96. The Real Beast
And when I woke up, I came to know he was admitted in a hospital because I had savagely beaten him.”
A silent gasp escapes my lips, as his words stun me down to the bones. *How could something like this be even possible?*
“I was shocked. I had no memory of it, nor balls to even commit such violence. As I have always been a guy who hides in library, bury his head in books and the thought of doing something so ruthless was alien to me. But when I looked at Max’s condition in the hospital, how broken and terrified he was of me.. It ignited something sickeningly satisfying within me.”
A chill of horror runs down my spine, as his voice changes from being a gloomy little boy to a man with searing Viking blood. Something I am very familiar with.
“It made me felt so good, and for once, I felt powerful.” Dakota whispers darkly.
“More incidents followed with more blackouts and then I came to know it’s a personality defect, a character that comes out of me in the form of rage and violence. I call him Beast. Because whenever the shift happens, he left nothing but bloodshed, bruises and a vicious memory in the minds of whoever came across him.”
My mind paralyses as visions of his brutal self comes into my mind, the way he had beaten Ryan on the ground, and then to me, in the bedroom.
He was barbaric, almost like an animal to me.
“My psychiatrist says, the Beast is created by my mind as a defence mechanism, and split it into an alternate personality, which comes out when threatened. But honestly, I never had a problem with it.” Dakota says in an unsettling calm voice.
“Whenever I needed him, especially in fights, I would just evoke the pain of my past, recalling the faces of those who bullied me, how they tormented me, and just like that, a powerful force would take over me. Like an enraged bull, blinded with fury, who would destroy anything or anyone standing against him.”
His words carry a disturbing pride, something that is strange to digest.
“And I loved it, how I felt no pain, guilt, or remorse, nothing. Not even the memory of the violence I caused in the ring. I only felt the aftermath- the aches, cuts, bruises on my knuckles, and the occasional swelling on my body as an evidence of the vicious fights I have been into. But it never bothered me.”
He continues with a twisted sense of satisfaction in his tone.
“People would come and tell me how brutal I was in the ring, how mercilessly I pummeled my opponents, and I loved it. I was unstoppable like a machine, untouchable, unbeatable. They started calling me *Alpha* and it made me feel so fucking good to be on the top of the pyramid, being admired and scared by everyone.”
Lying silently beside him, I absorb his frantic heartbeats, his inhuman words, and his brooding satisfaction, while he talks about enjoying beating the shit out of people.
“Although it was an alternate personality, I never saw my Beast as a flaw. In fact, I never cared, or even looked it as a default in my nervous system, but more like a boon. He gave me confidence, a lime light in crowd, it made me feel like a God! I could see fear in the eyes of men as they stood against me, and desire in women as they approach me. I *fucking* loved it.”
And suddenly the wild, animalistic painting in his cabin flashes in my mind, when he mentioned how people turned him into a monster, but now he enjoys it.
“He made me felt powerful and strong, something I always craved.” Dakota breathes with an air of arrogance.
“My beast was my shield, my best friend.. until that accident three years ago.” Suddenly, his lofty voice lowers down to almost a depressive whisper.
His heart thuds rapidly through me, as if he has been transported back to that horrifying moment.
“What happened then?” I question gently, nudging his attention and providing a silent space for him to open up, just like I did.
Dakota inhales deeply, and I feel his fervent chest pressing on to my back, before he exhales anxiously.
“That accident just fucked me up so badly.. Physically, emotionally, and mentally that I started hearing voices in my head.” He says in a low, hesitant tone.
“It’s like through the cracks of my fractured brain, my hidden personality found a voice. It started like a soft whisper of motivation, pushing me to be stronger, but slowly the gentle voice gained power and turned into a roar, bullying me, dominating me to do as he say, and if God-forbid I oppose, then there is a vicious war of control inside my head.”
His voice grows dreadful, just like his panicking heart beats.
“And the worst part is..” Dakota pauses, his breaths sounds like a haunted echo before he confesses, “I always lose.”
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