Chapter 19- (Warning Spicy content)

Ember:
I don’t know what’s come over me, but I feel like someone has dunked me into a boiling pot of water. Ever since I walked in and saw both Lucas and James in their wolf forms, enormous both with long black hair, red eyes and fighting like breasts my whole body has been lit up. I hate that they were fight like that but when I pushed James off and knew they were both safe, the only thing I could think of or want was for both to have my body. The thought of them sharing me, both filling me made my thighs slick with arousal. The deep need and relentless fantasies haven’t gone away if anything they have only intensified. The pink nub at the apex of my thighs is aching and swollen, the need to have any kind of friction has me rubbing my legs together like a wanton cricket. James’s eyes are drinking me up as I step out of the bath. The longing to be filled overtaking everything else as I reach for James.
“Please make it stop, I need you.” My voice is husky and winey, I barely recognize myself, but he obeys and pushes me face down into the floor. He quickly tears out of his close as he growls out.
“I don’t think I can be gentile this time.” He thrust hard into me from behind making me scream out. He easily slides in with how wet I am. I should be embarrassed with my ass up and begging but I can’t manage to feel any shame. He takes me hard and fast and I scream out my release while he bites down hard on my shoulder and presses his fingers to my clit. I feel his release mixed with my own juices trickling down my thighs and I feel the ache inside subside slightly, at least now I don’t feel like I’ve been lit on fire. James tongue laps up the small amount of blood dripping down my shoulder, the bite should scare me but there is something so intense and fulfilling while being claimed like that. I truly feel like the most precious thing in the world to him.
When he rolls onto his back and pulls to me to his chest, I feel the ache inside me start building up again. I take control this time straddling his hips and sinking down onto his hard cock feeling so full of him and satisfied when he is inside me. I lose myself to the pleasure taking from him as he took from me riding him hard until I explode, my pussy clamping down on him so tight that I milk everything out of him. It makes me happy that his desire is as relentless as mine has become.
He takes me three more times that night before he finally falls asleep and I know after all that sex I should be stated but there is still a restlessness that is bouncing around inside me, an insatiable need that cant be stamped out. When I look out the window, I see sweet Lucas waiting outside for me. Even though I do have feelings for James and know I shouldn’t go outside, I do. The need to be near Lucas stronger than ever. The need to comfort and hold him almost unbearable. I take one last look at James sleeping form before I go down to meet his brother and the man that also owns a part of my heart.
“Lucas I wasn’t sure you would come.” I say as I close the gap between us, that burning need in my body stirring again. I go to his open arms and take comfort there. I let him lead me out of the garden and into the dark woods.
“God you smell good Ember. I hate that I have to sneak you into the woods at night to hold you like I want to. I know I should take you home to my brother and try to forget you, but I can’t. I’ve been trying to get you out of my mind every day since I saw you, but it’s impossible. I want you still, need you still. The desire and pull I feel towards you hasn’t lessened. I don’t want to betray him but at this point I will take you anyway I can have you, even if that is in the shadows after he has already had you. Knowing he has been inside you makes me want to go kill him so I can be the only man to fuck you, and that thought makes me hate myself because I love my brother.”
Hearing the heartbreak in his voice I hold him close to me and all I want is to comfort him and for him to know I feel the same pull and love for him but also, I share his guilt. “Then have me Lucas. Have me in the dark. I wont lie and say I feel nothing for James because I do. I can’t even work through the mess of feelings I have for both of you or pretend that I don’t feel like a slut for wanting you both the way I do, needing you both the way I do. I can’t you let you go either. Today seeing you both in the room like that made my mind go wild with all sorts of ideas that I know can’t be right. Please take me, I love you Lucas and if you don’t touch me it feels like I’ll die.” Not needing any further invitation, he was on me. Kissing me roughly as he pulled me down to the forest floor. I don’t care that I’ll get muddy or that there is a rock stabbing into my back all I want is Lucas buried inside me. My breathing is erratic as his hands tare the clothes from my body exposing me fully to him. My hands move to strip him needing to feel his skin on mine. I love the way his mouth lays claim to every inch of my body making my nerves feel like they’ve been struck by lightning. I can’t explain how right it feels to be in his arms, like I belong there. To feel his body, take possession of my own is exactly what I’ve been needing.
Even though I’m wet he eases himself inside me, you would think that being with James so many times tonight that I wouldn’t be so sensitive to each sensation but having him like this slowly filling me is overwhelming. We both gasp as he sheathes himself to hilt inside me and slowly pulls himself only to repeat this over and over. Each time he is fully inside me he lifts up, slightly rubbing along the spot that makes my vision blurry while grinding his pelvis on my clit feels like magic. Pure pot of gold at the end of the rainbow magic. I want to feel this forever. My nails drag across his back marking him as my own while he starts hammering into me completely losing his control. As we both come close to climax, he bites down hard pinning me to the ground with his teeth right next to and overlapping his brother’s mark. Blood drips from where his teeth hold me and from where my nails are embedded into his back, I can’t help but scream his name over and over as we both plummet over the edge. I take his weights as he collapses onto my chest and then I feel the darkness seep into my heart knowing that soon he will go back to his house and I will go to mine. All I want is to stay in his arms all night. I know I can’t have them both, but I can’t give either up. Only now that Lucas’s spunk is seeping out of me do I feel stated no longer burning with the need that drove me wild tonight. I feel satisfied now in a way that I haven’t before I don’t know how but I have to find a way keep them both.
Lucas:
Having Ember in my arms again feels amazing. Leaving her on the back doorstep of my brother’s house knowing she will crawl into bed with him tonight is agony. All I want is to take her home and hide her away but until we figure out how this is going to work, but I can’t. I see all that my brother has done to build our community back up and I feel my chest tighten knowing I betrayed him tonight and will again. I see how happy the men are with their new mates and how well the women have started to settle in. I am happy to think in a year or so we might hear the cries of young ones again. We have hope and a future to look forward to. I just pray to the moon goddess that my love for Ember won’t hurt what we have worked so hard to build. When I get home, I notice a plate has been left for me. Ava has been settling in and I’m happy to give her security, but I’m fearful of the feelings that I think she has been developing. I don’t want to hurt her, but I also don’t want her to hope for something that will never happen. Someday I want her to find someone who will love and cherish her the way I do Ember. I did tell her before that I had no intention of having that kind of relationship with her, maybe I’m reading into things, but she has seemed different with me lately. The last thing I need right now is another complicated relationship.