Chapter 60 The Pain

MARCO'S POV
"Ahhhhhh!" I immediately turned to the person behind me.
"Mirana"
"Who are you! Why are you here at my mom and dad's house!"
"Mirana, you've been playing with me we were playing puzzles. There you go first in the living room I'll just finish our plates then I'll bring cake and ice cream," I said and I was a little better at this routine but my heart is still not trained. I tearfully watched her calm down and it seemed like she's a robot obeying what I said. I also noticed the fact that she was wearing her pajamas.
"I know it's Your will but please take it slowly," I did not notice that my tears were dripping and I just wiped it off. I went back to what I was doing. I took a plate of cake and ice cream.
"Are you hungry baby? I brought your favorite."
"Marco," I gasped for a moment and she immediately began to smile.
"Yes, baby?"
"Sing me a song please," she said as she looked into my eyes. Oh, how I love her. I sat down next to her and she immediately lay down in my lap. I combed her hair and she looked at me again.
"Have I done anything ?" she asked as she looked at me directly.
"No baby. Do you want me to sing? Do you want to sleep?" I asked and she nodded in agreement. I immediately picked up my phone and played the song I would sing.

You Are the Reason by Calum Scott
There goes my heart beating
'Cause you are the reason
I'm losing my sleep
I could not help but look upward so that my tears would not fell.
Please come back now
And there goes my mind racing
And you are the reason
That I'm still breathing
I'm hopeless now
It seems that I was struck by the lyrics of the songs so many times that I thought I knew it would be true, but why does it seem so fast?
I'd climb every mountain
And swim every ocean
Just to be with you
And fix what I've broken
And fix what I've broken please I will do everything. I would have thought much but it seems too late. I looked at Mirana looking at a loss again but I was surprised when suddenly something liquid spilled her eyes ... tears.
Oh, 'cause I need you to see
That you are the reason
There goes my hands shaking
And you are the reason
My heart keeps bleeding
I need you now
If I could turn back the clock
If I could turn back the clock it wouldn't have happened. If only my ego didn't beat me and if only I think properly about her and she's bearing, there is so much if only if my thoughts that I am now regretting. I wish I had the shot, I wish it wasn't you.
I'd make sure the light defeated the dark
I'd make sure the light defeated the dark but it seems the person with the bad intentions wins the both of us. I couldn't even defend myself with the bullet for you. I immediately took her hands and led her to stand with her forehead on my chest.
I placed her hands on my shoulders and my arms embraced her waist.
I'd spend every hour of every day
Keeping you safe
I slowly danced to her around. I could not help but let my tears flow and Mirana saw it and immediately she wiped it away. She looked into my eyes and her eyes trace sadness.
She smiled slightly out of her eyes and had tears streaming down her face.
I'd climb every mountain
I love you Mirana please let it stay in your mind and heart don't forget it.
And swim every ocean
Just to be with you
And fix what I've broken
If I could fix everything I'm willing to give my life as a pay.
Oh, 'cause I need you to see
That you are the reason
I don't want to fight anymore
I don't want to hide anymore
I don't want to cry anymore
Come back, I need you to hold me
(You are the reason)
"Come back to me baby," I said as I wipe her tears away.
A little closer now, just a little closer now
Come a little closer, I need you to hold me tonight
I'd climb every mountain
And swim every ocean
Just to be with you
And fix what I've broken
'Cause I need you to see
That you are the reason.
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MARCO
I was immediately shocked when I heard the selection of a song in the component and when I looked at the bed Mirana is nowhere to be found. Until the song stopped and my heart ached.
Wise men say only fools rush in
But I can't help falling in love with you Shall I stay?
Would it be a sin If I can't help falling in love with you?
I close my eyes and let the tears flow. I can't help it, is this my oath for taking revenge? Zeke is too young for these situations, this is all my fault my fucking fault. This is all for me.
Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling, so it goes
Some things are meant to be
Take my hand, take my whole life too
For I can't help falling in love with you
Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling, so it goes
Some things are meant to be Take my hand, take my whole life too
For I can't help falling in love with you
For I can't help falling in love with you
Wise men say only fools rush in
But I can't help falling in love with you Shall I stay?
Would it be a sin If I can't help falling in love with you?
I remember everything, everything before this happened. She's beautiful wearing that white wedding gown the most beautiful woman that I had laid my eyes on. The woman who gave birth to my child.
Like a river flows Surely to the sea Darling so it goes
I got up from my bed and immediately went to where Mirana was. Five months later, her doctor diagnosed her with stage 6. Yet my grief was wrenched as I watched her sit in her favorite chair as she gazed into emptiness.
Her body was far from before.
She also had difficulty recognizing people. She was yelling at her sister too. We also do not understand how difficult it is for her to grasp the words that correspond to the conversation.
It was also hard for her to remember if she had eaten or reduced and most of all she made me cry when she saw our son Zeke.
She hugged him and kissed his cheek and tears welled up as she spoke. Zeke was grown up and I was surprised that she still knew our son. Zeke was so happy even with sadness in his eyes.
I know that Zeke is having a hard time to accept all of this and I am also grateful to Marina and Adam because they did not treat our son differently but considered Zeke as their son. Zeke grew up with a good attitude and a top student in their school.
He was also grateful to God because even though Mirana and he had a lack of care and love for Zeke, their son still loves and understands them.
Some things are meant to be Take my hand, take my whole life too
For I can't help falling in love with you
I was surprised to see that she was looking at me. She waved her hand saying that I should go into her direction,
Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling, so it goes Some things are meant to be
"Mirana," I called her and she immediately looked at me and smiled sweetly.
"Marco come and hug me," she ordered as I obeyed immediately.
"How's your day Marco? Are you tired of your work?" she asked as she kissed my cheeks.
"It's okay," we had this conversation several times because she thought I was coming back from work.
"Invert your dress baby."
"Huh?"
"Take a shower now baby, it's for you to eat. Our daily routine okay?" I said and she nodded her head and stood up and turned her heels.
I immediately went to the kitchen and prepared our meal. We just repeated our routine so that Mirana's body could remember exactly what she was going to do next.
And one day I accidentally raised my voice because she didn't want to wear her diaper, I know it's hard for her but she needs it because she doesn't know where to go and sometimes she even reduces the living room or the kitchen floor.
So I was suddenly surprised to see him in our room struggling hard to put on the diaper, my heart pounding and I could not hold back the tears I was witnessing.
In recent months her heart has also been attacked by illness so now I am watching over her. But no matter how much you care about the person you love, if the Lord decides you can't do anything no matter who you are or what you are, no matter how much money you have, no matter how well known you are around the world and whatever your wealth is there is nothing when the above decides.
I know this is a hopeless case of Mirana's situation and Alzheimer's disease has no cure and it is even more if there are complications associated with it, I just want to prolong her life, I want to be with her forever.
She is the only reason why I am breathing right now, why I am living right now, why I am still fighting right now that's how I love her.
I immediately looked at the refrigerator and decided to cook what she wanted.
I'll cook her favorite pancake with whipped cream on top together with a fresh orange juice the way how she likes it.
I took a plate and began to fix our dining table because in a few minutes she would go down because it was our custom.
I was suddenly startled when I heard a thud coming from upstairs and the plate I was holding fell and a loud crash echoed in the whole room.
I made my way up the stairs to our room.
I immediately turned on the doorknob and was startled by what I had witnessed.