CHAPTER 22

"Mama, why are you crying? Are you hurt? Are you not feeling well? Are you sick mama?" I am back to the present when I heard my son's voice. As he wiped the tears from my cheeks. I can also see the concern on his face.
"No Shawn mama just remembered something, dont worry mama's ok. Ok?" I did not notice that I was crying already when I remembered that incident. But never, ever did I regret that I did that. If that thing needs to happen again I will still and welling to do it.
"I love you mama, please don't cry." He said, while kissing and hugging me. 
"I love you too, son always remember that. Mama loves you so much. And mama is so happy to have you as my son, you are a blessing to mama." I told him to kiss and hug him back.
But I was stiffened when I heard him speak again.
"Mama, why do I have these feelings?" He told me. I was Confused so I asked him. 
"What is it son?"
"I feel strange Mama, when I saw Mr. James. My heart was beating so fast, And the feelings that I wanted to hug him, And kiss him and I was so happy but I want to cry too Mama." I was surprised by what my son told me. 
And suddenly my heart was beating so fast too. It was as if there were horses chasing inside it. I don't know what to say, I was speechless. 'Maybe because they look alike? Is my son looking for a father figure now?' It was as if my heart was broken.
"Ahm maybe because you two look alike son, so that's how you feel about him son." I just told him. 
"Is that so, Mama?" He said. I hesitated to nod at him. 
"Do you already want to have a father, Shawn?" I asked him, but he did not say anything. He's just looking at me. And I saw sadness and longing in his eyes.
I felt pain in my chest again because of what I saw in my son's eyes. I want to find him so that my son can get to know him. But how? I really don't know how. The difficulty is when it comes to your child.
"Don't worry son, I'm going to find your dad." I said. He suddenly looked at me. And his face lit up. 
"Really Mama?" Still Can't believe he told me. 
"But how mama? You don't know him, and even his name too." I was just trying so hard against myself.
"Honestly Shawn, I don't know either." I felt embarrassed as I just told him. Can't help but scratch my head and shyly smiled at him.
I saw him as if he was thinking. I felt sad again, because I felt the determination that he really wanted to know his father, and wanted to have him. 
"I know that Mama." Suddenly his face lit up. He seems to have thought of something again. And I just looked at him.
"Why don't we go to that place mama? To check, Do you still remember the place mama, the address?" He suggested it to me. 
I was stunned by my son again. How he came up with an idea like that, I did not even think of that idea. But he, a five years old kid. He thought to himself, is that really how he wants to see and get to know his father? Then I suddenly felt sorry for my son again. If only that time could be restored, I would ask him even if I only knew his name. I will do it.
I close my eyes and try to remember that place. Nothing really, I don't even know the address and name of that building. I only remember the floor and room number. 
"I'm so sorry son, I don't know either. All I remember is the floor and room number, and the tattoo on his right chest. Nothing more, I'm sorry Shawn." I felt so sorry for my son.
"It's ok Mama, don't worry we will meet him soon. Maybe this is not the right time yet. But we will." He's smiling at me, and full of hope in his eyes. I just nodded at him. 
"But, really Mama, I have this feeling that we already met him." He took a sigh.
'Son instinct maybe I thought. Does he really think Sir James was his father? Oh God, please help me...'
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JAMES POV
And that was six years ago. But it still feels and I can still smell her scent. I immediately sat up, when I remembered a scent similar to that of that woman. Is it possible?
'I need to know,' I suddenly thought of something. I picked up my phone and made a call to the person I know who can help solve my problem. "Hello Arthur," Arthur is my friend and he's a private investigator and he owns an agency. 
"Oh Bro, what made you call? How's life? Welcome back." I heard him chuckle while talking to me. 
"I need your service bro and I want it ASAP." I told him. 
"Hmm what is it this time?" He asked.
"I want you to dig some info about SHAKEERA ALCANTARA from six years ago to the present. Please dig deeper bro and I want the result ASAP bro, don't worry about the payment I will transfer it to your account  right now." I told him.
"I knew it! Just like before, its a girl. But I thought the same girl. Well, consider it done, bro. And expect the unexpected." He chuckled again as he said that. I laughed too. I mentioned to him before about that woman six years ago. When I returned to that site, the pictures of the women were gone. Removed, and I tried again after that day. But it's already other faces I saw, new ones, and the previous photos have been deleted.
"I will expect that, bro. Thanks. Oh by the way, let's call the troops to the bar later." I told him. I also missed the troops. 
"Sure bro, they'll definitely be happy. You've been gone for a while. If your brother hadn't had an accident you wouldn't have gone home." I just laughed at what he said. It's actually right.
I already said goodbye after I talked to him for almost an hour, and turned off the call. I also turned my attention to the papers. Even it is week end and no office but here I am now find myself at work because I get bored. It's not just because of the pile of work. 
I just gasped. I feel exhausted. I feel bored. I have something I want, but I don't think it's possible to. Aside from investigating Shakeera I still have something I want to know about. Her son. I want to know more about that kid. I felt strange when I laid my eyes on him. My heart beats become abnormal. I want to cage him in my arms, his little body. I want to kiss him too. There's only one way to know, a DNA TESTING, I want a DNA TEST.