What to do?

Erik’s POV

I had no regrets. What more could I do? There I was, minding my own business, trying to clear my mind from the immoral thoughts I was having with Rae since we kissed in her bedroom, last night, when I felt something pulling me outside.

I knew it had to do with Rae, I just knew it. She was in need of help and I could not ignore it. Leaving my office, I passed by a few other werewolves and I faintly remember them talking to me, but I didn’t have time to listen. There was only one thing in my mind: Rae.

When I got out of the pack house, I could smell her scent, even if it was very weak. I just had to follow and, soon, fear was mixed with her natural aroma. She was in the small house outside, where we kept the sheets and other things. I could smell a male.

‘Help!’ was something I heard and that kicked it. I opened the door, which was locked, and saw one of the most horrible scenes I could think of: a male was on top of her, running his filthy hands over her body and trying to get into her legs.

‘She is ours!’, Xanto was growling violently inside my head and I started to see red.

Next thing I knew, I was with the ranger , who I recognized as the same one who had the audacity of wiping my female, hanging by my hands. The son of a bitch touched her and I wanted to shred him to pieces, but I know that I still had a bit of myself there because I thought that Rae wouldn’t like to see me destroy the male’s body like an animal.

When he finally stopped moving, I threw him aside and went to her, to make sure she was ok. I embraced her, relieved. Xanto was calmer, now, because Rae was safe.

Then, Cassandra arrived and asked me why the male was in that state. Why would she ask me that? Wasn’t it obvious?

After a while, I could finally think better, I guess, because things started to pop in my head. I had killed someone. And not for nothing, but because he was touching Rae, the rogue. And I said she was mine. What the fuck?

I looked at her and that was a mistake, a damn fucking mistake! She was staring at me with her beautiful lilac eyes and I could only feel like I was drowning in an amethyst ocean. Her mouth got my attention. Her plump lips were trembling and I had to calm her down, but Cassandra was right behind me.

“I have everything under control, Cassandra. Please, I have to talk to Rae.”

“But Alp-”

“Cassandra!” I was going to lose my patience and Cassandra was a good female, but if anyone stayed in my way, between Rae and me, Selene helped that creature!

She knew better and left, closing the door. Rae and I were together, only the both of us.

“I… I have to clean t-” I put my finger on her lips, preventing her from talking.

Ah, please, she was talking about work? Really? I sent Cassandra out so I could kiss those lips and I would, unless she didn’t want me to, of course. leaning carefully, giving her the chance to avoid me, I approached her face and finally, our lips touched again. If heaven really existed, I was there.

She was shy in the beginning, but soon, I could feel she was enjoying. Her arousal hit my nostrils and I deepened the kiss. I had to have more of her. I needed to have more. Her moans were not loud, not yet. I wanted her to scream my name.

‘Mark her’, Xanto ordered and I didn’t realize I was really going to do it until my fangs were running along her neck. Mark Rae? Wait a minute!

I stopped moving and I think for a while, because I heard her calling me.

“Erik?” She said my name and no ‘Alpha’, as usual. Yes, her voice… No, concentrate here, Erik! Step away!

“Rae, I’m sorry.” I said and made myself get far from her. Her eyes were confused.

Her messy hair and her swollen lips were giving her the looks of someone who had just had a really good time. And I hope she did as much as I did, but it could not keep happening. I… for the first time in many, many years, I had no clue on what to do.

She licked her lips and I know she had no idea, but she was making things even harder for me.

‘Just mark her!’, Xanto was screaming, but I had to ignore him. I was not going to mark any female. I would never mark a female. Ever. No matter who. ‘Stop being an asshole!’, I shut him down by shoving him in the back of my mind.

Rae got up from the floor and started to straighten up her clothes and put her hair in place.

“Thank you.” She said, again, but this time, she seemed more embarrassed than shy. Did I embarrass her?

Probably, by acting weird.

“You don’t have to clean anything. You can take the day off.” I said as I got to my feet.

“No!” She answered quickly and closed her eyes, taking a deep breath. I waited, because I knew she was going to say something. “Erik, Alpha. I was locked in here exactly because they don’t like me. They probably think I am good for nothing and you and Cassandra, keep me giving breaks that they don’t get! I am nothing but a rogue, a slave!”

Wait… slave? Oh, fuck, I have been letting her believe she was nothing more than a damn slave? Why would I teach a slave? Why would I care so much for a slave? Couldn’t she see that I… I what? I. Fuck. I didn’t even know.

“You’re not a slave.” I said, finally. That was enough. She looked at me and seemed like she was thinking, trying to believe my words.

“So I can leave whenever I want? Or am I a captive?”