Chapter 21

Mia's Pov
I entered my new room at Southern moon pack, it was just white walls and a queen size bed in centre. I sighed, this will be my new home now, Empty! just like my heart and my life.
"I have bought some clothes for you, they are in closet." Christabel informed me.
I took her warm hands in my cold ones.
"You both are doing so much for me, I am so grateful and blessed to have friends like you both. I don't know what would have I done without you." I had tears in my eyes.
"Mia, don't say that. I know he ditched us and went away, but we are here for each other, you are my little sister." Jace said holding my shoulders
I nodded.
I am really grateful for them, what would have happened of me, if I had lost them too.
"I need a car" I told him
"I will take you there"
"No, you need to be here with Christabel and I will be back before this little guy comes out." I looked at her baby bump and smiled.
Thoughts of mine and Victor's conversation come back to me. We were planning to start a family and...he was so excited about having our pups...
When I left from hospital, Doctor Sonia said I had PTSD, whatever that was. According to her I needed medication and therapy to overcome the phase, to get rid of my nightmares which won't let me sleep. The stress, depression and anxiety were part of my daily life now. Somehow these nightmares and depression connected me to my Victor, I was not ready to break the only connection and memory of him.
We went down for dinner and I felt strange and unfamiliar feelings getting me. The pack house was huge compared to ours and there were werewolves from all the region dwelling in equality. This pack had a raw and wild edge to it. People in here were more inclined to their animals instincts unlike our pack which was more inclined to our human form.
While we were sitting at table having our food, Alexa came and sat beside Jace. I didn't knew he was...I mean he made through the war, he was the few lucky like us who survived or I should say unlucky like me to have live. I looked around him searching for his mate, he looked at me and shook his head. Megan was gone too.
"I am leaving for Europe tomorrow" he said to no one but more to himself.
"I can't....I can't live here without her. I will join my sister's pack there." He said in choked voice. We just nodded in response.
Next day early morning I left after taking my new Alpha's permission. He gave his condolence to me and praised Victor for his abilities. But whats the point in that now. He is gone for ever.
Drive till my destination was long and quite.
I stood in front of the same house with memories of my last visit came flooding in. I was nervous and sceptical to meet them. I sat on the steps mustering courage with fear griping me, making my hands sweaty.
I sat there for long till mom came and sat beside me. I rested my head on her shoulders.
"You told me to be strong, I was strong, when ever he left me uninformed. You told me to support him, I stood beside him in all his decisions, and when he kept his work before me. But...but you didn't tell me how to deal with this. What do I do mom, how do I survive without him how...tell me...how do I deal with this..."1
I turned towards her and hugged her, we both cried, holding eachother and support eachother for our loss.
"Time heals everything Mia, just give yourself some time."
But I don't want to heal, I don't want my wounds to dry and heal, I want to keep them open and raw, to remind me every second, what that Devil did to my mate. I don't want my anger to die until I avenge my mate.
When we got up and turned to go inside, I saw dad standing right behind me with tears in his eyes he hugged me and patted my head.
"Warrior Kentucky, I want you to train me, and make me capable of killing the one who killed my mate right in front of my eyes."
"I will train you, come lets go inside."
I entered in his room, with his smell still lingering around, I inhaled deeply taking in every bit of him in me. This place made me feel secure just like being in his arms felt. Mom offered me to stay in guest room, but I insisted on staying here, close to him.
There was a photo frame of mom dad and Victor placed on the bedside table, I took in my hands.
"Hey what are you looking at?" He asked coming out from the bathroom just in his sweatpants. I showed him the photoframe in my hand.
"Ohh this, it was taken during our visit at Tunner beach. It's amazing there, we should go once, and I want to thank you"
"Thank me for what?"
"For accepting my parents as your own and for winning their heart."
He went in the closet saying that, Victor of my memory fading away.
His clothes in closet, I went there, took his shirt and wrapped it around me. This the most I could have of him now and I will live my whole life with his memories.
I slumped my self on the bed, the very same bed which we had shared last time on his birthday, I miss you Victor, I love you. I lay there with tears wetting the cushion. I never thought my life would take such turn, maybe time will help me to accept the fact that Victor is no more with me and I have to live without him.
I heard a low whimper inside me.
"Aya?"