Cannot cry

Loretta’s POV


*FLASHBACK*

“Yes!” I said, so happy! Having spent the whole day mourning that I was not going out on my birthday made my eyes swollen. But that was just fine. Daddy said we were going to town and I think I couldn’t hold my excitement anymore. At least, not inside my room, where nobody would hear me.

“Would you just keep quiet?” Ah, Kyna. Sure.

“It is MY day so you stay quiet!” I told her. The girl was a nuisance! Seriously, having an older sister should be nice and fun, but she was just an old rag, nagging anytime she had the opportunity.

“I am just trying to comb your hair.” Kyna said.

“Yeah, just do it. That is why daddy keeps you.” The moment I said it, I regretted it. Kyna was the daughter of my father’s first wife, who was, curiously, my aunt. So… Kyna was my cousin-half-sister or the sort.

The thing is, her mother cheated on daddy with a rogue and since then, daddy didn’t like her, which made her become an omega. Humiliating.

I saw through the mirror how it affected her, because her eyes became numb, but she replied nothing. I was now twelve and she was about sixteen. Daddy made her become an omega the moment her mother left and she had to go live with the other low ranks immediately.

Mommy said she should tend to me, and as much as it was comfortable in some ways to have my older sister helping me out, it was weird, because I could not call her sis. Daddy and mommy forbade me.

“I’m sorry.” I muttered. There were only the two of us and I could apologize. But never in front of my parents. Especially mommy.

“It is ok.” Kyna said and gave me a weak smile. I knew she was just trying to be strong, but I was not going to keep talking about the matter.

“Kyna… do you think I am pretty?” I asked her. We were alike, in some ways. Our facial features are not so different, but I am blond and she is redhead; I have blue eyes and hers are green.

“You are the most beautiful in this pack.” She said and I felt my heart get warmer. “By the way, happy birthday!”

I got up from my chair and threw my arms at her. She was nice to me, even though mommy was not so nice with her. I sensed she got tense with my hug, at first, but then she started to relax and I felt her arms around me.

“What is happening here?” Oh-ho. Mommy!

Kyna was not hugging me anymore and when I looked up, mommy was holding her by the hair, her eyes were almost red. She was furious.

“Who told you to touch my child, you filthy garbage?!”

“Aaaah!!” I heard my sister whimper and I approached mother. I didn’t know what to do. It was my fault.

“Mom, that was me. I hugged her!” I could feel the tears running down my face and my nose becoming stuffed. “Please!”

Next thing, my cheek was burning. Mother.. She slapped me!

“Never let low lifes touch you, or you’ll be stained! Did you hear me, Loretta?”

I looked at Kyna, who was crying in silence and she averted her gaze.

“Y-yes.” I said.

“Wash your face and get down. Your father is waiting. I cannot punish you right now, or your father will be very displeased. So, your punishment will be this: as your birthday present, I will punish Kyna twice, for her, and for your wrong doings. You’ll learn from now on that everytime you approach her like that, I’ll whip her.”

“Mom…”

“Do as I said!” Mother was not joking. I feared that if I kept on talking and asking, she would get more furious and Kyna would suffer more.

“Yes, mother.” I finally agreed with her and heard when she took Kyna from my room. Once alone, I went to the bathroom and washed my face. I couldn’t even cry. I looked at myself in the mirror and took a deep breath. I would do what I had to do.

*END OF FLASHBACK*

“Are you listening to me?” I heard my father’s voice from a distance, but I woke up when he snapped his fingers in front of me.

“Yes, sure, daddy.”

“Damn, where were you just now?” He asked and exhaled a deep breath. “Whatever. Just focus, ok? We need Erik to marry you.”

“Really?” I asked and when he gave me ‘the glare’, I regretted. “I mean, can’t I just try to make him like me, at least?”

“We don’t have all that time. And sincerely, I have a bad feeling. I just saw him interacting with that girl and I think he liked her.”

“Girl? What girl?”

“For Selene’s sake, girl! Aren’t you listening?” He blurted out and I felt the saliva I swallowed going down scratching my throat. “I told you the beauty, with lilac eyes, the hot little thing who was taking care of your room. He got all worked up when I tried to…”

He gave me a look and stopped talking. I knew what he meant. Mother had been distant from him and he kept having his affairs. I knew he did. I heard it a few times. But that's not my business. Not that I agreed on cheating, but… mother was not someone I could feel empathy for.

“I got it.”

“Great. Do something and do it quickly. Seduce that male and make him compromise!”

I took a deep breath and got up from the chair I was sitting on. I was inside my father’s room, on the balcony, where he had a little table with two chairs.

“I will. Now, I’ll go to my room, take a good bath and get ready to seduce that Alpha.”

“That’s my girl!”

I gave him a weak smile, the best I could provide at the moment and left.

Yes, Alpha Erik was damn handsome, sexy. No female would resist his charms. Well, I was not one of those. I had my eyes on someone else, as well as my heart, but unfortunately, I couldn’t help what my father decided to happen, from happening.

Once inside my room, I locked my door and took a quick shower. I prepared myself, applied perfume and made myself as desirable as I could. I had now to find my prey and make it happen.

Erik was in his office, because I could smell him. I knocked once and he asked who was it.

“It is me, Alpha Erik. Loretta.”

I heard him exhale. Of course, he was not interested in me. That was fine, no hard feelings.

“Come in.” His strong and deep voice answered and I saw him behind his desk, full of work. “How may I help you, Miss Rockwood?”

“I have never been to your pack, Alpha Erik. I know you are a very busy person, but… “ I walked to him and saw how he frowned. He knew I was up to something, “I thought you could show me around.”

I spoke with my most sweet voice. I was not good at seducing. I was feeling ridiculous.

“As you said, I am a very busy male.” He answered and I was about to try pleading again, but then, I smelled her. The same girl from before. My father’s words came to my mouth and I did what I thought my father would want me to do. I sat on his lap and when he opened his mouth to say something, I cupped his face and kissed his lips.