, I touch her cheeks and I smile as she frowns. Maybe she's dreaming.
My smile faded as the word dream struck my mind.
"I don't know Marina but this is not the right time, I'm sorry," I whispered in the air as I tuck a loose strand of her hair on her ear.
***
2 months later
Adam has continued his career as an actor and is even more famous than ever before. Although it was difficult for Marina to accept all of Adam's decisions, she still accepted it because it was her beloved's dream. She could do nothing but support him.
MARINA
That's what ran through my mind as I walked into the bathroom, I looked at the calendar once more and I'm not mistaken, I should have. I immediately cooled down in my mind. I immediately went out of the bathroom and took a jacket to the room, Adam was not present because they were shooting today but he was coming home later. I need to buy a pregnancy test if I have it in mind, or maybe I'm just delayed but I'm always on time, on the date.
I came out of the back of our house because no one could see me because the people here did not know that Adam was with me in the same house, everyone who was there knew that I was just an insider, a maid. I know it hurts for me to think so but for the sake of Adam's showbiz image, I didn't complain. At first, Adam's parents were angry but I just told them that it was okay for me, that Adam wasn't ready to tell everyone that I was in his world. I slowly went out of the house and just walked to the nearby pharmacy in the subdivision.
I was about to leave the subdivision when I was called by one of the security guards guarding the subdivision.
"Oh, Marina where are you going?" Egon asked me, he is one of the kind people here.
"Just at the pharmacy," I replied with a smile.
"It's so hot I hope you brought your own umbrella," he said with concern.
"The pharmacy is just around here and I can walk there," I replied and continued walking.
"Go ahead and be careful," he added as I smiled.
I remember my dad, as well as I, remember him. I miss my mom really. They will still remain in my heart.
As soon as I entered the pharmacy I immediately went to the cashier and thankfully I was the only customer. The cashier smiled at me and greeted me.
"Hi, how may I help you?" she asked with a genuine smile.
"Do you have a pregnancy test?" I asked fidgeting.
He looked at me first before he answered. Immediately I bowed, tracing in her eyes that she already knew what was in my mind.
"Yes we have, come on, don't be shy," she said calmly as I approached. I don't know but I felt comfortable with her.
"Buy me two," I replied with a sigh.
"Don't be afraid. All of this has a reason. Just hold on and don't despair. You can do it," she said with a smile on her lips and I smiled.
"What is your name?" she asked while taking a pregnancy test.
"Marina," I replied and I reached out my payment.
"I'm Lourdes," she said and reached out her hand which I accepted.
"Lourdes"
"Whatever the outcome of this, I hope you will make the right decision," she said as she gave me the bag.
"It was nice meeting you, I can be my friend, oh here's my number. Call me if you need someone to talk to Marina," she added as she handed me her call number card.
We bid our goodbyes and I walked home with nervousness in my heart.
I immediately went to the bathroom and tried the pregnancy test. I also used it twice to see if the results were the same. I waited a few minutes for the result. I took a deep breath before looking at the pregnancy test.
"Positive positive," I muttered under my breath as I looked at the pregnancy tests.
They were both positive, I was positively pregnant.
How can I say this to him?
What would be his answer?
Will he accept it?
I was so confused, I didn't know what to do.
There is only one solution to this and that is to ask him. Tears escape from my eyes and I immediately wipe it.
I heard a horn on the gate and it indicated that he was already here. I composed myself and inhaled deeply before going out in the bathroom. I checked my reflection before going to him and telling him that I'm pregnant. I should wear my best smile to hide the pain in my eyes even though I know already what will be his answer.
"Marina, I'm home," Adam shouted and I left our room.
I reached his hug and so did he. I want to cry in his arms but I shouldn't.
"I bought flowers for you," he said, showing me the bouquet of tulips.
"Thank you," I answered, getting the flowers from his hand.
"Did you cry?" he asked and I avoided his eyes.
"No, why would I cry?" I chuckled and was not convinced so I changed the topic.
I had to tell him that I am pregnant, and I needed to be prepared for whatever he might answer.
"I'm pregnant, Adam," I said softly as I knew he was listening.
He chuckled and looked me in the eyes.
"You're just delayed love," he said and kissed me on my cheeks.
"No, I'm pregnant and I'm positive," I sobbed at the last word I said and showed my two pregnancy tests.
He smiled at me and looked at me like I'm ridiculous.
"When?" he asked, which made me frown.
"When what?"I asked.
"When will be the abortion?" he asked that makes me gasp in horror, why would he ask like that.
"Adam?"
"Tell me when and I'll schedule it," he plainly said which makes me mad. Is it easy for him to say that? He will kill his flesh and blood.
"No, I am not killing this child I am keeping this child. This is our child, Adam!" I shouted and he shot me a wave of anger.
"I'm not even sure that I am the father you are bearing!" As soon as he said those words a loud slap landed on his cheek and it turned red.
"How dare you! You know just you, just you Adam," I whispered as tears streamed down my eyes.
"I am keeping this child if you won't-" I was cut out of my words when a hand landed on my face and soon I realized that Adam just slapped me.
He hasn't touched me for the rest of my life, just now. I stared horrified at him as if Adam were not in front of me. I can't help myself but cry even more in front of him as I hold my stomach.
"Abort that child," he coldly said like there was nothing happening and leave from the house.
And I was left there kneeling on the floor crying.