Chapter 20-(Warning Some Spicy Content)

Ava:
I feel so incredibly stupid. I followed Lucas knowing he was going to meet Ember, but a small part of me had hoped that she would turn him down or they would mutually break things off. They must know if they are sneaking around that it’s not right. Watching them make love crushed any hope I had that Lucas could fall for me. How could he when he touches Ember like that. I saw his face when he pushed into her, the releif that came over him, like he was home inside her. I wish that James had chosen me instead of Ember, I would have cherished him, not snuck around to fuck his brother behind his back. I hate that I’m stuck in this awful place. I should be home living a normal life, meeting and falling in love with a normal man. Not in some wolf community where I am clearly unwanted. All of the other women are happy and loved but here I am sneaking around in the dark longing after something that I clearly won’t ever get. I leave them in their throws of passion and make my way home, suddenly when I get close to the house I feel the hairs on the back of my neck stand up. I look around because it feels like I’m being watched, but nothing is there. I break out into a run and get into the house as fast as I can still feeling uneasy as I enter my room in the house. There is a huge part of me that wants to be petty and throw away the delicious dinner that I made for Lucas. I know roast is his favorite and since he hasn’t been eating with everyone, I wanted to make him something special. I should dump it, but I don’t, instead I walk upstairs and run a bath hoping to cleanse the awful night from my body.
Ember:
I feel like a criminal sneaking back into bed with James after cleaning the dirt and cum from my body and clothes. I know I should tell him but I’m afraid. What if he flies off the handle and kills Lucas or even me? No even as the thought runs through my mind, I know he wouldn’t hurt me. He is a brute, but I know he would never lay a hand on me, Lucas on the other hand I’m not so sure about. I need to find a way to work this out, to find a way that we can all be happy. Is it even possible for me to be with both of them? How would it even work, would I go back and forth between them or would we all live together? That is my greatest desire but one I know wouldn’t be without incredible challenge. Right now, I’m too tired to figure anything out my body is beyond spent.
When I wake up, I’m in bed alone and guilt, not from making love to Lucas because I can’t bring myself to regret that, but guilt from not telling James eats at me. I will tell him today, we can’t move forward with this secret looming over us, I just hope he loves me enough to figure it out. I wonder where James is, ever since he brought me home, we have always gone to bed together and woken up the same. When I look around the room, I notice a note on the bedside table.
Ember, Shane alerted me early this morning to a security risk. I went with him and a few warriors to secure our border. Please stay inside until I return. All females are supposed to stay inside today, so I would appreciate you setting the example for them, also the thought of you in any danger makes me want to burn the world down. You mean more to me than anything. I love you. -James Shame once again fills me when I read his sweet words full of concern for me. I go down the stairs fully intending on doing as I was asked.
After a light breakfast and the afternoon spent beside the warm fire reading, I notice a familiar figure standing outside by the garden. When Lucas waves for me to come out and meet him I do. I run out to him and love that he holds me tightly to his chest. I was hoping James would be home by now, the security breach had scared me a bit. When I think of all of the women and children who had been slaughtered in their homes it made me fearful of what could happen. James had explained to me and the other women in one of our first pack meetings that there is an underground bunker set up in case of emergencies. If we hear the bell ringing that we are to go there as quickly as possible.
“Lucas I’m happy to see you but James should be back soon, and I don’t want him to find out about us this this way. I decided I want to tell him, to see if there is a way that we can work this out. I can’t give either of you up.” “I’m glad you want to tell him, and I agree this sneaking around won’t end well, but I want you to wait until we can tell him together. I don’t want him flying off the handle with you, and I will not be a coward who can’t own his own actions.” “Lucas, me telling him without you does not make you a coward.” He shuts down the argument by kissing me deeply. I love how his tongue explores my mouth and I quickly start getting wet.
“Anyway, this was not why I came over I had to come check on you, I was worried. Shane was on patrol last night and found tracks near our border. We think there might be hunters nearby. Make sure if you ever hear the bell that you don’t look back and you get to that shelter as fast as you can, understand?” “Yes, I will I promise.” “Well since I’m already here and I know your wet for me come let me get a taste of you. I have been thinking about your delicious pussy all day. I have patrol tonight, so I won’t be able to come until late.” It’s hard to think with his mouth on me and his big hands pulling at my hard nipples. “I should go back inside.” I tell him between fierce kisses. “James should be home soon, and I don’t want to hurt him.” Lucas’s strong hands grip my throat and he leans in until we are sharing the same breath. “When you’re with me the only name I want on your lips is mine. Show me that I belong to you as much as he does, show me that it’s real. I don’t want to only be your dirty secret I need to know how you feel about me.” “Lucas I love you; you know this. Come let me show you how much.” I lead him into the woods behind the house not as far as we went before but still out of eyesight. I push Lucas’s strong, hard body against a tree and kiss him with fierce possessiveness. “Don’t ever question my love for you again. You belong to me Lucas, now bow down and show me how sorry you are for questioning my love.” I love the way his eyes turn black and he spins us so that the tree bark scratches my back. I feel on the edge of combustion as he sinks down to his knees before me, pushing my dress above my hips. We keep eye contact while he pulls my leg over his shoulder opening me to him. I can’t help but cry out when he latches onto my clit, sucking me while he enters me with his thick calloused fingers. When I’m writhing and on the edge, he stands and frees his enormous erection, filling me with one hard stabbing thrust. I’m sobbing with pleasure while he jackhammers into me fucking me hard, claiming me and punishing me at the same time. I scratch my nails down his broad back as he hits that spot inside me over and over that makes my eyes roll back in my head. Goddess he feels so good. When we finally break apart after our shared climax, I feel him dripping down my thighs. He looks at the mess he's made of me and uses his still semi-hard cock to shove his spunk back inside of me. "I like knowing a part of me is still inside you when I have to leave." Lucas walks me to the edge of the garden giving me a final kiss before promising to come back to me soon. “I love you Lucas.” I tell him and my heart leaps at the playful, boyish smile that he gifts me promising wickedness as he leaves. I quickly run into the house feeling elated and go to wash up when I run face first into what feels like a brick wall. Only when I step back and look into the furious face of James do I realize that it was no brick wall, but my very angry mate.