Chapter 33 After

ADAM
I winced as the sunlight struck my eyes. It was already morning and I winced as I touched my head it was like hammering my head. I got a hangover last night and suddenly I remembered everything, even Marina.
I even remembered what I told her to abort the child. I also don't know why I told her that foolish thing, I wanted to hug her at that time but I couldn't even feel my own feet. And I found myself slapping her.
I didn't want to hurt her but that's just how I reacted. I jumped out of my bed and looked at my surroundings. I was in a room kinda like a suit. And it bangs me, I was drunk last night and I drove myself in here with a beer. I looked at my table and there were a lot of bottles scattered on the floor. I ran my hands through my hair and headed to the bathroom. I should get going to see her and beg her for how sorry I am and I will not gonna do it again.
After I took a shower I immediately dressed and called Ayesha, who is organizing a popular restaurant. I want to take Marina there and apologize to her today. I will offer her a wedding.
After I called Ayesha to rent the restaurant I headed straight to the flower shop where Marina loved the flowers there. I was well known because I always bought flowers for her. I went inside and was immediately greeted by their manager, Evelyn, she's getting old enough but still handling this shop gratefully.
.
"Adam," she welcomed and I just smiled at her.
"What flowers do you want me to make for you?" she asked motherly.
"As usual," I answered and she laughs.
After I bought the flowers I already headed to our house. I wanted to hug her and tell her how much I was sorry for what I had done. As I stepped into the house, silence welcomed me. I searched for her in the kitchen and found nothing. I was starting to feel anxious at this time because it seemed to be happening again. I ran to our room and immediately went to her cabinet. Her clothes were almost gone, I roamed my eyes in the room and my eyes caught something white envelope at the table.
I sat down on the bed and tore the envelope. I immediately saw the ring I had given her and read the letter.
Dear Adam,
This is my last letter and my final goodbye. I cannot be with you any longer, I cannot let you hurt me anymore and this child I'm bearing. By the time you're reading this, I am nowhere now in that place, I will long gone in your life so don't bother looking for me. I am going somewhere to have a life, a life for me and my child, a life without you. I am so sorry, but this is the only way it needs to be finished. Don't bother to search me please I'm begging you I don't want to see you even your shadow. This is the last time I'm giving you this ring back, I don't need it anymore, what is the use of this anyway if this is how you treat me as the way I treat you? What is this symbolized? Nothing Adam nothing. I remember all your promises that you've let go and where does it go? all your promises turn to ashes. But that's okay with me because I understand your life now in your career but we are now talking about this child, and I am not letting you hurt my child. I am giving this child life. You messed everything, I thought you are the man that will make me happy but I was wrong.
Goodbye Adam.
Marina
I looked at the ring she had left and cried. What a fool, I was such a big fool that I did that to her and our baby.
Our baby.
I was going to be a dad but I screwed up everything. I couldn't control myself anymore and I cried in tears.
This time I have no second-chance at all.
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2 years and 9 months later
MARINA
Today is the day of his birthday and I am so excited to celebrate it with him but there is a room in my heart where I feel anxiety. But I pushed those thoughts away and headed to Helios.
"Hey Helios, it's time to wake up now. Because it's your birthday!" I said and kissed him on the cheek.
As the words sunk into him, his head snapped up.
"birfday mommy? ma birfday?" he said as he scrubs his eyes and looks at me with such adorable eyes.
"Yes and you are now a 2-year-old boy," I answered as I smiled at him.
"Boy? I wanna be a manf mommy," he said in an adorable voice. I laughed at his silliness and I hugged him.
After what happened between me and Adam 3 years ago. I moved here to San Diego. Damien helped me to recover here and I was shocked when he announced that he was getting married and I was so happy for him. I had a job here, and I'm a nursery teacher. Even though my dream of becoming a chef was never fulfilled, sometimes our destiny is different. But I do not repent because my son is with me.
Adam had called me several times since that day, but I did not answer, he called again and again until he stopped calling. I cannot bear to hear his voice, to hear his reasons anymore. My son and I have a wonderful life, we live in a comfortable house and we eat well and I do not want a man in my life anymore.
I also see Helios features Adam, he has eyes and Adam's nose. That's one of the reasons why I still don't forget Adam.
But sometimes I still see him wherever I go, even on the TV and in the news. I also can't help but not read articles in the news. It says that he fell into a serious depression and became an alcoholic. His life is a mess.
Lucia and Sebastian called me and they are begging me to come to their house and bring their grandchild. Of course, I felt nervous at the same time thinking Adam will be there too, but I finally gave in and agreed. I also want to show Helios that there are people who still love him that I'm not the only one in his world.
"Hey, baby guess what? We are going to your grandma and grandpa," I said and his eyes sparkled.
"Is it truew mommy? See grandpa and grandma ?" He asked excitedly.
"Yes, baby so you better eat your breakfast and go for a shower," I answered and he clapped his hands happily.
After we prepared ourselves we headed out. (and did I tell you that they are here too in San Diego and it is a 2 and a half-hour drive here to go there.
After 2 and a half hours of driving, we were finally there.
I knocked at their door and Sebastian, father of Adam opened it.
"Marina! iha, welcome home," he welcomed and hugged me tightly and Lucia appeared.
"Oh! Finally, Marina, you're here!" she whines and hugs me too that I nearly cough for I cannot breathe.
Then Sebastian chuckled adoringly as he sights Helios.
"Oh man! is this my grandchild? He has my eyes!" he laughed and hug Helios and Helios giggled.
"This my Lolo mommy?" he asked and I nodded.
"Oh Sebastian, our grandchild. No, he has my eyes and nose," Lucia said and they both laugh and as they look again at Helios, he suddenly disappeared and headed to the kitchen.
I followed him into the kitchen and saw him standing and pointing. My heart was beating fast for no reason and I saw what he was pointing at.
Adam
Helios looked at me and smiled.
"Mommy! Ish that ma Daddy?" he asked and my mouth cannot form a word to answer his question. It's his birthday today and I don't want to ruin it but I also don't expect him to be accepted by his father, besides he doesn't like having children, does he?
"Baby No-" I was cut out of my words when Adam spoke up.
"Yes baby, I am your Daddy"